Faith, Folk and Charity

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  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter Eight.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    Chapter 8

    LUKE (DECEMBER 2014)

    The snow came at the end of October, and by the middle of November there was a permanent covering a foot and a half deep. Most people were wise about snow tires, careful braking, and all the other features of winter driving, but there were a few who weren’t, and for a couple of weeks we saw some fender benders, people skidding off the road into ditches, and old cars that wouldn’t start on frosty mornings. For myself, I’d put my winter tires on my truck the last week of October, and a few sandbags in the back to give weight over the wheels. By the end of November Cooper was riding in the cab with me when we drove to the regional park or the river valley, and on our daily walks I was wearing winter boots and a warm parka. I didn’t think anything of it; I’d been born in this country and in this climate, and the cycle of the seasons was as familiar to me as the cycle of the school year.

    Jo had been born in Toronto where the climate was very different—she still wasn’t very forthcoming about that, and I had decided not to push the issue—but she had lived in Saskatoon for eight years, so cold weather and block heaters were already a part of her life. But the particular features of winter in rural Saskatchewan—the need to carry blankets, warm clothes and an emergency kit in case your car went off the road miles from home, the advisability of packing a towing chain if you were driving a small car, in case someone had to tow you out of the ditch—these things were new to her. But she was a good listener and a good learner; she wasn’t afraid to ask questions, you never had to tell her anything twice, and it didn’t take me long to stop worrying about her.

    She had expressed an interest in birding, and I had begun to take her out with me on Saturdays to places where I knew she would see particular species. She bought a fairly decent pair of binoculars, and before long she was finding her feet, learning to identify the common species, learning to hear the different cries and songs. I told her she’d chosen the best time of year to learn to be a birder; in the winter there were only a few different species around and it was fairly easy to distinguish them. The spring would be more challenging; when the spring migration arrived, the woods would be bursting with life and the air full of the sound of hundreds of different—or not so different—birdsongs. She was keen, and it was fun seeing her finding her feet in a world that was completely new to her. And I had to admit that I was happy to discover something new we could share.

    Of course, we were both busy at work. She continued to give her best time to visiting her new parishioners; she was determined to be available and accessible, and to lead by her example of listening and caring and loving. I knew her well enough to know that this was not performative with her; despite the fact that she tended to be an introvert, her care for others was genuine, and most people sensed it very quickly.

    As for me, the school year quickly clicked into high gear, and the weekly schedule I had previously described to Jo became my lived reality. I had been teaching long enough now to know my own strengths and weaknesses, to enjoy the good days and roll with the hard days, to be patient with those who struggled, firm with the troublemakers, and encouraging to as many as possible. I enjoyed my colleagues, especially Nicky and Lisa, both of whom I counted as close friends. Lisa as our principal was thoroughly decent, patient, firm and wise, and I counted myself lucky to be at Westbury Community School with her. Nicky, being a Grade 6 teacher, was in a different section of the school from me, but I was always happy to see her at lunch breaks and in the corridor with her fiery red hair and her sparkling Scottish wit.

    Jo’s rectory was a fairly basic sort of place, though she quickly made it home. But my house had the added attraction of the open fireplace, and early in the Fall I got in a load of wood. I rarely visited her at the rectory, but a couple of times a week (often before or after dog walks or birding expeditions) she came over to my place to sit by the fire, sip a beer or a cup of dark roast coffee, and just put her feet up and relax. We would talk about the sort of day we’d had, shoot the breeze about politics or music or religion, and just enjoy each other’s company. I knew people were making assumptions about us (you can’t park your car outside someone else’s house in small town Saskatchewan without people noticing), but I had long since decided that none of that mattered to me. Marcus and James and I had been friends for years, and I had never thought I needed any more than that, but now, to my surprise, I had a new friend, and I was glad of her company.

    ***

    “So—how was the trip to Pine Lake?’

    Jo stretched her feet out toward the fireplace, took a sip of her coffee, and cupped her hands around the mug. “Interesting,” she said with a slight frown. “Not like anything I’d expected.”

    “How so?”

    She shrugged. “Well, for one thing, it’s so spread out, isn’t it?”

    “It is that.”

    It was the first Saturday morning in December, and the mercury had gone down to minus twenty-five Celsius overnight. We had walked our dogs together that morning, bundled up in our down parkas, winter boots and thick tuques, our breath hanging in the frigid Arctic air that had enveloped the central prairie region since the middle of the week. The dogs had seemed happy enough to run, but as soon as we got back to my place, they had positioned themselves as close to the fire as they could, and were now sprawled out in front of us, entertaining us with their snores.

    Jo had shucked her parka in the porch, but was still wearing her thick woolly tuque. She was sitting on my left, and she glanced across at me. “It’s not like there’s this big patch of land, and in the middle of it a town or a village. It’s more like there are these little clusters of houses scattered across the whole—what was it? Fifty square kilometres?”

    “Fifty-six, to be exact.”

    “Right.”

    “So Stephen showed you around?”

    “Yeah. First he took me straight to the church, where we sat and prayed for a while. I found the church very moving.”

    “No stained glass, but lots of art.”

    “Yeah, including that really striking painting behind the altar.”

    “Christ as a young Cree man. Yeah, that catches your eye, doesn’t it?”

    “He said it’s recent, and local?”

    “It’s by Della Stonechild. She’s originally from James Smith First Nation, but she married Dwayne Sutherland and moved to Pine Lake about twenty-five years ago. They’re the parents of Stephanie Sutherland, who works at the Arts Barn café. Della’s a really talented artist. Her paintings fetch good prices in Saskatoon.”

    “I remember you mentioning her to me, but I haven’t met her yet. Anyway, after the church we went to the band office and I met the chief…”

    “Ivan.”

    “Ivan Burns, who is apparently Stephen’s cousin—is that right?”

    “Second cousin, once removed.”

    She laughed at me. “You certainly know the place!”

    “The people, anyway. Ivan married a Sutherland, so he’s related to James and his whole clan.”

    “Are there just a few surnames in the whole place?”

    “Pretty much. Sandersons, Sutherlands, Burns’, Matchaps, Baldheads, Pauls, Birds, Rosses. That just about does it. A few who’ve married into the community—a couple of Nowakayas’ from away northeast, Stonechilds, McKays…”

    “Did you know them all when you were growing up?”

    “Dad had his steady workers—Sutherlands and Sandersons and Pauls—but once I started hanging out with James I got to know a much wider group. Anyway, you met Ivan…”

    “Yeah, he’d brought three elders in—Caroline Sanderson, Silas Matchap, and Thomas Ross—and we had the most amazing time drinking tea and sharing stories about the old days. Heartbreaking stories, some of them—poverty, racism, alcoholism, residential schools—but also some of the most hilarious—oh my God, Luke, I don’t think I’ve laughed so hard in months!”

    I smiled, enjoying her obvious sense of delight. “They do have a good sense of humour, don’t they?”

    “Yeah. By the way, your Cree kokum is apparently under the impression that you’re dating me!”

    “James likes to get me in trouble.”

    “Oh, he’s to blame, is he?”

    “Well, partly.” I met her gaze. “Caroline might have noticed that I talk about you from time to time.”

    I saw the sudden stillness on her face. “Yeah?”

    “Yeah.” I shrugged. “I like you, Jo. I like spending time with you.”

    She nodded slowly. “I like you too, Luke Hiebert. You’re good for my soul.”

    “Me and my fireplace.”

    She grinned. “Your fireplace is good for my soul and my body!”

    “Getting back to your day at Pine Lake…”

    “Yeah, well, Stephen drove me around to see the place, and we stopped by and visited a few people. He took me into the school for a while, introduced me to some kids, some teachers—James says hi, by the way—and I met Janine, the principal…”

    “She’s a good one.”

    “She’s related to James, right?”

    “His older cousin—through his dad’s older brother.”

    “So yeah, that was it, really. I went back to Stephen’s place and met Mary, his wife, and we had more tea and bannock, and then I came home.”

    “So what did you learn?”

    “I’m still processing that, Luke. I appreciate the question, but can you ask me again in a few days? I feel like I have to take that one for a few walks and journal it before I really know the answer.”

    “I can respect that.” I took a sip of my coffee. “So, you plunge into the Christmas season.”

    “Advent. We’re in Advent right now.”

    “Right; Marcus and Nicky have explained this to me. Well, Nicky more than Marcus. She’s the high church member of the family.”

    “Yeah. So we use an Advent wreath, and follow an Advent theme each Sunday, but by the time you reach the middle of December Christmas is starting to swallow up Advent. But I like the Advent themes—the return of Christ, the coming of the Kingdom of God, the messianic prophecies of hope—all that stuff—so I try not to rush toward Christmas too fast.”

    “I like that about you Anglicans. You’re kind of like the Lord of the Rings, aren’t you?”

    “Are we?”

    “I’m thinking about how there’s the story on the surface of the Lord of the Rings, and then there’s this massive backstory that Tolkien had written, but never published, and it keeps peeping through in the Lord of the Rings. You guys are like that with all your traditions and customs. There’s a rich text there somewhere, but I don’t know where it’s published, so I can’t seem to access it. I like it, but it confuses me, too.”

    She was quiet for a moment, and then she said, “Luke, sometime in the not too distant future, I’m going to ask you to share with me what you enjoy about being a Mennonite.”

    “Yeah?”

    “Yeah. And I’m not just talking about farmer sausage and Dutch Blitz.”

    “You know about Dutch Blitz? I’m impressed!”

    “Well, I did have Mennonite friends in Saskatoon.”

    “Right, I keep forgetting that.”

    “Seriously, though—the way your parents have quietly lived their faith in the river valley for decades, and been reconcilers with the indigenous people, and the way you live your faith, too, quietly, without making a big fuss about it—I find it tremendously attractive. And it connects with that whole Red Letter Christian thing which has inspired me since before I became a Christian myself. So—not today, but soon…?”

    I nodded. “Sure; I’d love to do that.”

    “Thanks.’

    ***

    As we moved through the month of December I saw less and less of Jo. We still walked our dogs together at least once a week (sometimes twice), but she rarely came back to my place afterwards, pleading the amount of work she had to do. The local ministerial association was running a food bank drive through the four weeks of Advent, and Jo was heavily involved in it, not only promoting it at St. Andrew’s, but also recruiting a few volunteers (one of whom, of course, would be her) to help sort and distribute the food once it had all been collected. She was also helping the Sunday School prepare a Christmas pageant that would be part of the service on December 21, the last Sunday of Advent. As usual, rehearsals were chaotic, as there was never a time when every single child was present, so the teachers were always playing catch-up with kids who had been absent for the previous session.

    In addition to her regular Sunday services, she was leading several Advent quiet days, providing additional pastoral care for those who found the season difficult, and preparing for the special services on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. There would be a 7.00 p.m. Christmas Eve communion service at Westbury, an 11 p.m. at Rochdale (which would be a candlelight service), and a 10 a.m. Christmas Day service at Howden. And then, Christmas being a Thursday, she had her normal Sunday services to prepare for, three days after Christmas, knowing that even though she would be there, many others would take a break from church that day.

    Also, someone was bugging her with text messages. I had noticed for some time that occasionally a text message seemed to cause her some discomfort or distress; we might be out walking and her phone would ping, and when she looked at the screen it was as if a shadow fell across her face for a moment. But only for a moment; she always recovered quickly, thrust the phone decisively back into her pocket, and gave me a cheerful grin. And I began to wonder, what aren’t you telling me, Johanna Rose?

    ***

    In contrast, Christmas at Westbury Mennonite Church was a fairly simple affair, centred on two things: singing and food.

    Well, singing, anyway. Food was present, too, but that was more of a home thing. Out at the farm my mom was making peppernuts (pfeffernusse) and sour cream cookies, peppermint cookies made with baker’s ammonia (I kid you not), and icicles (zuckerhoernchen), along with her usual home-made bread and bread rolls (zwieback). Of course, lots of other people were making the same things, and they soon began to show up at coffee hour after church on Sunday, so yeah, I guess the food was a church thing too.

    But the singing was central. Our church didn’t normally have a choir, but it did at Christmas time, as our music director strongarmed people into volunteering for it (no one ever said no to Elsie Dueck!). And, truth be told, people didn’t need much strongarming; there’s just something in the Mennonite DNA that breaks instinctively into four-part harmony at the drop of a hat, and Elsie knew how to bring it out of people, even if they didn’t believe they had it. We always sang a lot on Sundays, but on Christmas Eve (our only Christmas service) we sang even more than usual, and when we weren’t singing, the choir was singing to us. Pastor Dan’s sermon might have to be a little shorter, but no one dared suggest that Elsie cut out a hymn or two.

    Pastor Dan was a good preacher, and I liked him just fine, even though some of our members thought he’d gotten a little too much of that modern biblical scholarship when he went to that fancy school in the States. Our church always had a contingent that thought Mennonite theology was straying a little too far from Moody and Sankey revivalism. I, on the other hand, took the view that if I wanted American evangelicalism I’d go to the Baptists or the Pentecostals, so I was glad Dan knew a thing or two about what made us different from them.

    But that’s us Mennonites; we’re pacifists, but we love a good church squabble. There’s a tiny community not far from us that has seven different Mennonite churches in a fifteen-mile radius. When asked to explain this, they’re likely to smile at you and say, “It’s because we believe in unity in the church.” And if you’re an Anglican like Jo, your head will spin at a comment like that, and you’ll wonder if there’s an entirely separate Mennonite dictionary in which ‘unity’ means ‘disunity.’ In fact, of course, the statement makes perfect sense to us; we believe in unity in the church, so if there’s no unity, we just break away and form a new church made up of people who think exactly like we do.

    ***

    One day when Jo did manage to come back to my place after our dog walk, I put her in the rocking chair in front of the fire with a mug of hot chocolate in her hands, while I took the corner armchair. I noted the dark circles under her eyes. “You’re tired,” I observed.

    “Yeah. It’s been a week.”

    “Christmas stuff?”

    “Yeah.”

    “How’s the food drive going?”

    “Good, but it’s a lot of work, too. And I’m so stressed out about this Christmas pageant. I don’t know why I let myself get talked into helping with it instead of just leaving it to the Sunday School teachers. I like to be helpful, I guess. Nicky warned me about that.”

    I grinned. “That’s our Nicky. I can almost hear her voice…” I put on my best imitation of a Scottish accent. “Now, Jo, the baby Jesus’ll no’ be fasht if you leave the wee pageant to Jenni and Amber…”

    She burst out laughing. “That’s almost exactly what she said!”

    “Fiery and rambunctious at times, but often wise too, our Nicola.”

    She nodded slowly. “I know. Next time…”

    We were quiet for a moment, the only sounds in the room the breathing of the dogs, the crackle of the wood on the fire, and the slow creak of the rocking chair. Eventually she sighed, put her head back, and said, “Then there’s the Christmas dinner dilemma.”

    “If it’s to do with food, Mennonites can help!”

    She grinned at me. “That’s what I hear. But this isn’t about food so much as where I eat it—or who I eat it with.”

    “Ah—multiple invitations?”

    “Yep. One from Caleb and Sarah, three from the church, and…” she hesitated for a moment, and then continued, “…one from Ontario.”

    I raised an eyebrow. “This is from the family I’m not supposed to ask you about?”

    “I’m sorry, Luke—I promise you, one day I will tell you the whole story, but at the moment…”

    “It’s okay, Jo.”

    “Is it? I feel like I’m not being fair to you.”

    I shook my head. “Tell me about the other invitations.”

    “Art and Carol, Lisa and Scott, and the Fulchers.”

    “The last thing you want is to have to be ‘on duty’ for a few more hours after the Christmas Day service, right?”

    “Honestly, Luke, I know from past experience that I’m just going to want to crawl into a corner and sleep.”

    “And Caleb and Sarah?”

    “I love them dearly, but I’ll be too exhausted to drive to Saskatoon on Christmas afternoon.”

    We were quiet again; in front of the fire Cooper sighed in his sleep and rolled over onto his side.

    “Come to Mom and Dad’s,” I said.

    “Yeah?”

    “Yeah; it’s going to be quiet this year. Normally we have at least one set of grandparents there, but this year they’re all going to other aunts and uncles, and my brother Joel’s going to Carly’s family. Jess and Aaron will be up from Regina, but they’re smart, and so are Mom and Dad, and if you and Finn want to curl up in the corner and sleep, they’ll be fine with that. My dad’s been known to have a Christmas afternoon nap himself from time to time.”

    “Your mom didn’t seem very keen on leaving me alone last time.”

    “True, but I’ve had a word with her about that since then.”

    She smiled at me. “You have?”

    “Yep.”

    “Are you going to tell me about it?”

    I shook my head. “Nope. Just that she won’t bug you.”

    “Okay then…”

    ***

    On Christmas Eve I went to Westbury Mennonite Church for our early evening service. I can tell you this for sure: there’s something special about a church full of Mennonites singing confidently in four-part harmony with a whole lot of Christmas joy on their faces. My German is pretty rudimentary, but even I loved that moment at the end of the service when, having sung ‘Silent Night’ in English, we proceeded to sing the whole thing again in the original language: Stille Nacht, Heilige Nacht…

    Pastor Dan Giesbrecht managed to offend the Bible-thumping contingent just a wee bit (as Nicky Fox would say) with his sermon on ‘The Word became flesh and dwelt among us.’ “The Word became flesh,” Dan said; “The Word didn’t become a book. Jesus is the true Word of God; if we want to read about God most accurately, we read the life of Jesus. Other words point to Jesus, but Jesus himself is the highest and brightest and clearest vision we have of the perfect will of God.” Thank you, Dan, I thought, for reminding people what makes us different from Baptists and Pentecostals. More power to your dangerous radical Anabaptist vision!

    On Christmas morning I got up and took my dog for a walk through the quiet streets of Westbury. The walk ended up at my goddaughter’s house, where Marcus and Nicky and Daisy were opening presents and drinking strong coffee. Nicky cooked me a huge plate of bacon and eggs, Marcus gave me a couple of new bluegrass CDs, and then I got down on the floor with Daisy for an hour or so, playing with farm animals and Lego and reading her stories and even singing a funny song or two for her. At one point Cooper got in on the fun, but pretty soon I had to restrain her from trying to ride him like a horse. Cooper’s a pretty easy-going dog, but he draws the line at horseplay.

    I took him home just before noon, put one of my new CDs on, made myself a fresh cup of coffee, and then called Jo’s cell.

    “Hey,” she said, “Merry Christmas.”

    “You sound remarkably awake and cheerful for a girl who’s just finished Christmas service number three.”

    “Trust me, it’s all an act. I’m too exhausted to drive. Do you think we can fit two humans and two dogs in your truck?”

    “Sure. It’s not too cold today, so Cooper can ride in the penthouse.”

    “Sure?”

    “He’s done it before.”

    “Thanks, Luke.”

    “See you in about fifteen minutes.”

    ***

    The farmyard was a winter wonderland, with two feet of snow on the ground and hoarfrost on the trees. We left Cooper and Finn outside to run around with Mom and Dad’s dogs, and went inside to greet my family. Jess and Aaron were meeting Jo for the first time, but I had quietly primed my sister to give her some space, and after a few minutes conversation, Mom put a mug of herbal tea in her hand and sent her into the living room to curl up in the big armchair by the fireplace. When I looked in ten minutes later, she was fast asleep with a half-empty mug in her hand; I took it carefully from her fingers, watched her sleeping for a moment, and then went out to the kitchen to join the others.

    “Wow, she really is exhausted, isn’t she?” said Jess as she and my mom worked on the vegetables.

    “She’s had a big month,” I replied.

    Jess gave me a mischievous grin. “She’s pretty!”

    “Yes she is, but we’re not dating, so you don’t need to go down that road.”

    “If you say so…”

    Later in the afternoon, as the sun was going down, Jo and I took a winter walk. We followed the highway half a mile east to the edge of the trees, then cut north along the tree line until we found the trail my dad kept clear, winding through the bush toward a narrow frozen creek. The dogs ran ahead, and after a while I felt Jo take my arm. “Merry Christmas,” she said softly.

    “Merry Christmas, Johanna Rose.”

    She was quiet for a moment as we walked slowly under the snow-clad trees; off in the distance I heard a woodpecker’s beak tapping against a tree trunk, the sound amplified in the frigid air. And then I heard Jo’s sigh. “Luke,” she said, “there’s something I need to tell you.”

    “Yeah?”

    “Yes. I—I don’t have a very good relationship with my family back in Ontario.”

    “I’ve guessed that.”

    “Dad’s a very successful businessman, and that’s what drives his life—business success. And I’ve never been remotely interested in that.”

    “I imagine that doesn’t exactly make him proud and happy.”

    “No.”

    We slowed a little as we got close to the creek, and I waited, knowing she would say what she wanted to say in her own time.

    “The thing is, my dad used to call me Johanna Rose, and sometimes he still does.”

    “Uh-oh.”

    “Yeah. But it’s not the words themselves; it’s how he uses them. It’s always coupled with a slow shake of his head and a disappointed expression in his eyes. It’s never a beautiful gift, which I know is the way you mean it. I just need you to know that back story.”

    “Jo,” I said softly, “I’m so sorry. I wish I’d known before I started saying it.”

    “I don’t want you to stop saying it. With you, like I said, it’s a beautiful gift, and I want to get more comfortable with it, so I can accept it and be happy about it. But I just wanted you to know why it’s not always easy for me.”

     “Message received,” I said. “I will keep that in mind.”

    “Thank you.”

    ***

    By the time the six of us sat around the supper table, Jo had recovered her poise. She chatted easily with my mom, bantered back and forth with Jess, and talked quietly with my dad. She was seated across the table from me, and from time to time she tilted her head a little to her left as she listened to me, the ghost of a smile playing around her lips.

    At one point my brother-in-law Aaron asked her, “Do you get a few days off now, Jo?”

    “Tomorrow, and maybe half of Saturday” she replied. “Saturday afternoon I’ve got a little work to do, because I’m in the saddle again on Sunday.”

    “Preaching?” asked my father.

    “No—Marcus Janzen kindly offered to preach at all three of my services. But I’m presiding at the Eucharist, so I’ll be up front as usual.”

    By now I was familiar enough with Jo’s Anglican-speak to be able to interpret for her when she was talking to Mennonites. “In the Anglican tradition it has to be an ordained priest who leads a communion service,” I said to Aaron, “and Jo’s parishioners are used to having communion every week, so she’s always on deck.”

    “Wow, that’s a little different from us,” said Jess. “With us, we have different service leaders taking turns.”

    “Although it is normally Pastor Dan who leads our communion services,” I said. ‘It’s just that we only have them once a month.”

    “Right.” Jess frowned thoughtfully. “Why do Anglicans have communion so often,” she asked Jo. “Sorry—I’m not trying to be rude; I genuinely want to know.”

    “No offense taken,” Jo replied. “We take our lead from the practice of the early Christian centuries, especially the apostolic fathers—the first and second century leaders who followed on from the apostles. Every time they talk about Sunday worship they talk about the Eucharist. There’s no record of any other form of Sunday worship among Christians.”

    “But the Bible doesn’t require that, does it?”

    “No, but these are the same church councils that finalised the table of contents of our Bible, so it’s a little inconsistent if we follow their lead about which books should be in the Bible, but part company with them in other areas.” She grinned mischievously at Jess. “But there’s no need for us to be controversial about it with our Christmas dinner, is there?”

    “Agreed,” said my dad, “although another time, I wouldn’t mind hearing you unpack that argument a little more.”

    “I could do that.”

    “So what are you going to do with your time off?” Jess asked her.

    “Tomorrow I plan to sleep late! But early in the afternoon I’ve got two friends coming to stay overnight, one from Saskatoon and one from Borden. The one from Saskatoon I’ve known since I was a student in Toronto; we first met fourteen years ago. The one from Borden is another Anglican priest; we shared an apartment together while we were seminary students.”

    “That’ll be nice for you,” said my mom. “People you can let your hair down with, at least a little.”

    Jo smiled and nodded. “I’m really looking forward to it,” she said.

    I was watching her and listening to what she had to say, noticing the curve of her cheek and the intoxicating way her red hair tumbled down loose over her shoulders, and I suddenly realized that something else was going on, too; I was feeling something inside that I hadn’t felt for a while. Luke Hiebert, I said to myself, you’re in love with Jo Warren.

    Except that you’re in love with the Jo Warren you know. And she’s told you explicitly that there’s more. Be careful. Wait for her to tell you the rest of the story.

    Right. As you were, Hiebert.

    “Anyone interested in coffee?” asked my mom.

    “Yes!” said about three different people at once.

    “You sit tight, Mom,” said Jess, getting up from her seat. “I’ll make the coffee.”

    “Thanks, honey,” my mother replied.

    Jo was watching me across the table. “You okay?” she asked.

    “I am,” I replied with a grin. “Have you ever played Dutch Blitz?”

    She laughed. “I have not!”

    “Today might be your lucky day!”

  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter Seven.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    Chapter 7

    JO (NOV 4-12, 2014)

    The following Tuesday at about eleven in the morning I was working at my desk at the church when the phone rang at my elbow. Glancing out of my window at the wet snow coming down outside, I picked up the phone and put it to my ear. “St. Andrew’s Anglican Church,” I said. “Jo speaking.”

    “Jo—Ron Boyko. How you doin’ this morning?”

    “Pretty well, thanks, Ron. You?”

    “Pretty good. Got plans for lunch?”

    I glanced at my dog, who had pushed himself up into a sitting position and was looking eagerly at me, his tail thumping on the rug. “Not at the moment,” I replied with a grin.

    “I run a little electronics store, but I leave it in the hands of one of my employees from twelve to one while I grab a bite to eat. Can I interest you in a table at Tim Horton’s? I’m buying.”

    “You sure can. I’ll need to let my dog out into the back yard to do what dogs do, but after that, I’ll meet you there.”

    “Okey-Dokey. See you a couple minutes after twelve, then.”

    ***

    I had spoken to Ron in church a few times since my arrival in the parish, and he was on my list of parishioners to call about a visit. He was in his late forties, a big man, tall and somewhat overweight. He wore his greying dark hair a little long, and had a neatly trimmed goatee which occasionally came close to being a full beard when he neglected to shave for a couple of weeks. I usually saw him in black pants and an open necked shirt—often black too—and if the weather was cool enough, he would add a light jacket. Most weeks he came to church by himself, but sometimes he brought a young red-haired woman with him, who he had introduced to me on my second or third Sunday in Westbury as his daughter Ashley. “She’s a nursing student in Saskatoon,” he explained to me. “Just about to start her third year. Pretty smart cookie, that one.”

    I asked Nicky about him, and she said, “Yeah, he used to be married, but it broke up a long time ago. I think his ex-wife lives in Saskatoon now. Debbie—she’s a Pickersgill, so she’s connected to the Pickersgills in Rochdale and Westbury. That’s a pretty big family. They’re English in background, but Ron’s Ukrainian, as you might have recognised.”

    “The name kind of gave it away. What’s their story, Ron and Debbie—do you know?”

    “I know bits of it, but you’d be better to get it from him.”

    “Good point.”

    ***

    When it came to the ‘Arts Barn Café or Tim Horton’s?’ question, I inclined toward the Arts Barn myself, but I knew that a large group of my parishioners were definitely in the Tim Horton’s camp (some of them would probably have seen the Arts Barn crowd as a gaggle of urban lefties, accidentally relocated in rural Saskatchewan and huddling together for protection). That being the case, my usual line when making a coffee appointment with someone was to ask, “Arts Barn or Timmie’s?” Occasionally someone indicated a preference for a third option—the town bakery, which had two or three tables and a coffee pot, or even the Dairy Queen—but mostly it boiled down to the two most popular places.

    Timmie’s was definitely doing a roaring trade at lunch time, and as I pulled into the parking lot I wondered whether Ron and I would be able to find a table. I glanced around the crowded room, and then I saw Ron’s waving hand off in the corner. He got to his feet, hoisted his belt up a bit, and came over to me with a smile on his face. “Business is hopping today!” he said with a grin.

    “Popular place,” I replied.

    “What’re you having?”

    “A black coffee and something to go with it. I don’t tend to be a big lunch eater—probably a wrap or something.”

    “Right—let’s do it, then.”

    ***

    “You’re a long way from home, Jo,” Ron commented as he took a first sip of his coffee (‘double-double’, as they say at Timmie’s).

    “I guess so, although I’ve lived in the west for almost a third of my life now, so I feel pretty much at home here, too.”

    “What brought you out here from T’ranna?”

    I shrugged my shoulders. “A few things, I guess. I wanted a change. And I’d made a really close friend at university who was from Saskatoon, and when we were done and she knew I was at a loose end, she invited me to come stay with her family. So I did, and then pretty quickly I started working at the Sally Ann, and then things just took their course.” I grinned at him. “What about you? Born and bred here?”

    “Yup. Good old Ukrainian Catholic family. My dad was born in Wakaw, my mom’s from here—she’s a Borecki.”

    “Oh—related to Carly?”

    “She’s my niece—my mom’s brother’s daughter. I’m also related to Bruce Thompson—he married my big sister Sharon. She’s the oldest in our family. There’s seven of us all together. Some of us still live here; some are in the city. Some are in Alberta.”

    “Oilpatch?”

    “Yeah, or oilpatch-related.”

    “And you stayed home and became the town fix-it guy for computers and all that.”

    “I always did like gadgets, even when I was a kid. I was the boy who took everything to pieces and put it all back together again; I was already making money doing that when I was in my teens. We got a Commodore Sixty-Four when I was eighteen, and a few years later I got a second-generation Mac. Kinda went from there. My store used to be a Radio Shack, and I worked there for a few years, then when they wanted to sell, I bought the place and made it my own business. I’ve got lots of stuff in there, of course, not just computers, and three people working for me. I manage it and do a lot of the repair work. Also, St. Andrew’s gets free repair and maintenance from me, so if you have problems with the printer or the PC, let me know. Although I notice you seem to prefer your own laptop.”

    “I’m used to it.”

    “Fair enough. St. Andrew’s is like lotsa small churches—it gets computers when folks from the church are upgrading, and they give the church the outdated one they don’t want any more. I keep trying to get the parish to invest in a current model, but I’m the voice crying out in the wilderness.”

    I laughed. “Prepare ye the way of the Mac?”

    He grinned. “I’m good with Macs or PCs. Yours is a Mac, right?”

    “Yeah—although, like you say, I can use either. Was Ashley ever interested in your kind of work?”

    “Well, you know, she grew up in a world where computers were just there, and everyone took ‘em for granted. But she was more of a biology person, so she decided she wanted to fix people, not machines. Fine by me—plenty of people-fixin’ needs doin’.”

    “So, going back a bit, you said you were raised Ukrainian Catholic?”

    “Yeah—Mom and Dad were staunch churchgoers, Mass every week, strict observance of Lent, the priest was kinda like God’s deputy—you know the scene. I liked it okay when I was a kid, but when I was a teenager—well, you know how young guys are! I liked chasing girls and drinking with my buddies, even if my buddies were the nerds, not the jocks. So I quit going to church when I was about sixteen. Never quite stopped believing in God, you know, but him and me, we weren’t close for maybe about ten years. I went Christmas and Easter, that was it. Mom and Dad were disappointed—they might even have reamed me out about it a few times—but, you know, in one ear and out the other. I was eighteen, so I knew everything.”

    “What brought you to the Anglican church?”

    “Debbie. You heard about me and her?”

    “That’s your ex-wife? The sum total of what I heard was that she was a Pickersgill.” I laughed. “Okay, now that I think about it, that answers my question, doesn’t it? The Pickersgills are Anglicans, so she must have been a churchgoer.”

    He grinned at me. “You got it. I started goin’ out with Debbie, oh, maybe nineteen eighty-seven? I was twenty-two, she was a little younger. Her dad was a farmer, but her mom ran a photography business, and Debbie picked that up from her. She’s still in that line of work, only now she’s in the city. High-end wedding photography, that kind of stuff. Her and me worked together a bit, when digital photography took off and she needed good photo-editing software. Anyway, she was a churchgoer, but I didn’t start going with her right away—took a few years. But after Ashley was born, she wanted to get her baptised, and I was part of that, and, well, somehow we started going to church. I liked it just fine, too. The priest was new, Anne Harrison—Mother Anne. I liked her a lot. She was all about the love of God, which was good for me, because I wasn’t always easy to love. The priests I knew when I was a kid were more inclined to use hellfire and brimstone as a motivational tool, you know, but Mother Anne wasn’t like that. I liked her God—he was patient. Kinda like your God, Jo—I like your God too. You know, like I say, I’m not always very good, and I need a God who has lots of patience with people like me.”

    “That’s good to know,” I replied softly. “The theology of grace.”

    He grinned. “I don’t know nuthin’ about theology, Jo! I try to love God, Jesus is God’s son, the Eucharist is food for the journey. That’s good enough for me. I like our Anglican service, but I don’t pray like that myself. I just sit down in my chair and say, “Hey God, this is Ron,” and we take it from there. Anything more complicated than that, I leave to you!”

    I laughed. “I like that!”

    He smiled in return. “Yeah? Well—good, then!”

    “So Debbie’s in the city now, you said?”

    “Yeah.” He looked down at his half-empty cup of coffee. “We always had our struggles, Jo. Deb, she had mental health issues. It was hard work for her to be happy. And me, I still had a taste for beer, in large quantities. I’d leave it for a while, and then I’d dive right back into it. All the time Debbie and me were coming to church together, I was struggling with that. And eventually, she just up and left. I don’t blame her—she had enough to deal with, what with her depressions and anxiety and all that—she didn’t need me makin’ it worse. We split up in the summer of two thousand, when Ashley was eight—they moved to Saskatoon, and the church people tried to look after me. And that was when I discovered AA. I think you know about AA, right?”

    “Yeah, I do.”

    “Thought so. Anyway, the Twelve Steps, goin’ to meetings, praying to God as my Higher Power—gradually, that got me back on a good path. I gotta be honest and say, I’ve had a couple of relapses—the second one was quite long—but each time, God kinda gave me a gentle kick in the butt, and back I came with my tail between my legs.

    “Also,” he said, “I’ve been through a cancer scare. I was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma when I was forty-three—spent a year in treatments. That was kind of like being walloped around the head with a two-by-four, you know? That’s when I got a whole lot more serious about God. I went through confirmation classes with Father Thomas, and I tried to get some other parts of my life in better shape, too. Part of that was making sure my finances were in good order, so my daughter would be provided for if I didn’t make it.” He shrugged. “Not that I was short of money. I like to dabble in investments and all that, and I’ve been lucky a couple of times, so I wasn’t short of cash.”

    “So you live by yourself?”

    He grinned. “Me and Jinks.”

    I laughed. “Let me guess—Jinks is a cat?”

    “You got ‘er! Between Jinks and me, we just about add up to a full-sized brain!”

    I raised my eyebrows. “I don’t know, Ron—you seem like a pretty smart guy to me!”

    “Maybe! Smart about some things, but pretty stubborn about some others. And some things, I just can’t figure out.” He gave me a serious look. “I gotta be straight with you, Jo—I was raised conservative, and I guess that’s still pretty well where I am. I like Brad Wall and I sure as hell didn’t like the NDP, and I’m an old fashioned kind of guy when it comes to marriage and, you know, gays and lesbians and all that. But…” —he paused for a minute, looking me in the eye— “I don’t exactly have a good record myself when it comes to marriage and sex and all that stuff, do I? I mean, you’re not supposed to get divorced, and you’re not supposed to be a drunk, but I spent a lot of years drinking and I was definitely responsible for my marriage breakin’ up—at least partly, anyways. So I ain’t exactly got any stones I can throw at anyone else on that score, have I?”

    “I guess not.”

    He shook his head. “So, deep down inside, I can’t feel right about gays getting married and all that, but I don’t make a big noise about it, Jo. It’s none of my business. I’ve got enough work to do, getting my own house in order. That’s a construction job I don’t expect to have finished by the time I kick the bucket, and you know, for a cancer survivor, you never know quite when that’s going to be, so I figure, I’d best keep my eyes on that one.”

    I nodded slowly. “I like that, Ron,” I said quietly.

    He grinned at me. “You, now—you seem like an NDP kind of person to me!”

    I laughed. “As a parish priest, my political convictions are a closely guarded secret!”

    He nodded. “Very proper! But still, I can read between the lines. And, you know, I like talking about that kind of stuff, and I don’t get agitated about it. I like to think I can have a good old political argument with a friend, and then laugh and have another cup of coffee with them. I guess what I’m sayin’ is, you don’t have to tiptoe around stuff with me, Jo. You got somethin’ to say, you say it, and if I don’t agree, I’ll let you know, but we aren’t going to fight about it—at least, not on my account.”

    I smiled at him again. “Thank you, Ron,” I said. “I appreciate that.”

    “Good stuff!”

    “Now- tell me more about Ashley.”

    “Ooh, yeah!” he said with a grin. “My favourite subject!”

    ***

    We were just about to finish our lunch and go back to work, when he said, “I should tell you—I’ve been a vestry member at St. Andrew’s a couple of times. But I’m on a break right now.”

    “Yeah? Any particular reason?”

    He shrugged. “A lot of people in Westbury are related to each other. Sometimes that complicates things. My brother-in-law Bruce has a couple of relatives on vestry, even without me. Cara Green is his daughter, you know—she married David Green. Bruce runs the local law office, and David was one of his associates when he and Cara got married. Now he’s a partner, of course. Anyways, right now Bruce and Cara are on vestry, father and daughter—and also Edna Bennett—she’s married to Charlie Bennett, but she’s Bruce’s sister. I like Edna a lot, and she don’t necessarily go along with Bruce on everything—and she speaks her mind, too. But what with Bruce being married to my sister, sometimes the family lines get a bit tangled.”

    “I can see that.”

    “And you know, Bruce can be a good guy on vestry, but sometimes he forgets where he is.”

    “How do you mean?”

    “He thinks he’s arguing a case in court. And I don’t think church is about winning and losing, or at least, it shouldn’t be.”

    “I definitely agree with you on that.”

    “Yeah. So, anyway, I’ll probably come back eventually, if people decide they want to elect me, but I’m just taking a break right now. Just so you know.”

    “Thanks for explaining that to me; I appreciate your openness about it.”

    “No worries. Like I said, I won’t tiptoe around stuff with you, and you don’t need to do it with me.”

    “I’ll keep that in mind.”

    ***

    The following Sunday, during the coffee hour, Leslie Macintyre wandered over to me and greeted me with a smile. She was in her forties, a contented-looking woman with blonde hair hanging down to her shoulders, dressed usually in a comfortable-looking cardigan. I knew she ran a day care in town, and I knew she had two teenagers, Emma and David, both of whom were in church with her almost every Sunday. I noticed that she wore a wedding ring, but I knew nothing about her husband except that his name, according to our parish list, was Simon.

    “How was your week, Jo?” she asked.

    “It was good. You know—visits, sick communions, that sort of thing. How about you?”

    “Pretty good—work and kids, mainly. That’s the story of my life, I guess!”

    “You have a day care, right?”

    “Yeah—Bright Beginnings—I’ve had it since before the kids were born. It’s busy, but I enjoy it.” She inclined her head toward an elderly couple on the other side of the basement. “You know my mom and dad, of course.”

    “Bill and Lizzie Walker? Yes, I know them, but I didn’t know they were your mom and dad!” I gave her an embarrassed grin. “I still haven’t got everyone’s relatives figured out, but that’s no excuse; I’ve seen you chatting with them often enough—I honestly can’t believe I didn’t make the connection!”

    She shook her head. “No need to apologise—there’s a lot of connections to make in a place like Westbury!”

    “Do you have siblings?”

    “One sister. I’m the oldest, and Shannon is three years younger than me. She lives on her own in Saskatoon; she was up for Thanksgiving, but she’s not a churchgoer so you wouldn’t have seen her.”

    “You dad’s from England, right?”

    “Yeah, but his parents brought him to Canada when he was in his teens, so he’s been here most of his life. My mom’s from Nipawin—Dad was teaching there when they met. He taught math at Westbury High School for thirty-three years.”

    “Wow—that’s surely a record!”

    She nodded. “I think it is.” She hesitated, and then said, “Jo, I know you’re working your way through the parish list, and I do want you to have the opportunity to get to know my husband and my kids, but if you don’t mind, I’d really like a chance for a visit with you by myself first. Would that be okay? I know you’re busy…”

    “I’m never too busy for something like that.” I took out my phone and glanced at my calendar. “I’m guessing evenings work best for you?”

    “Yeah—and if we could do it even as late as eight o’clock…”

    “For sure. Timmie’s, then? Or do you want to come to me?”

    “Timmie’s is fine.”

    “I’m free this week Wednesday and Thursday evenings.”

    “Wednesday would work for me.”

    “Perfect.”

    ***

    The temperature was hovering around minus ten on Wednesday evening, with big snowflakes floating lazily to the ground in the light of the streetlamps. Leslie and I found a window booth in Tim Horton’s, with the low buzz of conversation going on around us, and in the background the steady and comforting scent of coffee, doughnuts, and a hint of bacon. Leslie was dressed as usual in a tee-shirt and cardigan, her winter parka in a heap on the seat beside her. On the other side of the room I could see Ron Boyko having coffee with Gary Thompson, Bruce’s Thompson’s younger brother; I knew he was a farmer, and also the mayor of Westbury.

    “So you were asking me about my siblings,” Leslie said as she cradled her coffee cup in her hands. “What about you? Any brothers and sisters?”

    “My family are all in Ontario,” I replied. “My dad’s a businessman and he’s been quite successful. I’ve got two older brothers, five years and three years older than me. I’m the baby.”

    “You’re a long way from home.”

    “Yes, but I’ve been in the west for eight years now, and I’m only thirty, so that’s a significant part of my life. I feel pretty much at home here. But enough about me; what about you? Is your husband from around here?”

    “Yeah, he is. Do you know Gord Macintyre, who owns the Westbury Weekly News?”

    “I know who he is, but I don’t think I’ve met him.”

    “No; he’s not a churchgoer. Anyway, he’s Simon’s dad. Simon’s mom lives in Saskatoon; their marriage broke up about twenty-five years ago, when Simon was eighteen.”

    “I’m sorry to hear that. He’d have been aware that things were hard between his parents.”

    “Yes. He has a sister, Lindsay; she’s three years younger than him. She moved out with her mom; they were in town for a couple of years after the separation, and then they moved to Saskatoon, where Shelly—that’s Simon’s mom—worked as a nurse. But Simon just plain moved out. For a long time he wouldn’t speak to his dad, but they’ve been doing a little better in the last few years. It’s not my story to tell, so I don’t want to say anything else.”

    “For sure. I don’t remember if I’ve ever seen your husband in church…?”

    She shook her head. “He’s a Christmas and Easter kind of guy. Even that’s a lot more than his parents ever did. I knew when I married him that he wasn’t going to be coming to church with me.” She gave me an awkward grin. “Love, you know…”

    “Church is obviously really important to you.”

    “God’s really important to me, Jo. Church is part of the package. I was brought up as a churchgoer, but it wasn’t ‘til a little later that God came into the picture for me, at least in a personal sense—I always believed in God, but he seemed kinda distant, you know? Have you heard about the charismatic renewal we had here in the eighties and nineties?”

    “Yeah—Art Holloway told me about it.”

    “Yeah, he and Carol were a part of it.” She hesitated, then gave me an apologetic glance. “Jo, I’m sorry to speed right past the small talk and dive right in here with the big stuff, but there is something I really wanted to talk to you about, and I’m not sure I can do it in front of my husband or my parents. That’s why I wanted to talk to you by myself first. Is that okay?”

    “For sure.”

    She took a sip of her coffee and looked down at the table. “Malcolm Sinclair prepared me for confirmation when I was fourteen; he was the priest who introduced the charismatic renewal to St. Andrew’s. During the confirmation classes he helped me make a personal commitment to Christ, and I had a…” She frowned. “I guess today I’d call it a ‘quietly powerful’ experience of the Holy Spirit. So I was really formed by that whole charismatic version of Christianity—prayer and Bible reading, speaking in tongues, healing, answers to prayer, evangelism—all that stuff. Also a pretty black and white view of the world, although I wouldn’t have called it that at the time.”

    “Right.”

    She looked up at me again. “I started to have some doubts about it later in my teens,” she said. “Simon and I dated in high school, and I really fell in love with him, but Malcolm and his successor Murray felt very strongly that a Christian shouldn’t date a non-Christian. And I was really influenced by them and their thinking, so I broke up with Simon before we graduated from high school.”

    “I don’t imagine that helped Simon’s view of the church.”

    “No—he was very resentful. But anyway, when I was twenty-one Anne Harrison became our rector. She wasn’t charismatic—she was much more of a traditional Anglican—a lot of people say she caused St. Andrew’s to go into decline, and I guess if you go by the numbers that’s true, but I really loved Anne. I’m still in touch with her today. I was twenty-one when she came here, and we talked a lot, and very deeply. She was really a ‘love of God’ kind of person, and I was more than ready for that by then.”

    She gave a little frown. “It was like she gave me permission to ask all kinds of tough questions and not feel like I was betraying my faith. And eventually I was able to apologise to Simon and ask him to forgive me, and we got married, and it’s just amazing to me how supportive he’s always been of my faith—well, most of it, anyway. He does get a little frustrated sometimes when he wants us to go away on weekends all through the summer, and…”

    “You want to go to church with your kids.”

    “Yeah. But anyway, to get to the point, a couple of times with Anne I had discussions about homosexuality, which was a great big scary no-no in my charismatic days. And also with my parents, who were never charismatic but are very traditional Christians.” She shook her head slowly, looking away again. “My mom and dad are wonderful people, Jo, and I love them to bits, but on that one subject…”

    “I get it. A lot of older people find it really challenging to wrap their heads around it.”

    “Okay, so—once again—I’m kind of limited in what I can say because I don’t want to tell other people’s stories, especially when it comes to really confidential stuff. So I just want to say that my daughter Emma has a friend who has a gay relative. This guy is firmly in the closet with his family, except for Emma’s friend, who knows about it. I should say, by the way, that she’s never told me who it is, but I can make a pretty good guess because I know who her friends are.”

    She shook her head slowly. “Emma really struggles with it, Jo—she and I have talked a lot about Jesus and the gospel, and about the love of God, and how Jesus is always reaching out to the marginalised and the ones everyone else rejects, and how we have to use our brains and wrestle with scripture passages…” She grinned at me. “Jo, I’m making assumptions here about how you feel, because I’ve heard your sermons and you seem to me like a ‘love of God’ kind of person, too.” She gave me a questioning look. “So…?”

    I smiled at her. “You’re making the right assumption, Leslie,” I said softly.

    She gave a heavy sigh, looked at me in silence for a moment, and then nodded. “Thanks,” she said quietly. “I thought so, but I wasn’t sure.”

    “So Emma thinks about her faith a lot, then?”

    “She really does. She’s sixteen this year, and David’s thirteen. When Emma turned twelve she really started to ask questions, and I did my best to listen and not make her feel like she shouldn’t be questioning, you know? She was confirmed last year, and it really meant a lot to her, but I’m afraid Father Thomas wasn’t very good at listening to her, and she found that frustrating. Fortunately, she and I have always been able to talk..”

    “That’s a gift for her,” I said, “to have a mom like you. Well done.”

    I saw the question on her face. “You didn’t…?”

    “Neither of my parents were churchgoers, except at Christmas time. And I’ve never been able to talk about my faith with them; it makes them very uncomfortable.”

    “Oh, Jo—I’m so sorry!”

    “Never mind—it is what it is. Carry on with your story.”

    “I’m just about done. I just needed to sound you out, and to let you know that Emma’s sixteen but she really loves God, and if you had time to talk with her, by herself…”

    I nodded. “I would love that.”

    “I’ll tell her. Of course, she’s in grade eleven this year, and school is really busy, so she might not approach you right away, but just knowing that you’re open to that, and that you’re an open kind of person—that will mean a lot to her.”

    “Feel free to pass it on, and if it’s okay with you, I’ll make a point of talking with her as well.”

    “That’ll be fine.” She took a deep breath, let it out, and sat back in her seat. “Well, anyway, we can chat about other stuff now, if you like!”

    “Sure! So—shall I come for a visit with your family?”

    “That would be awesome. Would you like to come for supper? We live in the oldest house in Westbury, you know!”

    “You do?”

    “Yeah. Simon’s a home renovator, and he liked the challenge of fixing it up in a way that didn’t make it look like a new house. The floors are a little creaky, but he’s done a fantastic job of it. We have wagon wheels out front, and flower beds in summer—I love flowers and birds…”

    “Me too.”

    “Shall I invite Mom and Dad to join us?”

    “For sure. When you’ve talked to them, why don’t you email me two or three possible dates, and we can take it from there?”

    “That would be really great, Jo. And listen—thank you so much for this conversation.”

    I shook my head. “Not at all; it’s been my pleasure. So—would you like to tell me a little more about your kids, and what they’re into?”

    She grinned. “I would love to do that!”

    ***

  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter Six.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    Chapter 6

    JO (OCTOBER 29-30, 2014)

    One Wednesday morning about a month after the dinner at the Hiebert farm, I was working at the church office with Finn sprawled out on the rug beside my desk. The weather outside had turned blustery, with a light rain falling, and on the short walk from the rectory that morning I had taken a whiff of the frigid air and thought, It won’t be long now ‘til the snow flies.

    At about ten thirty, as I was working on some notes for that night’s parish council meeting, Finn suddenly sat up and gave a low growl. At the same time, I heard the slow tread of an older person coming up the front steps. The front door opened and closed, and as I glanced over my shoulder a face appeared in the open doorway of my office: an indigenous man, probably in his late sixties, wearing a grey ponytail and a check shirt. Finn jumped to his feet and began barking furiously, and the man flinched a little. “Hoo—a dog, huh?” he said.

    “Finn!” I commanded sharply. “Stop. Lie down.”

    My dog gave a couple more barks, then sank down reluctantly onto the rug, his eyes never leaving the old man’s face. “I’m sorry,” I said, getting to my feet. “He’s a rescue dog; he’s a little nervous.” I suddenly remembered who this visitor was, and I smiled and held out my hand. “You’re Stephen Burns, aren’t you?”

    He took my hand with a grin. “Hello, Jo,” he said. “I wondered if you’d remember me.”

    “I’ve been meaning to call you. Sorry, things…”

    “I know,” he replied playfully. “New parishioners to get to know, visits to make, sermons to write, vestry meetings to run…”

    “Still, no excuse—I’m sorry.”

    “Well, I didn’t make it easy for you, skipping your first deanery meeting as rector of Westbury parish.”

    “James Sutherland told me you’re not really a clergy-meeting kind of guy.”

    “James is not wrong, although he really should let me tell my own story. But anyway, speaking of deanery meetings, there’s one today, right?”

    “Yeah; I’m just finishing up a couple of things before I head out.”

    “Well, I think I might go along to this one.”

    “Oh yeah?”

    “It’s down in the city?”

    “Yes—at St. Thomas’.”

    “Caleb’s old church.”

    “Yeah.”

    “You used to hang out there years ago.”

    “I did,” I confirmed, smiling at the memory.

    “Well, I dropped by this morning in case you might like to ride down together. That is, unless you’ve got something else on in the city afterward?”

    “No—I’d love that.”

    “I thought it might be good for us to get to know each other a little better, you know? We’ve never really talked much, have we?”

    “No, we haven’t.”

    He cast an eye on my wary-looking dog. “The little fella coming with you?”

    “No—he doesn’t do so well in large groups.”

    “Well, I have to say I’m relieved. Given the chance, he looks like he might take a bite outa my ass.”

    I laughed again. “Stephen, would you like a coffee?” I asked.

    “Now you’re talking! But don’t let me disturb you—just point me in the right direction.”

    I looked at the unfinished notes for the parish council meeting on my screen, made a sudden decision, and closed the laptop. “No—you know what, I’ll come down and have one with you.”

    “Good, because I like drinking coffee in company.”

    ***

    “Yeah, I remember your first deanery meeting, alright. Maybe two, two and a half years ago, when you started at St. Paul’s? I think there were about eight of us there that day. I remember John Davidson introducing you to everyone.” Out of the corner of my eye as I was driving, I saw Stephen grinning and gesturing at my hiking pants and fleece top. “You were a little more formal then, I think!”

    I laughed softly. ‘John wanted me to wear black clericals all the time. It took me about a year to get up the courage to push back at that.”

    “St. Paul’s is that kinda place, I think.”

    “Yeah. But I enjoyed it anyway, and I learned a lot—about being a minister, and about myself.” I frowned suddenly. “I remember you being at my ordination as a deacon; were you there at my priesting?  I don’t remember.”

    “I meant to be there—I like going to those things, those sacred occasions, you know—joining in the laying on of hands. Nowadays Caleb often asks me to do the smudge, but he was a brand-new bishop when you were ordained; he hadn’t started doing a smudge at the beginning of the service yet.”

    “Right.”

    “But that day you were ordained priest, I had to be with someone. It was a last minute thing—someone trying to stay sober, and they needed some help. I know what that’s like, so I always say yes, you know? I thought about calling you later to explain, but then I thought, ‘She probably doesn’t even remember me.’” I saw that slow smile again. “I hadn’t been to too many deanery meetings.”

    “How long have you been ordained, Stephen?”

    “Not long—eight years, maybe, since I was made a deacon, seven years as a priest. But I was a lay reader for a long time before that—maybe fifteen years.” He shook his head. “I was pretty busy in those days!”

    “At Pine Lake?”

    “Yeah.”

    The rain was slow but steady, the southern sky ahead heavy with clouds. I had the windshield wipers on the slow setting, and I was driving easily with one hand on the wheel, the other in my lap. Stephen had emptied the coffee pot into his travel mug before we left; he took a sip of it now, then wrapped both his hands around it. “I was working as an addictions counsellor, and we were trying to get some programs going at Pine Lake, for adults and young people. Robert Sutherland was our chief then, and he really wanted to help people quit drinking and doing drugs. I’d been in AA maybe ten years at that point; I’d done the training for an addictions counsellor, worked in the city a couple of years, but I wanted to move back to Pine Lake. I got my chance, so I took it.”

    “You were born at Pine Lake?”

    “Yeah, and mostly lived there, too, with a few years in Saskatoon and a couple in Lethbridge. Oh, and residential school, when I was a kid.”

    “You’re a residential school survivor?”

    “Yeah.”

    I was quiet for a moment, and then I said, “I feel like I want to apologize every time I meet a survivor.”

    “It was tough, alright: I was far away from home, missing my community, my family. I got lost for a while, and started drinking, but I was lucky—I found AA, sobered up, and learned how to connect with God again.” He shook his head slowly. “I could have died, of course; some people did, including some friends of mine. And the healing journey takes a long time. A couple of my kids aren’t there yet.”

    “You’ve got family, then?”

    “Yeah—my wife Mary, kids, grandkids—some at Pine Lake, some in the city.”

    I hesitated, and then said, “Stephen, can I ask you a personal question?”

    He chuckled. “I think that’s why God put it into my head to ride with you today—so we could get to know each other a little better. So feel free to be personal—as long as you don’t mind me doing the same!”

    I laughed in my turn. “I’m good with that.”

    “So what’s the question?”

    “The church ran the residential schools, and now you’re a priest in that same church. How did that happen?”

    I saw him nodding slowly. “An excellent question; too bad more people don’t think to ask it.”

    “It must have been a conflict for you.”

    “Yeah—for a lot of years, it was.” He smiled at me. “You must have had this conversation with Caleb, too.”

    “Yes, but everyone works it out differently for themselves, right?”

    “I guess that’s true, all right.” I saw him staring out of the car window. “When I got out of the residential school I’d almost forgotten my own language, ceremonies, culture, everything. I was lucky in one thing: the school I got sent to was closer to my home community, so I could go home for the summer. But still—it was a foreign system, and I never really adapted to it. And when I got out, I was lost for a while. Went to the city, got in with a bad crowd, drinking, doing drugs, walking the streets, not really having a place to stay. That lasted two or three years, and to be honest, I’m not sure how I survived it, but I did.”

    “What happened?”

    “I got picked up by a street worker from a rescue mission. He took me into a shelter for a couple of weeks, and while I was there, he got me hooked up with an AA group. Do you know about AA, Jo?”

    “Oh yeah. I used to work for the Sally Ann in Saskatoon.”

    “Did you? I didn’t know that. Well, then you’d know a lot about the kind of life I lived in my drinking days.”

    “Except that my Sally Ann days were much later—twenty-oh-six to twenty-oh-nine.”

    He laughed. “Oh yeah—I forgot that! My street days were in the late sixties—a bit before your time!”

    “So—AA…”

    “Yeah. Well, like I said, that street worker got me into an AA group, and he also got me connected with some indigenous spiritual teaching. That’s the beauty of the Twelve Steps—it’s about God, but ‘God as we understand him.’ At that time, I couldn’t really pray to the Anglican God—he was too implicated in the residential school system. But the Creator—I could pray to him all right. In fact, it was almost an act of defiance, if you know what I mean.”

    “I think I do.”

    “Well, I had about a decade where I went back and forth between the city and the reserve, as we called it then. I worked in the lumber industry for a while, got married, had a couple of kids, then moved the family to Lethbridge while I did the addictions counselling training, then back to Saskatoon to work with street people, then back to Pine Lake to help the band set up its alcohol action program. And all this time my spirituality was completely non-Christian, following our indigenous traditions.

    “I guess I was in my forties when I started going to church again. Well, before that I started reading the Bible by myself. I picked one up in a bookstore one day—not a black leather one—a paperback, ‘Good News for Modern Man,’ I think they called it. I got into the gospels, read the stories of Jesus and the words of Jesus in that different translation that somehow bypassed some of the bad memories in my head. And before I knew it, I was praying to that Jesus as part of my routine – smudging, praying in the four directions, going to sweats and so on. I just brought Jesus right into the centre of all that, and to my surprise he fit right in and felt at home there. And when he came in, before I knew it, he’d brought the church in with him—or at least, the local Pine Lake church.”

    He gave me a thoughtful frown. “I guess that’s part of the answer to your question. I didn’t have a problem with the local church—the little group of people who gathered at St. Mark’s week by week. I knew those folks pretty well, and most of them were sincerely trying to follow the Jesus way, as we’d say nowadays. The Anglican Church of Canada as a national institution, now—I had a much harder time with that. Part of it was the maverick’s distrust of institutions—I recognize that now. But the other part—well, it was related to the residential schools system that our church co-operated in.”

    “Maybe that’s one of the reasons you didn’t care for deanery meetings; they were further up the institutional ladder.”

    “Maybe, eh?”

    We were quiet for a moment, listening to the hum of the tires on the road as the car sped south toward Saskatoon. I was thinking about my own maverick temperament—I had known it by that name for a long time, and was struck by the fact that Stephen had used the same word for it—and my own similar disinterest in the church as an institution. Tentatively, I said, “I feel like we have a lot in common.”

    “I kinda wondered about that.”

    “I think I’m a maverick at heart, too. I know there are advantages and disadvantages to that, and I know it needs reining in sometimes, but still, it’s who I am. I like to follow my own path and be myself, and I’m not particularly a clerical collar kind of girl. I’m not interested in clergy titles and conventional expectations of priests. Don’t get me wrong—I love following Jesus and I love our church and its liturgies. But the institutional stuff—not so much.”

    “The Jesus way comes first.”

    “Yeah.” I thought for a moment, my eyes on the road ahead; out of the corner of my eye, I saw him take a sip of his coffee.

    “Stephen, I love that phrase, ‘the Jesus Way’, but I’d be curious to know what you mean when you use it.”

    “Another excellent question.” He shifted a little, wedging his back into the corner between the seat and the passenger door. “I guess I’d start by pointing out that Jesus is a lot more connected to the earth than white westerners will tell you. All those parables about the lilies of the field and the birds of the air, and the farmer sowing his seeds, and the story of the catch of fish that broke the nets of the fishermen. It’s all going on in the background of the Jesus story, but the story won’t work without it. So I think the Jesus way involves being in harmony with creation, and finding God first of all in the things he’s made, like Jesus did.”

    “I like that.”

    “Well, then there’s faith or trust. Like Jesus says, if his heavenly father feeds the sparrows, why can’t we trust him to feed us too? Jesus does a lot of challenging people about faith, and I think what he’s mainly saying is, trust your heavenly Father’s love. That can be tough for people who’ve grown up thinking God is mad at them all the time.”

    “Or even just indifferent to them.”

    “Yeah—good point! That too. And then there’s the way of love—loving our neighbours, our families, the poor, even our enemies. There’s no way out of that command to love. No-one’s supposed to get left out.  We’re supposed to be loving and forgiving to everyone. Including ourselves, which is sometimes the hardest part.

    “I think everything else kind of grows out of that—the generosity, the forgiveness, the contentment with what we have—it’s all part of that picture of love. And it’s all based on Jesus’ life and Jesus’ words. It’s not based on doctrines or human organisations. It’s all based on love.

    “Oh, and there’s one more thing. The Jesus way gets us into trouble, doesn’t it? You do what God wants you to do, and they crucify you—or at least, sometimes they do. And it’s not just the emperor’s soldiers that crucify you; it’s religious leaders too. For some reason the idea of following a God of love and forgiveness just pisses people off! So I’m not surprised when Jesus followers get into trouble. Seems like the natural way of things to me!”

    He grinned at me. “That’s what I think, Jo. What do you think?”

    I nodded slowly. “I think that’s beautiful. It’s the way I’ve wanted to live ever since I became a Christian.”

    “Me too.”

    ***

    Luke called me as I was warming up my supper—leftovers from the night before—having taken Finn for a quick walk and hurriedly updated my parish council notes. My cell phone rang while my food was in the microwave; I picked it up, saw the name ‘Luke’ on the screen, and accepted the call.

    “I’m just putting my supper on the table,” I said. “I’m going to put you on speaker while I do it.”

    “Understood.” He waited while I turned on speakerphone and put the phone down on the kitchen table. “Go ahead, Luke,” I said.

    “You’ve got some kind of meeting tonight, right?”

    “Parish Council.”

    “Is that the big committee of head honchos over the whole parish?”

    I laughed. “You’re just pretending, Hiebert—I know you know what it is! Don’t keep playing the ignorant Mennonite with me!”

    “Busted! Yeah, you’re right. Two wardens from each church, plus you, right?”

    “Yeah—so Art and Nicky from Westbury, Mary Linney and Roy Clennett from Rochdale, and Gwen Fulcher and George Price from Howden. The same committee that interviewed me.”

    “Pretty friendly group, apart from Art?”

    “Art’s challenging, but I can handle him. Or at least, so far I’ve been able to pull it off.”

    “Any big stuff on the agenda tonight?”

    “Finances are tight, so there’ll be some talk about that, plus the diocese has sent out their apportionment request for next year, and parish council needs to accept it and decide how it’s going to be divided between the three congregations.”

    “In English, please?”

    The microwave signalled that my food was fully heated. “Hang on a minute, Luke,” I said. “Food’s ready—just need to take it out of the microwave.”

    “Want me to call back?”

    “No; just give me a minute.”

    I spooned the food onto my plate, poured myself a glass of water, and sat down. “Go ahead,” I said.

    “It’s your turn to go ahead, Johanna Rose; I asked you a question.”

    I still struggle with him using that name. I know he means it affectionately, and I really like him, so I want to like that name—but it just carries so much baggage for me. One day soon, I’ve got to tell him that.

    “Jo, are you there?”

    “Right here. What was the question, again?”

    “That whole financial thing flew over my head.”

    “Right. Every parish contributes money to the diocese to go toward its running costs; it’s called our ‘apportionment.’ The diocese submits a request to each parish about this time of year, and we’ve just received it. Tonight we have to decide how much each of the three churches is going to contribute to it.”

    “Okay—I get it now.”

    “It’s complicated because we’re not a self-supporting parish, so the diocese gives us an operating grant too—and we don’t yet know how much that will be.”

    “Tricky.”

    “Yeah. The other thing is Christmas—scheduling services for the three churches over Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, and who gets what time. Also, whether everyone wants a carol service, too.”

    “Wouldn’t that just be the Christmas service?”

    “For us they’re different. The Christmas services are Eucharists—communion services—because that’s how we worship. The carol services are kind of traditional too – nine lessons and carols – nine scripture readings, starting with the prophecies about the Messiah and then the gospel stories of his birth—and a carol after each one.”

    “I think I remember Nicky and Marcus explaining this to me. In fact, I might even have attended one. Mennonites are big on singing, you know.”

    “I did know that.”

    “On another subject, how was the deanery meeting?”

    “Delightful. Completely out of the blue, Stephen Burns showed up at my door and rode down with me. Do you know him?”

    “A little. He’s something of a loner, right? He kind of walks his own road?”

    “Yeah, but I liked him. I’d met him before, when I was at St. Paul’s, but we’d never really talked. Today we did, all the way to Saskatoon and all the way back, and I absolutely loved him. And then…”

    I took a sip of my water. Luke waited, and after a moment he said, “and then?”

    “Luke, I do actually have to eat some of my food, okay?”

    “Executive summary?”

    “Eight people at the meeting, total astonishment from the Saskatoon crowd that Stephen was there at all. A bit of trendy respect going on for his status as an elder.”

    “Which he would have quietly laughed at, without actually letting the laughter out.”

    “Exactly!”

    “Anyone else whose presence was especially significant to you?”

    “I don’t dislike any of them, although a couple of them can be a little weird sometimes. Amy was there—my old friend from seminary, the one I shared an apartment with. The dean of the cathedral was there—Jill McNally—I get on fine with her. John Davidson, who I worked with at St. Paul’s. George McKay, who took over St. Thomas’ from Caleb.”

    “Was Caleb there?”

    “No—the bishop wouldn’t normally attend a deanery meeting. His absence gives the parish grunts a safe space to grouse about him.”

    “Nice! And no one ever passes intel on to the bishop?”

    “Most people would view me as the prime suspect for that, but Caleb’s absolutely forbidden me to do it.”

    “Impressive. Any particular reason for this meeting?”

    “It’s primarily a support group, Luke. We start with a Eucharist, then we have lunch, then we go round the circle sharing anything we want about our parishes, our life, our work—whatever we want. That was good, and I got to know a couple of new people. George seems especially upbeat about St. Thomas’, which was good to hear. There was a bit of theological sparring at one point, on the subject all Anglicans in Canada love to discuss right now.”

    “Homosexuality?”

    “Correct. We’ve got a couple of people who are very conservative, and a couple more who are very progressive, and the other fifty percent were somewhere in between.”

    “I think Mennonites are pretty much the same—at least, our kind of Mennonites.”

    “Afterwards Amy and Stephen and I went out for a quick coffee, which is why I’m running late now. So, as much as I’m enjoying this conversation, I really have to eat my food and run.”

    “Chew at least ten times before you swallow.”

    “Go away, Hiebert!”

    “Okay—call me later if you need a check-in.”

    “I will. Have a decent evening,”

    “You too, Jo.”

    ***

    The parish council meeting was held in the basement of the church; we had brought together two rectangular tables in the middle of the room, set eight chairs around them (“one for Elijah!” Nicky said to me with a wink), and then put the coffee on. I was asked to say an opening prayer and give a brief report of my activities that month, and then Art led us gradually through the items on the agenda. It didn’t take us long to get to the financial report.

    “I’ll draw your attention to the bottom line in September’s financial statement,” said Art. “We’re currently about two thousand dollars in the hole, at least at a parish level. Parish support payments have come through from all three points, but in two cases, they were lower than the agreed amounts.”

    “It’s not been a good year, Art,” said George Price, whose wife was the treasurer at the Howden church. “People are doing their best, but the income’s gone down since last year. You can’t get blood from a stone, you know.”

    “I’m not blaming anyone, George,” Art replied. “We all know times are tough, especially for seniors on fixed incomes. I’m just suggesting that we may have to tighten our belts a little, and find some economies.”

    “I don’t know about Westbury,” said Mary Linney defensively, “but at Rochdale we’re not exactly spending a lot of money. Most of our income at Christ Church goes straight to the parish, for our parish support payment, and we obviously can’t cut that. We want our priest to get paid!”

    “That’s for sure,” said Roy Clennett.

    “And she’s no’ exactly being paid a massive amount,” said Nicky dryly. “Where do you suggest we cut, Art?”

    Art glanced at me. “Well, there are admin costs, and on that subject I just wanted to mention the phone bill. I noticed there were a number of long distance calls to Saskatoon on the September bill. Most of them are to the synod office, and some of those calls are lengthy—forty-five minutes. A couple of others are to numbers I don’t recognize. I’d be curious to know what those numbers are.”

    Nicky raised an eyebrow at him. “I’m no’ sure that’s an appropriate question.”

    He frowned. “What do you mean?”

    “Priests often have to make confidential phone calls, and pastoral privacy means wha’ it says. And we’re an episcopal church, and all priests need to talk to their bishop sometimes. Some of those calls will be confidential.”

    “If it’s personal, Jo should make them on her personal cell phone.”

    “But that’s a grey area, isn’t it? I’m willing to bet that Jo receives pastoral calls on her personal cell phone while she’s travelling around the parish—and makes them too, and pays the bill herself.” She met my eye. “Right, Jo?”

    I nodded. “Yes.”

    “It’s no’ about dollars and cents,” Nicky concluded. “It’s about people.”

    “People in the parish, yes, I’m all for that,” Art replied. “But Saskatoon isn’t part of our parish. And we all know, Jo, that you and Bishop Caleb are personal friends.”

    “Right,” I said, feeling the tension in my gut. “I’ve heard the clear call to be more conservative in my use of the parish phone, and I accept that. However, I’m not prepared to go on the record as to who those other calls were made to; as Nicky says, there’s an issue of pastoral confidentiality. That’s why I don’t report to vestries on who I’ve made pastoral visits to. Sometimes pastoral visits are just about making contacts and growing relationships, but sometimes they’re addressing personal issues I’m helping people deal with. My parishioners need to know that’s confidential. But like I say, I’ve heard the call to be more conservative about phone use, and I’ll follow it. Can we move on?”

    Roy Clennett cleared his throat, wrapping his hands around his coffee cup. “I think we all appreciate how much time you’ve been spending visiting people in the parish, Jo,” he said. “It’s been much too long since we’ve had a minister who’s made that a priority.”

    “Agreed,” said Gwen Fulcher. “And when you come, you’re friendly and easy to talk to; that’s what everyone says. And you listen to people, and you don’t get easily offended or flustered, even when you don’t agree with what people say.”

    “I agree with all of that,” Art replied quickly, “and I’m not trying to make a personal attack here. I’m just concerned about us being able to make our budget—that’s all.”

    “Art, can I make a suggestion about that?” I asked.

    “Of course.”

    “Why don’t I send out a letter to the people on the parish list? I won’t write a big heavy; it’ll just be like, I’m Jo, you’ve all met me, I’m really happy with the way things are going in the parish. However, we do have this deficit problem right now, but it wouldn’t take much to put us back in the black. If you’re able, could you step up to the plate and do your bit so we can go into Christmas without this hanging over our heads?”

    There was quiet in the room for a moment, and then Nicky said, “I think that would be brilliant. Make it positive and friendly, speak the truth and make the ask. That would be awesome, Jo.”

    “Great idea,” said Gwen.

    “It’s been a long time since we’ve had a minister who’s willing to do something like that,” said Roy. “Most of them have acted like it’s our problem—us, the parish leaders—and we’re the ones who should fix it.”

    “I agree,” said Art, “and I do appreciate you making the offer, Jo. Do you think the letter should go out on behalf of the parish council, not just the rector?”

    I shook my head. “No, I don’t—at least, not this time. I’m the new rector, and at the moment I think I’ve got some relational capital in the bank in the parish. If it’s a letter from the whole parish council, it’s something official and major and everyone gets the sense we’re in an emergency—which I don’t think we are. If it’s just from me, it’s personal and pastoral, and it doesn’t raise the emotional temperature to crisis level.”

    George Price spoke up. “I like that. Do we need a vote on it?”

    Nicky shook her head decisively. “Not on a wee note Jo’s writing to her parishioners. She’s not proposing a new strategic initiative; she’s just being our priest.” She glanced appreciatively in my direction. “Thank you,” she said.

    Art nodded. “I agree. If you could do that, Jo, we’ll see what happens. Now, let’s move on.”

    ***

    The parish council meeting ran quite late, so I didn’t call Luke for the check-in he’d offered. I took Finn out for a late evening walk, my mind going back over the day and its many conversations. Back home, I made myself a cup of hot chocolate and sat down in the rocking chair to pray Night Prayer.

    The next day Luke and I walked our dogs after supper. There had been a hard frost overnight and a few flakes of snow had drifted down during the day. October thirtieth, I thought to myself. It’ll be a cold night for trick or treaters tomorrow. Luke was wearing a thick sweater under his coat, and I had put on my favourite black merino wool tuque.

    “So how was the parish council meeting?” he asked as we walked out toward the edge of town.

    “Not bad.” I told him about the phone bill discussion and what had come of it. “It ended in a good place,” I said, “so I’ll chalk that one up as a win.”

    “You’re okay with these fundraising letters?”

    “I don’t mind. Someone’s got to speak the truth that’s on everyone’s mind, and I’m okay with being that someone.”

    “Good on you; Pastor Dan hates that kind of thing.”

    “I get that. I just find ignoring the problem more stressful than addressing it.”

    “Good point. Anything else interesting happen?”

    “The apportionment issue took some time, but we came up with a formula based on what each church is currently contributing to the parish budget.”

    “I’m guessing that’s not exactly even thirds.”

    “No; more like sixty-twenty-twenty.”

    “Wow—that much difference, eh?”

    “I’ve no idea how much people give, nor do I want to know, but I’m assuming it helps that St. Andrew’s has people like Bruce Thompson, and Scott and Lisa Douglas, and Nicky and Marcus.”

    “And Lisa and Scott were raised as evangelicals, so they probably tithe.”

    “Yeah. There was an awkward moment at the end of the meeting, and it kind of put a damper on the evening for me.”

    “How so?”

    I shrugged. “I was curious. I’d had such a good visit with Stephen Burns during the day, and I’d been thinking back on my days at St. Thomas’.” I gave him a sideways glance. “People in this parish tend to forget that I’m only a recent Anglican. St. Thomas’ was my first Anglican church, and of course I had no idea how unusual it actually was in the big Anglican constellation.”

    “Because of the indigenous element?”

    “Yeah—the way indigenous ceremonies and ideas are brought into the Jesus Way there. Like I said, it was all I knew of Anglicanism, and those three years were really formative for me. Then I went to seminary, and realised that for some people, that was controversial.”

    “And maybe for some of your parish council members, too?”

    “Apparently.”

    “You raised the issue with them?”

    “I told them about my visit with Stephen and about my experience at St. Thomas’, and I asked if there had ever been any interest in creating closer ties with St. Mark’s, Pine Lake, or discussing the residential schools or the Truth and Reconciliation Commission.”

    “Let me guess; solid lack of interest from everyone except Nicky?”

    “That’s exactly what happened. And when Nicky spoke up, Roy Clennett was borderline insulting to her. He told her he’d been living next to an ‘Indian reservation’—those were his words—for seventy years, and since she’d only been here five years, she didn’t really know what she was talking about.”

    “Did Nicky respond?”

    I laughed. “I’ve heard about her fondness for scatological language, but no, she didn’t get agitated this time. Still, I felt for her.”

    “Yeah.”

    “Anyway, that was a bit of a damper on the evening.”

    “Were you upset?”

    “I guess I was—just a little—but to be honest, I wasn’t really surprised. I mean, you’d already talked to me about it, and Caleb deals with that sort of attitude all the time.”

    “You’ve probably had these conversations with him.”

    “Yes. And I’m not totally naïve; like I said, I learned in seminary how strange my experience of Christianity was to most people—from nothing at all, straight to an intense experience with faith-based street ministry through Assisi House, and then the Sally Ann and St. Thomas’. Working at St. Paul’s for two years after I was ordained—solidly middle class and respectable—really rubbed my nose in my own strangeness. But I’ve come to terms with it, Luke, and I know I need to be patient.”

    He was quiet for a moment, and then he said, “Well, my sympathies are totally with you, but I think if you asked my dad, he’d say, ‘Don’t be afraid to be yourself, but also, don’t wait for everyone to catch up with you, because they never will. And don’t start with a church project; start with building relationships.”

    “That sounds like wise advice. Relationships with who, though?”

    “Well, it sounds like you’ve got an open door with Stephen and Mary at the reserve. James and Shauna like you, and James also gets you Janine, his cousin, who’s the principal at Pine Lake School. And in Westbury there’s Tanya Stonechild—she’s a constable at the RCMP—she lives on the Rez and works in town. There’s Stephanie Sutherland, the barista at the Arts Barn—her mom is a well-known artist at Pine Lake. There’s Cheryl Paul, my colleague at the school. Just quietly get to know them, go for coffee with them, and listen to their stories. And find out who in St. Andrew’s is interested or sympathetic. I’m guessing Lisa and Scott are, and Nicky and Marcus I know for sure. Jenni Feheley, Amber Tait, Leslie Macintyre and her daughter Emma—I think those folks would be sympathetic.”

    “That sounds like a really wise way forward, Luke. Don’t organise anything, just drink coffee and build relationships.” I laughed. “I can almost hear Caleb telling me to do exactly the same thing!”

    “Can’t be too far wrong, then!”

    ***

    I invited him back to the rectory for a cup of tea. “Fair’s fair, as you said; I’ve seen your place, so…”

    “Sounds good.”

    While the kettle was boiling I gave him a quick tour, and then we took our mugs of tea into the living room. The dogs quickly flopped down on the carpet, but Luke’s eye was caught by the framed photographs I had put up on the wall.

    “So this looks like an ordination photo,” he said, peering at a picture of Amy Cameron and me in our clergy robes, standing on either side of Caleb.

    “Yeah, that was taken the night Amy and I were ordained as priests.”

    “When was that?”

    “Not that long ago. In our tradition you get ordained as a deacon first, and for me that was June twenty-twelve. My priesting came a year later, so June twenty-thirteen.”

    “A year and a half ago. You’re just a baby priest.”

    I laughed softly. “Nicely put!”

    “Who are these scruffy looking people? Oh wait—I recognize you. Wow—your hair was a lot longer then!”

    I moved beside him. “That picture was taken in inner city Toronto in the Fall of twenty-oh-four—so, ten years ago.” I pointed to a grizzled looking man in his fifties, crouching in the middle of the group. “That’s Eddie Ford, the street worker I told you about. The black guy is Mark Thorne, and the Palestinian woman is Grace Haddad. They’re actually a couple now, living out in Vancouver, and they have a one year old son. And the blond girl beside me is my best friend Hannah, who lives in Saskatoon.”

    “You guys look like a street pastor squad or something!”

    I chuckled. “Well put! I was so naïve in those days, Luke. Eddie wasn’t; he knew the massive structures we were up against, the forces that kept people stuck in poverty and powerlessness. He knew the best we could do was just chip away at it, try to work with people one by one, knowing it would always be a long and painful process.”

    “He looks like a punk rocker.”

    “He had actually been a punk rocker back in the nineteen-eighties, so he told me. But then he had a rather dramatic conversion experience, through a Franciscan monk he met, and he went in a completely different direction.”

    “Kind of looks like he might still listen to the Clash on the side.”

    I laughed. “I think he might have done, actually.”

    “Where is he now?”

    “I think he has a very nice room in the heavenly mansion. He died of bowel cancer, about five years ago. He was only sixty.”

    “I’m sorry; that must have been hard for you.”

    “Yeah. I was living out here by then, but Hannah and I made a quick trip to Toronto for the funeral. It was amazing. There were ordinary middle-aged Christians, bikers, punk-rockers, street people, and at least one Catholic bishop. People stood up and told stories of how Eddie had made a difference in their lives. It was awesome, Luke.”

    We took our seats. “I’ve never heard of him,” he said. “You’d think with a funeral like that, he’d have gotten some attention.”

    “Eddie was totally uninterested in attention, and he did not have a talent for cultivating the right people. Other people had to do his fundraising for him. At seminary we sometimes talked about God’s ‘bias for the poor.’ The first time I heard that phrase, I thought, “I’ve seen that in action, in Eddie.”

    “Wow.” He grinned at me. “You’ve had an exciting life. Mine feels quite dull compared to all that.”

    “But you’re a Mennonite. Aren’t you guys the original Christian hippies?”

    He laughed out loud. “That may have been true in the sixteenth century, and some of us still have a streak of that, but no, I think it’s safe to say that most North American Mennonites have embraced convention and respectability.”

    “Except for your mom and dad, and their love for their indigenous neighbours.”

    “Yeah, my mom and dad aren’t afraid to be different.” He gave me a mischievous grin. “But no—if there’s a Christian hippy in this room tonight, I think it might be you, Johanna Rose.”

    “Thanks; I’ll take that as a compliment.”

    He grinned at me. “I thought you would.”

  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter Five.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    Chapter 5

    LUKE (SEPT 20-28, 2014)

    September arrived, and the shiny halls of Westbury Community School were filled with the noise created by four hundred students, from kindergarten to Grade 12.

    I say ‘shiny’ because this building, with its big windows, open concept learning spaces and state of the art technology, was only two years old. It had been a big adjustment for students and teachers at first: from two separate schools (elementary and high) to a single building with three distinct wings (elementary, middle, and high), and from traditional classroom layouts to the larger, more spacious and flexible ‘open concept’ spaces.

    Being something of a loner myself, I had a lot of sympathy for the students who didn’t like it—the ones who needed quiet and privacy, who found it hard to screen out the distractions and the noise. On the other hand, the building was beautiful and full of light, and it certainly helped encourage cooperation and collaboration across traditional boundaries.

    One thing I’m sure about: we were lucky to have Lisa Douglas as our principal, to lead us through the transition. Lisa was in her mid-forties, with a lot of experience in rural communities and solid time in Westbury (she had taught English Language Arts at the old high school before becoming principal). She was steady and patient, never lost her cool, and had a huge helping of relational ‘smarts’. Outside school hours, she and her husband Scott (our local optometrist) were active in the community and in the Anglican church, and I really can’t think of anyone who didn’t like them.

    ***

    “So tell me—what does a day in the life of a schoolteacher actually look like?”

    It was a Saturday morning at the end of the third week in September, and Jo and I were walking our dogs down in the river valley, where the greens of summer had definitely turned to the yellows and golds of fall. We had walked the mile down from the end of the road to the river and had then picked our way along a barely perceptible trail winding northward, the bush on our left and the mud flats on our right, with Cooper and Finn running ahead of us with their noses to the ground.

    I shrugged my shoulders. “I don’t know about a generic schoolteacher; I only know about this particular social studies teacher.”

    “He’ll do.”

    “Well, let’s see. Most days I get to school around eight…”

    “Does Cooper get a walk before that?”

    “Oh yeah—a short one.”

    “Of course.”

    “Then he guards the house in my absence, frightening the burglars away with his beastlike snores.”

    She snorted with laughter. “I like that—‘beastlike snores’! Finn does that too, when he’s passed out on the floor of my office.”

    “Ah—Finn’s an office dog, is he?”

    “Sometimes, but not always.”

    “How do the church ladies feel about that?”

    “They like that I’ve promised to vacuum the office at least once a week.”

    “A wise offer.”

    “Thanks, but don’t get distracted. ‘A day in the life of this particular social studies teacher…’”

    “Right, well, I pride myself on getting to school before the principal, who, in her defence, has two teenagers to pry out of their beds and shoehorn into their seats at school.”

    “Ah yes, Noah and Taylor, the musician and the hockey player.”

    “Taylor is a wicked hockey player; when she gets a few years older, some of the young bucks of Westbury are going to feel seriously outclassed.”

    “You’re getting distracted again.”

    “Pardon me, Reverend Johanna, but you planted the distraction.”

    “Nevertheless…”

    “Right, so, I grab a coffee from the staff room and then head down for my particular patch of school geography…”

    She laughed out loud. “You mean your classroom?”

    “It’s an open concept school, Jo—the exact definition of a ‘classroom’ is somewhat murky.”

    “Right.”

    “So, I check emails and the school message boards to see if anything urgent has come in overnight, and then I use any remaining time before classes start to make sure I’ve got my act together for the day.”

    “The bell rings at nine?”

    “Or some electronic facsimile thereof, and it’s actually at eight fifty-five, but classes start at nine and run ‘til three-oh-five exactly, with a break for lunch in the middle.”

    “You teach the whole of the time?”

    “Most of the time. I do all the social classes for grades nine to twelve, and some of the classes for grades seven and eight. Also, our school has an indigenous liaison, Cheryl Paul, and I help her out when she needs an extra body. I guess you could say that I am the official school liaison to the indigenous liaison…”

    She gave a low chuckle. “I’m sure it’s actually more exalted than that.”

    I shrugged. “What can I say? The elders at Pine Lake like me, I guess, and Cheryl and I have known each other since we were kids.”

    “Right. Well, I’m impressed.”

    “Thank you. Anyway, getting back to my day, I do have a few free periods in the week, which I use for marking and stuff. Also, every teacher is supposed to do at least one extra-curricular thing with the kids…”

    “Yours is hockey?”

    I gave her a sideways grin. “I get why you would think that, given what I’m sure are Marcus’ exaggerated reports of our teenage exploits in the rink, but the truth is, hockey isn’t really my jam anymore. Occasionally I play, but not a lot. No, I actually persuaded Lisa to let me start a program called ‘Outdoor Exposure,’ which sounds grand, but mainly consists of me taking the kids outside and persuading them to keep their ears and eyes open, their mouths shut and their phones in their pockets.”

    “Really? Wow—I can see you being really good at that.”

    “Yeah, although on the shortest days of the year, making that an after-school activity is a little challenging, given how early it gets dark.”

    “Owls and coyotes and all that?”

    “Yes, and also the night sky.”

    “Right—scenery doesn’t end at the horizon, does it?”

    “Especially not in Saskatchewan. Anyway, I usually get home around five-fifteen, when I let my long-suffering dog out for a run in the back yard while I cook supper, which Cooper and I watch in front of M.A.S.H. reruns or something similar.”

    She grinned at me. “You like M.A.S.H.?”

    “My favourite T.V. show, despite the fact that it ended before I was born.”

    “I like it too.”

    “Good to know. Anyway, two or three days a week I put in a couple of hours of schoolwork after supper—you know, marking assignments and going over lesson plans and all that—and on the others I read, or visit my friends or family. Around nine I take Cooper for a longer walk—we might go earlier if I’m not working—and then we go home and shut down the shop. I’m usually in bed by ten-thirty at the latest, because his labradorial majesty will be sniffing by my bedside around six-thirty in the morning, begging me to take him out before I abandon him to another day of neglect and guard-dog duties.”

    “And on the weekends?”

    “Saturdays I clean the house and shop for the week, although recently the routine has been changed by the welcome prospect of dog-walks with the rector of Westbury, Rochdale, and Howden.”

    She gave me a mock bow. “Glad to be of service.”

    “Saturday is also a good day for goddaughter worship, especially Saturday evenings, when I like to give the young lovers a night out while I play with their offspring.”

    “I’m sure they appreciate it.”

    “I’d like to think so. Sundays—well, church is at ten, and then the older Mennonites had a tradition of visiting one another for the rest of the day. My mom and dad are on the younger side to be ‘older Mennonites’, being only in their mid-fifties, but still, Mom likes to host a ‘family and friends’ lunch after church, so Joel and I are almost always there…”

    “Your younger brother.”

    “Yes, the one who actually does want to be a farmer, although he also moonlights as a beekeeper. Sadly, Jess and Aaron don’t make it up so often, Regina being rather a long haul for coffee after church.”

    “Of course.”

    “And that’s it—not just a day, but a whole week in the life of this particular social studies teacher.”

    “That Sunday afternoon thing sounds like fun.”

    “Would you like me to get you invited?”

    She grinned at me. “Are non-Mennonites allowed?”

    “James has been there lots of times, so yes, non-Mennonites are definitely allowed! What might be more problematic is what my mom and dad might read into the invitation, if you know what I mean.”

    “Oh, I see—taking the priest to meet the parents!”

    “Something like that…”

    “What time does it start?”

    ”Coffee and visiting starts whenever, but lunch—or I should say ‘dinner’, because it tends to be a cooked meal—gets going around one. Your church is at eleven, with coffee hour after, right?”

    “Yes, but it’s doable. A little tight, but doable.”

    “Let me see what I can arrange.”

    “Thanks. I’ll look forward to meeting your family.”

    ***

    As we were driving back into town, with the dogs in the back of the truck, I said, “Want to stop by for a sandwich and a coffee?”

    “Have you got time?” she replied playfully. “Don’t you have shopping and laundry and house cleaning to do?”

    “Yes, but I don’t want to do them, so…”

    I saw her grinning out of the corner of my eye. “Oh, I see—I’m a useful avoidance mechanism!”

    “A very pleasant useful avoidance mechanism, I hasten to add.”

    “Thank you, kind sir—I accept your invitation.”

    So we went to my place, let the dogs run around in the yard, and worked together in the kitchen to throw together a salad and some sandwiches. “Do you think it’s warm enough to eat out on the deck?” I asked.

    “You in your flannel and I in my wool sweater? I think we’re up to it, especially if the coffee is hot.”

    “Speaking of which, last time I was in Saskatoon I stopped by the Broadway Coffee Roasters and picked up some nice dark roast beans. Want to try them?”

    She grinned at me. “You know how to charm a girl, Luke Hiebert.” She gave a sudden frown. “Speaking of Luke Hiebert, do you have a middle name?”

    “I do: Peter, after my dad.”

    “Very nice—a gospel writer and an apostle. What’s your mom’s name?”

    “Donna. And what about you; do you have a middle name?”

    “Rose.”

    I stopped my cheese slicing and turned to face her. “Your middle name is Rose?”

    “It is.” She frowned; “Is there some significance to that?”

    I shrugged. “I can’t help thinking that if I was a girl and my name was Johanna Rose, I’d use my full name all the time.”

    I saw her flush a little. “Thanks. It’s always seemed a bit pretentious to me. ‘Jo’ is more down to earth.”

    “’Jo’ is fine, but I have a hunch you’ve got Johanna Rose in there somewhere, too. Maybe you should let her out from time to time, and see if you can make peace with her.”

    She stared at me. “Holy crap, Luke!” she whispered.

    “Uh-oh. Did I say the wrong thing?”

    She shook her head slowly. “No—it’s just that, well, I’m going to have to think on that, and consider the possibility that you may have said the right thing.”

    “Well, that’s a relief. I’ll put the coffee on!”

    ***

    The early afternoon was cool but mild. The yard smelled of dead leaves with a hint of woodsmoke; somewhere not far from us, someone had a backyard fire going. We talked casually while we were eating our sandwiches, and afterwards there was a fresh apple for each of us, and hot coffee to keep us warm. As we were sitting with our hands wrapped around our mugs, she hesitated and said, “Okay, since you’ve been helping me consider parts of my psyche I may not have let out into the daylight before, maybe you’ll indulge me in answering a personal question.”

    “Maybe I will, although I reserve the right to give a completely flippant answer.”

    “Fair enough. Well, Luke Peter Hiebert, you strike me as being a rather attractive catch. How come some nice Mennonite girl hasn’t snapped you up yet?”

    I was quiet for a moment, looking down at my coffee. She waited, and then said softly, “Sorry—did I go too far?”

    I shook my head. “I guess I owe you that honesty. So yeah, at least one girl tried, and went so far as to say yes to a marriage proposal from me.”

    She stared at me again. “How come no one in town has ever told me about this?”

    “I don’t know; maybe because the town knows it was a very, very tough one for me, and contrary to their usual practice, they’re respecting my privacy.”

    “While I’m…”

    I shook my head. “No—you’re my friend, Jo. I’m not offended.”

    “Thank you. So did she break it off?”

    “No—I did.” I gave a heavy sigh. “Have you ever read Margaret Craven’s I Heard the Owl Call My Name?”

    “It’s one of my all-time favourite books.”

    “It’s extraordinary, isn’t it? Do you remember how Jim and Keetah are described in that book? I can’t remember who says it—one of the indigenous characters, maybe—and I’m going to get the wording wrong, but it’s something like ‘Jim is a fast-flowing stream, and Keetah is the pool.’”

    I saw the understanding on her face. “So your fiancée was going places, and…”

    “I was done with going places.”

    “What was her name?”

    “Jana Shantz. We met in university—we were both doing B.Ed. degrees—she was from Saskatoon. From a Mennonite family—Swiss Mennonite—but not a country girl, not even close. But she was dazzling, in many different ways, and I was dazzled with her. So yeah—we fell in love, and we had a good time, and eventually in our last year at university I asked her to marry me, and she said yes, and we told our families, and everyone was very happy for us. But when we started planning, and we started talking about where we would live and what sort of life we would have, it became more and more clear that we had two totally different visions of the future.”

    “Town and country?”

    “Or roots and wings. I told her quite plainly, ‘I probably won’t get a job in Westbury right away, but as soon as one comes available, I’ll apply for it.’ And she couldn’t get her head around that view of reality. Not only did she want to stay in a city: she wanted to move to a bigger one.”

    “Wow.”

    “So—it was really tough, because we were hopelessly in love with each other, but I knew that if we went through with it, eventually we’d kill each other. So I broke it off, and she was seven different kinds of hurt and angry and—well, that hurt me even more deeply. The fact that she couldn’t, or wouldn’t, see what I could see, and the fact that she blamed me for it, and lashed out at me, when I thought I was doing us a kindness.”

    “So, this is your home, for good?”

    I nodded slowly. “It is. I lived in Saskatoon for four years and Montreal Lake for four years, but then I came home, no more to roam.”

    She grinned. “You’re full of apt quotes this afternoon.”

    “I am. Margaret Craven and the Wayfaring Stranger.”

    “How did I know you’d like bluegrass music?”

    “Well, Americana more than bluegrass, but yeah, I do.”

    She hesitated, and then said, “I like a deep lake myself, even though I don’t know whether I am one.”

    “Yeah. Although I don’t see you in quite the same category as Jana.”

    “How so?”

    “She was the Fraser River, thundering at breakneck speed through the canyon and down to the sea. You’re more like the South Saskatchewan River, moving slowly and resolutely toward a northern destination.”

    She fixed me with her eyes. “That, Mr. Hiebert,” she said softly, “may well be the most accurate description of me anyone’s given in a long time.”

    “Thanks.”

    I saw the faraway look in her eyes. “You have a talent for introducing me to things about myself that I hadn’t recognized before. I’m not entirely sure I like that, but I have no doubt that it’s a good thing.”

    I nodded. “You’re welcome. Feel free to keep asking me the tough questions.”

    “I will.”

    ***

    My mom and dad lived in a spacious farmhouse, built by my grandfather and great-grandfather in 1954 to replace an older, more traditional dwelling that had been destroyed by a river valley bush fire. The old place had been built on the eastern side of the quarter-section, right against the trees that marked the edge of the river valley. That had been its death-sentence; the summer had been hot and dry, and the fire had come up out of nowhere, roaring down the valley from the north, consuming trees at a frightening pace. The sparks had jumped to the tinder-dry shingles on the farmhouse roof, and within minutes the thirty-year-old structure was engulfed in flames.

    My grandfather and great-grandfather had rebuilt half a mile further west, a good distance from the trees. The new place was a two-storey dwelling on a fully finished basement, with wide verandas on three sides of the house. The living room had a large stone fireplace that had become a natural focus for countless family gatherings over the years.

    On the last Sunday in September, Jo pulled into the yard in the Subaru a little after one o’clock. I went out to meet her as she pulled up beside the three trucks and got out of the car; I noted immediately that she had taken an extra five minutes after church to shuck her clerical collar and replace it with a Nordic-style sweater. As she emerged, Mom and Dad’s two Anatolian shepherds, Fritz and Freddie, came running round the corner of the farmhouse, barking furiously. I yelled at them to back off, but Jo never flinched; she simply grinned at them, stretched herself up to her full five-feet four, and said, “Relax, boys—I’m friendly.”

    The dogs immediately began wagging their tails and sniffing around her. She greeted them both, then smiled at me as I walked towards her. “Interesting welcoming committee!” she said.

    “No Finn today?”

    “No. The whole rescue dog thing, you know—lots of new people, and I was a little nervous about what might happen.”

    “Fair enough. Come on in; I’m sure the others are watching at the kitchen window.”

    “Who’s here?”

    “Mom and Dad, my brother Joel, and his girlfriend Carly. Who, by the way, is Ukrainian Catholic, not Mennonite!”

    “Good to know I’m not alone.”

    “You’ll be even less alone when James and Shauna get here.”

    “Nice veranda! Does it stretch all the way around the house?”

    “Three sides. I suspect we might have dessert out here later.”

    We went up the three steps to the veranda, and I led her through the open doorway into the small—well, I was going to use a grand word like ‘foyer’ or ‘hallway’, but ‘glorified mudroom with a coat closet’ might be more accurate. We went through to the kitchen, where my parents were standing waiting, with Joel and Carly. My dad, I thought, had dressed for church that morning with a sense of humour, as if he was intentionally challenging Jo’s stereotypes of what a Mennonite farmer looked like; he was wearing his newest pair of blue jeans and a western shirt, which he wore with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows. His hair was slightly on the long side, his face lined but clean-shaven. He held out his hand to Jo: “Pastor,” he said, with a formality that took me a little by surprise; “I’m Peter Hiebert.”

    “Johanna Warren,’ she replied, gripping his hand firmly, “but I go by ‘Jo.’”

    “Jo it is, then. This is my wife Donna.”

    Mom was a couple of years younger and a full foot shorter than Dad, with shoulder-length brown hair that had recently begun to turn grey. She shook hands with Jo, giving her a warm smile. “We’re real glad you came,” she said.

    My brother Joel was basically a younger version of me, but without the beard. “So you’re the brave woman who’s been hanging out with my brother!” he said mischievously. “We’ve heard about you.”

    “That sounds a little ominous!” Jo replied as they shook hands.

    “This is my girlfriend, Carly Borecki.”

    Carly was about Jo’s height, with long dark hair and glasses; she had been dating Joel now for about eighteen months. She had been raised on a farm near Wakaw, and she had turned out to be a willing and enthusiastic volunteer whenever Mom and Dad needed a little extra help. She gave Jo a cheerful grin. “Nice to officially meet you!” she said.

    “Haven’t I seen you…”

    “Yeah—at the hospital. I’m a nurse, and you’ve been there to visit the sick a couple of times.”

     “Right—I thought your face looked familiar.”

    “Come and sit down, Jo,” said my dad. “Donna and Carly are just finishing up, and we’re having coffee in the kitchen while we wait for James and Shauna; they should be here in a few minutes. Would you like a cup?”

    “I sure would,” she replied, glancing through into the living room. “Wow—that’s a beautiful stone fireplace!”

    “Built by my dad, like the rest of this house. It’s actually fieldstone—literally pulled from the soil on this farm. I’ll grab you a coffee. Cream and sugar?”

    “Black, please.”

    “Coming right up.”

    He poured a cup of coffee and handed it to Jo, gesturing to her to take a seat at the circular table in the centre of the kitchen where he and Joel and I had been sitting. “How was church this morning?” I asked her as she sat down beside me.

    “Good. Small and quiet in Howden, noisy and a little chaotic in Westbury. One of the kids was very chatty during the children’s talk, and I came pretty close to losing control of it for a minute, which I’m sure was very funny for the adults listening in.” She took a sip of her coffee and nodded her appreciation. “Very nice,” she said. “So—how old is this house?”

    “Nineteen fifty-four,” my father replied. “There was an older building, away east under the trees, dating back to the nineteen-twenties, but it burned in a fire—every now and again we get them, in the river valley—so my dad and my grandpa built this new place, with a lot of help from the wider family. Dad was born on this land in nineteen twenty-four; his parents were the first generation, the ones who came from Russia, a couple of years before that. Has Luke told you that story?”

    “About the Mennonites fleeing from the Bolsheviks at the end of World War One?” She glanced at me; “Have we talked about that? I don’t know if we have, but I knew it anyway. There were some Mennonites volunteering at the Sally Ann in Saskatoon when I worked there; I probably heard it from them. There were a couple of people my own age that I hung around with a bit.”

    “You worked at the Salvation Army?” said Joel.

    “I did, after I moved from Ontario but before I went to seminary.”

    “What did you do there?”

    “I started out doing pretty mundane stuff—sorting clothing, helping with food, cleaning up messes and all that. But I ended up as an intake worker, which I did for about two and a half years all told. That’s how I met Caleb Young, who’s now my bishop; he was in and out of the place, trying to help people.”

    My mom was at the counter, chopping up some raw veggies for a salad. “So you’re from Ontario, then?” she said.

    “Yeah. I’ve been in the west for eight years.”

    “Where in Ontario?”

    “The Toronto area.”

    “Do your folks have a bit of land out there, or are they more the city type?”

    Jo’s smile stayed polite, but I noticed it didn’t quite reach the corner of her eyes. “A bit of both, I guess. My father has an office in Toronto, but they live on an acreage in Caledon, which is northwest of the city. He’s done well in business—real estate, mainly—so that keeps him busy. My older brother works for him, too.”

    “So you have one brother?”

    “Two. I’m the youngest in the family.”

    My dad, who I thought might be feeling a little uncomfortable about Mom’s gentle probing, nodded slowly at Jo. “I’m the youngest, too.” He gave her a mischievous grin. “That’s why I got the farm!”

    She laughed, and I could see her relaxing again. “You’ll have to unpack that for me!”

    “My older sisters married farmers who had their own land, and by the time dad died my big brother had gone to work for the Wheat Pool and was already running an elevator up at Tisdale. And I’d been working alongside dad, just like Joel’s doing with me, so he thought I should carry on, and the rest of the family agreed.”

    Mom wasn’t done with her questions yet. “What about your other brother?” she asked. “Does he work in the family business too?”

    Jo gave a little frown. “He’s—more of a free spirit. He’s still finding his path, I guess.”

    “And you became a pastor,” said Joel. “How did that go down at the dinner table?”

    “I’m sure those conversations did happen, but I was already in Saskatoon by then, so I wasn’t part of them.”

    That phrase hung in the air for a moment; I knew my mom wanted to keep on asking, but she could read Jo’s body language as well as anyone, and I think she realised she’d gone as far as the bounds of politeness would allow. And at that moment the dogs started barking outside, and we heard the sound of gravel-spitting tires. “That’ll be the Sutherlands,” I said, and then, as everyone else was looking up toward the window, I quietly touched Jo’s hand with my little finger; she met my eyes, and gave me a little smile and a barely perceptible nod.

    A moment later we heard the sound of the front door opening and closing, and James led the way into the kitchen; he was wearing a faded denim jacket, and he carried a bundle wrapped in a checkered tea towel. Shauna was right behind him, looking bright and sharp as always, long black hair pulled into a tight braid hanging down her back, beaded earrings hanging from her ears.

    “I bring a present from my kokum,” said James, grinning at my mom. “Fresh bannock, still warm enough to melt the butter!”

    “Delicious!” Mom replied with a grin.

    James stopped short when he saw Jo, his eyes doing a quick assessment. He handed the bannock to my mom, then advanced to the table and held out a steady hand. “I’m James,” he said. “This is Shauna. We’re the local troublemakers.”

    Jo stood up, taking his hand confidently. “Jo Warren,” she said, “and I’m getting the idea that in this part of the world, ‘troublemaker’ is a competitive title.”

    He laughed out loud. “Good one. I like you already!”

    ***

    The meal that followed was warm and friendly, and laced with a humour that sometimes bordered on the raucous (James tended to be the leader in that department). My dad already knew Jo liked dogs, so he talked with her for a while about the different breeds he’d had over the years, the things they were good at, and some of their more hilarious escapades. Shauna and Carly were both nurses—Shauna worked as a public health nurse at Pine Lake—and they talked shop about fall vaccinations and the strangeness of health care politics.  James was the one who asked Jo about her ‘induction’ service earlier in the month; he knew Caleb and Sarah Young, of course, as they were related to his grandmother, and were also well-known in the indigenous community in Saskatchewan.

    As for my mom, I knew what was on her mind: I had brought a young woman home for Sunday lunch. I had clearly explained that we hadn’t known each other for long and were not dating, which I knew Mom understood, but still she couldn’t seem to stop herself from seeing Jo as at least a potential girlfriend. And given my last experience with a girl, she was feeling somewhat protective.

    “I was wondering, Jo,” she said as we were eating our blueberry cobbler, “now you’ve been officially installed as rector, is there some kind of a term commitment that you make? Three years, five years…?”

    Jo shook her head. “It varies.”

    “I know your predecessor wasn’t here very long.”

    “No—Thomas didn’t have a happy experience here.”

    “It wasn’t very happy for his flock, either,” James commented dryly. “Or so I’ve heard.”

    “Depends on who you talk to,” I replied. “Marcus and Nicky got on fine with him.”

    “True,” James conceded, “but you have to admit that’s a minority opinion.”

    “I will admit that.”

    Jo gave a little frown. “The way I understand it is that when things passed a certain point, when it was clear it wasn’t going to get any better, the bishop just asked Thomas to resign—which is what he did.”

    “Where is he now?” asked my dad.

    “Somewhere in the States, I think—in the south. I’m not exactly sure. I knew him a little, but we weren’t close, and we haven’t kept in touch”

    “He was an unusual case, then,” said my mom. “How long would a person normally be expected to stay in a place like this?”

    Jo shrugged. “I can only speak for myself. Caleb didn’t ask me for a specific time commitment; he just asked me to do what I can to bring some healing to these churches. And I know healing can’t be rushed. You just have to try to make yourself available to God, don’t you?”

    “It would be good if we all did that,” my dad replied quietly.

    “And not just in the churches,” James added. “A lot of people around here are carrying pain. And anger. And sadly, there are still people causing it.”

    “We humans do have a tendency to do that,” Jo replied softly.

    “I’m not just talking about little imperfections. I’m talking about racism, colonialism, injustice—people being willfully ignorant and abusive. Have you ever been on the Westbury community Facebook page, Jo?”

    “I’m not on Facebook,” she replied, “or any social media, actually.”

    “You’re probably wise. Some of the comments on the Westbury community page are unbelievable. There are racists in this town who argue regularly that all treaties with First Nations people should just be abolished, and we should all just assimilate.”

    My dad nodded slowly. “It’s true,” he said quietly. “They don’t seem to realise that it’s the treaties that give them the legal right to own the land their homes and farms are built on. And when I ask people if they plan to return their land to its original owners the day after they abolish the treaties, they don’t seem to understand what I’m talking about.”

    “It’s because they don’t want to, Peter,” James replied. “They want us to disappear as a people. That’s what the residential schools were all about—kill the Indian in the child, make them good little Europeans.”

    Shauna put her hand on her husband’s and smiled apologetically at Jo. “On a different subject,” she said, “have you met Stephen Burns yet?”

    “The old priest at the church in Pine Lake? I think we’ve met a couple of times over the past two years, while I was still working in the city, but I’m sure he wouldn’t remember me. To be honest, I only vaguely remember him. He wasn’t at our deanery meeting last week—that’s a sort of area clergy gathering—but then again, I don’t remember him ever being there very much. I was a little disappointed, actually—I was looking forward to talking with him. How old is he, exactly?”

    “Sixty-seven? Sixty-eight? I’m not exactly sure. But he’s not really a clergy meeting kind of guy. He got the call late in life, and he’s not really into the whole minister culture.”

    Jo nodded sympathetically. “I totally get that,” she said.

    “I hear you’re pretty thick with the bishop and his family,” said James. “My grandma says you’re like an adopted daughter to them. She’s related to Sarah Young, by the way.”

    Jo shrugged. “Caleb and Sarah were really kind to me.”

    “You knew him before he was bishop, then?”

    “I met him when he was rector of St. Thomas’. I was working at the Sally Ann then, as an intake worker. Not long after that I started attending St. Thomas’.”

    “You’d have had a lot of exposure to our ceremonies and customs, then.”

    “Yes.”

    He nodded. “Good to know. Never hurts when the Anglican priest knows the difference between a sweat and a smudge.”

    She raised an eyebrow. “I have to admit, I’ve never been to a sweat, but I’ve been smudged more times than I can count.”

    “That’s good. Sorry if I’m coming across as pushy, but you know, the Anglican church hasn’t exactly covered itself with glory in the eyes of our people.”

    Jo looked from James to Shauna, her face open and vulnerable. “I’ve read the stories and reports,” she said softly. “I know the Anglican Church has a lot to answer for. But for me, the learning curve’s been even more complicated. My family was nominally Anglican, but my parents never attended, and when I became a Christian it was in a nondenominational setting. Until I met Caleb and started attending St. Thomas’, I’d had absolutely no contact with Anglican Christianity. I studied the story in seminary, of course, but that’s not the same as being personally involved in it for decades at the parish level. I guess what I’m saying is, it’s not just the residential school story I need to learn more about.”

    James nodded. “I understand, and like I said, I didn’t mean to get pushy. It’s just that with you being friendly with Caleb and Sarah, we were hoping that meant you’d be more positive toward indigenous people than your predecessor.”

    Jo frowned. “Was Thomas…?”

    “I wouldn’t say he was personally racist, but the issues weren’t important to him. He didn’t give any leadership on it in the church community. He couldn’t be bothered to go down to the Truth and Reconciliation hearings in Saskatoon, for instance.”

    “Speaking of Thomas,” my dad said, “did the Mounties ever find out who took a shot at him last year?”

    Jo frowned, and then I saw the light dawning on her face. “Is that why there’s a bullet hole in my kitchen wall?”

    “Haven’t they fixed that yet?” I asked.

    “No, and no one told me the story of how it got there, either.”

    “I’ll have to get after your people’s warden about that,” I replied with a grin. “She definitely knows the story.”

    There was silence for a moment, and then Shauna grinned. “Okay—enough issues talk for a while. Donna, is there any more coffee where that came from?”

    “I’ll make a fresh pot.”

    “Why don’t we drink it out on the veranda?” asked Carly.

    “That sounds lovely,” said Jo.

    “What time do you have to leave, Jo?” my dad asked. “We know you have another service today.”

    “I’ll need to run back into town, pick up my robes and stuff, and be at Rochdale by about six-thirty, so I’ve got lots of time.”

    “That’s great,” said my mom. “We’re really happy to have you here.”

    “Thank you,” Jo replied softly.

    ***

    On Tuesday evening Jo and I walked our dogs again, and when we got back to my place I invited her in for a cup of decaf coffee. It had been a cooler day—it was, after all, the last day of September—and while the kettle was heating up in the kitchen I glanced at her and said, “I have a fireplace in the living room. I could light a little fire, if you like? It’ll only take me five minutes.”

    She grinned at me. “You mean I’m finally going to get invited into the inner sanctum?”

    “I guess you haven’t been in my living room yet, have you?”

    “No—just the deck and the kitchen.”

    “Come and have a look.”

    I led her through into the living room. The floor was hardwood, partially covered by a large area rug. The stone fireplace and hearth were on the north wall, the front window was on the east wall, and on the south wall I had two crammed bookshelves stretching up almost to the ceiling. There was a small TV in one corner, and a CD player with a huge stack of CDs beside it. A couch, a couple of armchairs, and some end tables completed the furniture.

    “This is very cosy,” she said. “I especially like the bookshelves.”

    “Thanks. There’s a few more in other parts of the house. I’ll just get this fire going; feel free to browse.”

    “I will.”

    I began to lay out the fire, and after a moment she said, “You really like history, don’t you? Especially Canadian history.”

    “I do.”

    “A lot of indigenous stuff too, I see.”

    “I have to keep up with James, you know!”

    She laughed softly. “He’s a force of nature, isn’t he?”

    “Yeah, but also a good friend. And I’ve appreciated most of the books he’s recommended to me.”

    “I see what I think are some Mennonite names here: Wiebe, Toews, Augsburger, Hershberger, Yoder…”

    “Have you read any Mennonite theology and spirituality?”

    “Not really.”

    “Help yourself, if you’re interested. Or to anything else there that catches your fancy.”

    “Thanks—I will.”

    ***

    Once the fire was lit and the tea poured, we arranged the chairs around the hearth, sat down, and relaxed with the dogs at our feet.

    “Well, this is very pleasant,” she said with a smile. “How old is this house?”

    “Late nineteen-forties, I think, but it’s been renovated a couple of times. I upgraded the insulation after I bought it, and put new windows in—that kind of thing.”

    “How many bedrooms does it have?”

    “Two on this floor, one in the basement. How about yours?”

    “Three up, one down. There’s room for another one downstairs, but no one’s ever really needed it, so nothing’s been done about it.”

    “I’ve never been in the rectory, so I can’t really picture it.”

    She grinned at me. “Fair’s fair—next time you’re in the vicinity, drop in and I’ll show you around.”

    “I’ll do that. And on another subject, how did you find the Sunday dinner at my parents’ place?”

    “I enjoyed it. Your mom and dad sure have a beautiful house.”

    “Yeah, it’s not bad, is it? Grandpa was a good carpenter.

    “Are your grandparents still alive?”

    “Three out of four. Dad’s parents are Isaac and Anna Hiebert; he’s eighty-four and she’s eighty-three. They have their own place in town here, but they’re getting frail and they’re needing more and more help these days. Mom’s dad died a few years ago, but her mom Rachel Wiebe is almost eighty; she’s a real live wire, that one. She has a little place in the seniors’ housing circle; have you come across the circle yet?”

    “Yeah, I have a couple of parishioners living there.”

    “Of course you do. Anyway, I’ll introduce you to my grandparents if you like. What about you; do you have grandparents still alive?”

    She shook her head. “No. I’m the youngest child, so my parents are maybe ten years older than yours; they’re in their mid-sixties.”

    “Right.”

    “Your dad is lovely.”

    “Yeah. Mom normally is too; sorry she was so pushy on Sunday.”

    “I get it. The last girl you brought around didn’t work out so well, and even though we’re not dating, she can’t help being protective; she’s a mom. And speaking of girlfriends, Carly’s a sweetheart, isn’t she?”

    “Yeah; she and Joel are a really good fit for each other.”

    “James and Shauna were fun.”

    “I’m glad you think so. I love James like a brother, but he can be a little intense sometimes. He’s a campaigner, and the thing about campaigners is, they’re willing to incur some casualties if they think the cause is important enough. Which is kind of tough if you happen to be one of the casualties.””

    “I get it, though, Luke; this campaign is important. But of course, I’ve already discovered that not everyone in my churches sees it the same way. And I have to take my parishioners as they are, and love them anyway.”

    “Yeah. Our pastors have sometimes been a little impatient about that.”

    “At your Mennonite church, you mean?”

    “Yes. Last year we had a congregational discussion about including a land acknowledgement at the beginning of our services. Pastor Dan thought it would be a good idea, but he was pretty naïve about it. I thought it was a good idea, too, but Mennonites can be surprisingly conservative about these things. It’s like they feel the land is the refuge their parents and grandparents found after being persecuted in Russia. To acknowledge that someone else had a prior claim on it is to admit that their sanctuary was someone else’s loss, and for some people, that’s a big ask. Anyway, it went through, but we lost some people over it. And I think if Dan had been a little more patient and had taken time to talk with people one on one, the outcome might have been better.”

    “Right. Caleb told me to be careful about assuming I was the leader just because I’m the rector. In rural churches the actual leadership structure is often different from the official leadership structure.”

    “Yes it is. The day may come when they decide to make you the leader, but they don’t know you well enough yet. And you can’t rush that process. Meanwhile, Art and Bruce are the historic leaders at St. Andrew’s, and the younger crowd tend to look to Nicky and Marcus, and Scott Douglas, Lisa’s husband.”

    “Good to know.” She gave me a mischievous grin. “So you’re kind of related to the emerging leadership in my church, then?”

    “I guess I am, since Marcus is like a brother to me, and I’m Daisy’s godfather.”

    “Marcus and James are your closest friends, aren’t they?”

    “Yeah—Dad calls us the three amigos, which is a little lame, but he means well. What about you? Do you have close friends from your childhood?”

    She shook her head. “None that I’ve kept from my childhood. My oldest and closest and absolute best friend is Hannah MacNeill; we met twelve years ago when we started as psychology students at the U of T. She’s from Saskatoon originally, and when I moved to Saskatoon after I graduated I lived in her parents’ basement for a while. She was actually the one who introduced me to the community where I found my faith.”

    “A church community, you mean?”

    “No—it was more like a community house, an intentional community for serving the poor. There were some permanent residents, and then some space available for homeless people. The guy that ran it was Eddie Ford; he was in his fifties at the time. He was a street worker, I guess, kind of like a pastor for street people. Then there were a couple of students who stayed there, Mark Thorne and Grace Haddad; they were two or three years older than me. I became really good friends with them; they were my first Christian mentors, along with Eddie and Hannah.”

    “That’s where you get your love of justice and caring for the poor and all that.”

    “I hope so. Anyway, Hannah has her own clinical psychology practice in Saskatoon now, and we see each other a lot. You talk about James and Marcus being like brothers to you; Hannah’s like a sister to me. And then there’s Amy Cameron; she and I were in seminary together, and we shared a really shabby basement apartment. We’re really close, and because of that she and Hannah have become close friends too.”

    “Nice! So you’re part of a three amigos group as well!”

    “I guess I am. I stay in touch with other seminary friends too, but I’m not really close to them. And I’m also close to Caleb’s kids, especially Nathan and his wife Tina.”

    “Does Amy still live in Saskatoon?”

    “No—she’s in Borden, with two other smaller communities to look after, too—like me.”

    “Not too far, though; if you want to have a three amigos get together, it’s doable.”

    “Yeah.”

    I smiled at her. “Maybe in a year or two you’ll make some close friends in Westbury, too.”

    She hesitated. “It’s complicated in the parish. You and I are fine because you’re not one of my parishioners. It’s not that clergy can’t have friends in their congregations; of course they can. But the dynamic’s a little different when one of the friends also has pastoral responsibilities toward the other one, you know what I mean? It’s not a totally equal relationship, or at least, it’s hard to make it totally equal.”

    “But are any friendships ‘totally equal’?”

    She shrugged. “Probably not, but I think you know what I mean.”

    “Yeah, I do, and I’m glad I’m in the clear, because I think we’re becoming friends, and I like it.”

    She nodded. “So do I, Luke,” she said quietly. “So do I.”

  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter Four.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    Chapter 4

    JO (AUGUST 12-15, 2014)

    Art Holloway dropped into the church office Tuesday morning about eleven o’clock. I’d been doing some advance work for my next sermon, and had just gone down to the basement to make myself a cup of coffee. I had Finn with me, and I had just started the coffee brewing when I heard the front door open and close again upstairs. Finn let out a couple of sharp barks, and I heard Art’s call; “Hello? Are you down there, Jo?”

    “Right here, Art—I just put the coffee on.”

    “You got a dog with you down there?”

    “Yeah, but he’s well trained.”

    I heard his footsteps coming down, and a moment later he appeared at the foot of the stairs, a short, dumpy figure in jeans and a short-sleeved shirt, with an old Rough Riders cap set at a jaunty angle on his head. “Well—a border collie!” he said with a grin.

    Finn gave a low growl, and I spoke sharply to him. “Finn—easy! Lie down!”

    The dog hesitated, then sank slowly down on his belly, keeping a watchful eye on Art.

    “You got him well-trained, alright,” Art observed.

    “He’s a rescue dog; I’ve had him for about a year.”

    “He can’t have been very old when you got him.”

    “No—the litter was abandoned by the side of the road.”

    He shook his head. “Horrible, what people do to dogs sometimes.”

    “Yeah.”

    “He’s a beauty, all right, but I’ll just leave him be and let him decide when he wants to make friends with me.”

    I nodded. “You sound like you know dogs, Art.”

    “We always had them when I was growing up. Course, they were working dogs on the farm—my parents never had any pets. I always liked them, though, and so did Carol, so after we got married, we always had a dog or two around the house.”

    “Were you ever a farmer yourself?”

    “I learned how to do farm work when I was a kid—we all did. But no—when I was done school, I went to Saskatoon for a while, got my realtor’s licence, then started working for a firm in the city. Came back here, set up my own business a few years later, after Carol and I got married. I had two partners, so we did real estate, insurance, bookkeeping. We had a good business, too—took on a few other people, managed to make a profit. Westbury was good to us.”

    “What did you do when you retired? Did you sell the business?”

    “Yeah, so there’s still a Westbury Enterprises office on main street, but they don’t do bookkeeping anymore—just real estate and insurance. I think they’re doing okay. I miss the contact with people, having your finger on the pulse, you know? But I don’t miss the headaches, and Carol and me are happy to be able to go down to Arizona for a month every winter.”

    “Have you got a place down there?”

    “Time share.”

    “Nice.”

    “How’s your week going so far?”

    “Good. I used yesterday to do a little more settling in at the rectory, and exploring a bit. Working on Sunday’s sermon this morning, then I plan to do a couple of visits this afternoon.”

    “People will like that. Father Thomas didn’t do enough of that.”

    “Would you like a coffee, Art?”

    I could see that he was tempted, but he glanced at his watch and shook his head reluctantly. “Ordinarily I would say yes—I should have made more time today, but I’m running some errands for Carol. But anyway, we were wondering if you’d like to come over to our place for dinner some night this week. Any night but Thursday works for us, she said. We live on an acreage west of town, and we’ve got two Irish setters that are pretty friendly, and lots of room for them to run, so your dog would be welcome too, if you think he wouldn’t be too nervous. What’s his name, again?”

    “Finn.”

    “Right. Well, what do you think?”

    “Friday would work best for me, if that’s good with you. And I think Finn will be okay; he’s sometimes a bit nervous around other dogs, but he made friends with Luke Hiebert’s retriever just fine last week.”

    “Oh, you met Luke, did you? Wait—of course you did—he was in church with Marcus and Nicky on Sunday.”

    “I’d actually met him earlier in the week; our dogs made friends at the regional park Wednesday evening. Then Sunday evening after the Rochdale service he took me down to the river valley and we went walking on a trail near the bridge. The dogs got on fine.”

    “That’s near where Luke was brought up. His mom and dad farm just across the river from Pine Lake.”

    “That’s what he said.”

    “He’s an interesting guy. Got his little oddities, for sure, but the high school kids like him. Anyway, we’ll eat at six, so come a little before that, if you can. Is there anything you can’t eat?”

    I shook my head. “I’m good with pretty well everything—I’m just not a big eater, if you know what I mean?”

    He nodded and smiled. “Yeah, that can be a problem if you end up getting a lot of invitations. Carol was thinking she might invite our son and his wife to join us too—Rob, he owns the service station on North Street—RJH Automotive. His wife Ali runs the flower shop with Cara Green.”

    “That would be fine. Anything I can bring?”

    “Nope – just you and the little guy.”

    “Alright—I’ll look forward to it.”

    ***

    A lot of non-churchgoers think pastors and priests sit in their churches or their offices and wait for people to come to them with their problems. They think we practice a religious variety of counselling or therapy, I suppose, with a little prayer attached at the end. “You must hear it all,” some of my non-religious friends say to me. And they’re not wrong; I do hear a lot of stuff about people’s lives and struggles. But the thing is, people won’t share that stuff with you unless they trust you, and in a rural community you have to be willing to put in a lot of small talk with people before they trust you enough to get to the big talk. You have to be patient with relationships that don’t seem to be going anywhere, because one day, if you lay the groundwork well, they might just surprise you.

    Before I arrived in Westbury, Caleb had given me a good briefing about the needs of my parish. “Thomas was a decent enough preacher,” he said, “and a good liturgist, but he had very little relational intelligence. What people need now, Jo, is a friend—someone who’ll listen to them and take their stories seriously. And don’t assume you already know their stories because of what other people have told you about them. You have to let people tell their stories from their point of view, and listen without judging them—listen for understanding.”

    “So what’s my strategy?” I asked.

    Caleb smiled and said, “You tell me. What would you think?”

    I frowned and thought for a moment. “Well, I’m guessing there are three or four things to start with. First, visit people as much as possible, and make listening a priority.”

    “Right.”

    “Second, be approachable on Sundays, to make it easy for people to talk to me and invite me.”

    “Yes—but don’t wait for the invitations, or you won’t get many. Remember, people aren’t sure yet that you even want to visit them. So work your way through your parish list; call people and ask if they’d like a visit. Some will say no, but most won’t.”

    “Right. And I think the third thing is to keep giving people hope by giving them a positive gospel message—but an honest one, not a religious pep-talk.”

    “You’ll do fine with that—you’re an excellent preacher. What’s the fourth thing?”

    “There’s a fourth thing?”

    He smiled again, and waited.

    “Don’t forget to pray?” I said tentatively.

    “You got it. Goes without saying, except I do need to say it, because so many people forget.”

    “And what about the fifth thing?” I asked him.

    “What would that be?”

    “I’m going to be the rector of a parish that’s twelve miles from a large First Nations community. I’m pretty sure that’s not always a comfortable relationship. I heard some evidence of that from at least one person at my interview.”

    “Oh yeah?”

    “The drunken Indian stereotypes, you know.”

    He nodded. “I’m not surprised.”

    “Any thoughts about how to navigate all that?”

    “Well, you’re not new to these issues, Jo, so first, let’s hear your thoughts.”

    ***

     Nicky Fox had told me about three or four St. Andrew’s people who were shut-ins and hadn’t been able to receive communion for a while. So I spent that Tuesday afternoon driving around with my home communion kit—a little black box with a small chalice and paten, a little container of wine and some communion wafers—taking the sacrament to the people. One of them, Betty Pickersgill, was living in the Saskatchewan Valley Lodge, a care home on the west side of town. I was wearing a clerical collar, and it served me well, smoothing my way with the receptionist at the desk. “Yeah, down the far wing, Room 31,” she said. “I could show you the way, if you want.”

    “That would be great.”

    As we were walking down the corridor together, smiling and saying hello to residents as we passed them, she said, “My name’s Jan, by the way. Marcus Janzen is my cousin.”

    I laughed softly. “I’m already discovering that everyone’s connected in this town!”

    “And in some of the other towns, too—Howden, Rochdale, even Pine Lake people have some relatives living here.”

    Betty Pickersgill was ninety-one and obviously very frail, but she was cheerful enough and very happy to see the new priest and receive communion. Instinctively, I used the service from the old Book of Common Prayer, almost identical to the earliest Anglican prayer books produced in the sixteenth century, Tudor English and all. When Betty was young, I knew, this would have been the only service she knew, and sure enough, I saw her mouthing the words along with me. And the moment of communion, when I put the wafer in her hand—“The body of our Lord Jesus Christ, which was given for thee, preserve thy body and soul unto everlasting life”—was a moment, as always, of sheer intimacy and pure magic. And when we were done, she looked at me with a smile on her face and said, “That was lovely. Thank you, Reverend. Sorry—I’ve already forgotten your name!”

    I laughed softly and shook my head. “Don’t worry about it. My name’s Johanna Warren, Betty, but I’d love it if you’d call me ‘Jo’”.

    “You look like you’re about the same age as my granddaughter Chelsea; I think she might be twenty-eight.”

    “I’m thirty, so I’ve got two years on her. Where does she live?”

    “Edmonton, I think. I don’t see her too often.” I saw a frown on her face. “She’s got her struggles, you know. I think she was with a guy for a while, but it didn’t go well. Her mom and dad are kinda worried about her; they don’t hear from her too often—sometimes it’s two or three months, parents are going to worry, aren’t they?”

    “Of course,” I replied, feeling a slight twinge of guilt. “Worrying’s a natural thing when we love someone.”

    “Isn’t that the truth?”

    “Would you like me to pray for Chelsea before I go?”

    “Would you? That would be kind.”

    I took the old lady’s hand and bowed my head. “Let us pray. Jesus, you told us a story about a son who went far from home, and probably his father worried about him and longed for the day when he’d see him again. We pray for Chelsea, that you’ll keep her safe and well, and help her deal with the troubles she’s going through and come out of darkness into daylight again. And we pray for her mom and dad, who worry about her; help them lean on you and find strength to be patient and not give up. In your name we pray. Amen.”

    “Amen,” she whispered. I opened my eyes and looked up, to see the old lady smiling at me. “Thank you,” she whispered. “That was a good prayer.”

    “I’ll write her name on my daily prayer list, too,” I said as I got to my feet. “Well, Betty, I’ve got a few more people to take communion to this afternoon, so…”

    “For sure. Thanks for coming—I hope to see you again before too long.”

    “Count on it.”

    ***

    I spent the next couple of days visiting in the two smaller communities, Rochdale and Howden. I was quietly using the people who had interviewed me—the members of the Search Committee—as my points of connection with the wider parish; they were the first ones I called about getting together, and as part of the conversation I made sure to ask them who else they thought I should make contact with as soon as possible.

    On the Wednesday I had a late morning coffee with Roy and Audrey Clennett, who were both in their late sixties, but still lived on their farm three miles southwest of Rochdale. “We wouldn’t mind letting it all go some time in the next couple of years,” Roy admitted to me as we sat in their kitchen, “But both the kids live in Saskatoon and neither of them are really farmers, so we’d have to sell up. And you know, you work so hard to build something…”

    “Where would you go if you did that?” I asked.

    They looked at each other, and Audrey shrugged. “Neither of us is really interested in living in the city, but that’s where the grandchildren are. We’d probably look for something in Westbury. You’ve got to think about the future, haven’t you?”

    “I’m sure Christ Church will be glad for every extra year you stay in Rochdale.”

    Again the two of them glanced at each other. “We might still come out to church here, even if we lived in town,” said Roy in his quiet voice. “I mean, St. Andrew’s folk are nice and all, but they’re a little different from us, aren’t they? And you get used to a church after fifty or sixty years…” He smiled at his wife. “And good organists are hard to find, these days.”

    “Isn’t that the truth?” I replied.

    They were quiet for a moment, and then Audrey spoke, her eyes down. “Hard to see a future for Christ Church, isn’t it? We’re used to it, but most of the young folks don’t go to church, and if they do, they want something big and fun, like those megachurches you see on TV with the screens and the rock music and all that. We can’t really compete with that, can we?”

    “It ain’t just the church that’s struggling,” Roy added. “There’s not much for young people to do in a place like this. Us old-timers, most of our kids have left—some to Westbury, but most to the city. That’s where the work is. You look twenty years down the line, I don’t know if there’s still a Rochdale to live in. Course, there’ll still be a Pine Lake—the Indians will be okay. They get lots of help us ordinary folks don’t get.”

    “Do you have a lot of contact with people from Pine Lake?” I asked.

    He shrugged. “Not really. See ‘em coming out of the bars in town sometimes, when we’re there. They don’t tend to come to Rochdale for much. Except to the Hiebert place, of course; Peter and Donna have been tight with them for years. Do you know them?”

    “Would they be Luke’s mom and dad?”

    “Yeah. You know Luke?”

    “A little.”

    “He’s like his dad,” Roy mused. “He marches to a different beat.”

    I shrugged. “Maybe that’s not a bad thing, for a follower of Jesus.”

    He raised an eyebrow at me. “I guess not,” he replied.

    ***

    I had packed a sandwich in the car, and had planned to take it down to the river and eat in solitude, but Audrey and Roy ended up inviting me to eat with them, an invitation I was happy to accept. Afterwards, I went into the village to have coffee with Jack and Helen Pickersgill; Jack was 71, and he told me that Betty, who I had taken communion to in Westbury the day before, was his oldest sister. Helen was born an Ainsworth, and the farm they had worked together their whole married lives had been her parents’ farm, the place where she was born. Helen was 69 now, and they had been living in the village for a couple of years, having sold the farm to a big corporate company out of the States. “We’ve got four kids,” Helen explained to me, “but the older three all live in Saskatoon or Regina. Only Stephen stayed; he works for the Town of Westbury. He’s married to Debbie Garry—she’s a nurse at Westbury hospital—they’ve got a couple of little kids.” She reached over to the sideboard and handed me the photographs—“Aiden’s eleven and Alicia’s eight,” she said. “We’re real glad to have at least two grandchildren nearby, aren’t we, Jack.”

    “That’s for sure,” he replied in a low, gruff voice. “They’re good about coming out to visit, too, or having us over there.”

    “Have you got family, Reverend Jo?” asked Helen.

    “Back in Ontario,” I replied. “I’m afraid I don’t see them very often.”

    “I’m sure they miss you, and you miss them.”

    “Distance is always hard, isn’t it?” I replied.

    ***

    On Thursday evening, Luke called me just as I was getting my supper on the table. “Hey, Jo,” he said, “got any plans after your supper’s gone down?”

    “Not really—you?”

    “Cooper and I are going to the regional park for an hour. You and Finn want to come?”

    “That would be just what the doctor ordered, Mr. Hiebert.”

    “Well, I’m glad to be of service. Pick you up around seven or seven thirty?”

    I glanced at my watch. “Better say seven-thirty.”

    “Awesome.”

    ***

    The last two days had been dry, and the mosquitos weren’t quite as fierce as we skirted the lake with the dogs. Luke had a pair of binoculars with him, and at one point he spotted a great blue heron, standing as still as a statue in the reeds.  A moment later Cooper saw the bird too, and let out a couple of sharp barks. Immediately, the heron spread its wings and sprang forward, climbing smoothly and effortlessly in the sky over the lake, and then veering off in an easterly direction.

    “Wow,” I breathed. “That was gorgeous.”

    Luke was looking at Cooper with a thunderous expression on his face. “Really?” he said. “You had to scare it off before I even focussed the binoculars on it? Maybe next time I won’t bring you, you goof ball.”

    “Dogs are going to be dogs, you know,” I said.

    “I know. It’s the peculiar contradiction of being a dog lover and a birder, at the same time. Oh well.”

    ***

    As we were driving back into town, with Finn sitting between us on the cab floor, Luke glanced at me again. “You look tired,” he said quietly.

    I put my head back against the back window of the cab, closed my eyes, and gave a heavy sigh. “It’s been a couple of days of reality check. I did a lot of visiting in Rochdale and Howden—some of the older people, you know? They don’t seem to have a lot of hope for the future of their churches.”

    “It’s not just the churches. Those little towns are dying on the vine.”

    “Well, that’s a challenge for me, Luke, since I’m supposed to turn this place around and make it viable again.”

    “That’s a heavy weight to put on one pair of shoulders.”

    “I feel it tonight—I really do.”

    He was quiet for a moment as the road bent slightly to the right and we caught sight of the Westbury grain elevator. A truck passed us in the other direction; Luke raised his hand, and the other driver acknowledged his wave.

    “I have a question for you, Jo.”

    “What is it?”

    “Do you allow yourself to drink a beer from time to time?”

    I opened my eyes and turned to face him, and I could feel a smile spreading slowly across my face. “I do,” I said. “I’m actually quite fond of a glass of beer, although I don’t let myself drink it very often.”

    “I think tonight might be one of those times.”

    “You think?”

    “I do.”

    “What have you got?”

    “I have some Irish red ale in the fridge. We could light the citronella candles and sit out on the deck.”

    “Yes, please!”

    ***

    His house was obviously old, but it had been recently renovated. The back yard was treed around the edges, with a vegetable garden in the far corner and a fire pit in the middle. He had a pair of wooden garden chairs and a round table that looked like it had been made from the same wood. He got me settled, then went into the house, and came out again a moment later with two foaming glasses of red ale. “There you go,” he said, handing one of them to me. “Conclusive proof that God loves us.”

    We raised our glasses to each other and took our first sips. I savoured the caramelly, toasty flavour for a moment, and then gave another heavy sigh. “That…is perfect,” I whispered. “Luke, this was a good idea.”

    “I have them occasionally.”

    I looked across at him, sitting in his chair in his long-sleeved shirt, cradling the pint glass in his hands. “When are you back to school?” I asked.

    “I’ve got a couple more weeks. I’m the service leader at our church on Sunday, and then I’m going down to Regina for a couple of days to visit my sister and her husband. They’re both on holiday right now, so we might do a little hiking.”

    “Jessica, right?”

    “Yeah, and her husband is Aaron. They got married in April, though they’d been living together for a couple of years, so it’s not like they’re getting used to each other or anything. Jess is a nurse, and Aaron—well, I don’t really understand what it is that Aaron does. He’s a sort of a social worker, but he’s not very social and I sometimes wonder if he ever does any work. He just seems to get people together in groups and listen to them talking. But Jess says it’s an important job, and she knows a thing or two, so maybe I’m just not looking in the right place. Anyway, I love them both and we like hiking.”

    “Where will you go?”

    “Down the Qu’Appelle valley a bit, probably.”

    “Nice.”

    He turned to face me. “A little birdie told me you’re having dinner with the Holloways tomorrow night.”

    “That would be correct. Art and Carol, and maybe their son and his wife.”

    “Rob and Ali.”

    “Yeah.”

    “Taking Finn?”

    “Yes. Apparently they have dogs.”

    “They do—Irish setters. Nice dogs.”

    “I hadn’t pegged Art as a dog person; I was happy to be surprised.”

    “Art’s a complicated guy.”

    I frowned. “How so?”

    He shrugged. “He’s traditional, but also charismatic—in the churchy sense, I mean, not the media usage sense. Has anyone ever told you the story of the revival they had at the Anglican church in the seventies?”

    “Here?”

    “Yeah.”

    “No. I know about the charismatic renewal movement in the seventies, but I didn’t know it had gone through here.”

    “Malcolm Sinclair was the rector at the time; he got zapped by the Holy Spirit, and the results were quite dramatic for St. Andrew’s. And in an entirely good sense, too. Lots of people’s faith came alive, and lots of people who weren’t churchgoers found faith themselves, and the church was full most of the time. Lots of kids in the Sunday School, a youth group, a folkie worship band, prayer meetings, all that stuff.”

    “How do you know all this?”

    “Dad told me about it. He was just a teenager at the time, and sometimes he hung out with Malcolm’s youth group. Mennonites weren’t sure what to make of it, but Dad enjoyed it.”

    “So Art and Carol were part of that?”

    “Very much so—they had Holy Spirit experiences, came to the prayer meetings, spoke in tongues, did evangelism—all that stuff.”

    “But I thought Art was a more traditional guy.”

    “I think he’s gotten more rigid over the years. Back in the eighties the American evangelical movement got hijacked by right-wing politics, and I think some of that seeped over the border too. And as Art got older he was given more responsibility at the church, and he became a warden, and got drawn into some of the Anglican politics. He’s always been a conservative politically, but he got more black-and-white about that. The NDP weren’t just misguided, they were the enemy and they wanted to destroy this province—that kind of thing.”

    “Right.”

    “There’s another guy you need to know about—Bruce Thompson. Has anyone talked to you about him?”

    “Was he in church last Sunday?”

    “No, I think they’re away right now, him and his wife Sharon. She’s a Boyko by birth—Ukrainian. Their daughter Cara runs the flower shop with Ali Holloway.”

    “Right—Art mentioned that.”

    “Bruce’s brother Gary is a farmer, but he’s also mayor of Westbury. There’s a sister, too, Edna—she’s married to Charlie Bennett; they farm just south of town. Bruce is a lawyer—got his own practice here in town— and Sharon’s the hospital administrator. He was also the People’s Warden until last year, when there was an upset election and Nicky got the job.”

    “Wow. I haven’t heard any of this.”

    “Bruce and Art ran the church for years. Never mind who the rector was, everyone knew who the real leaders were. But Bruce got too used to his own power, and he pushed people around too much. I guess people got tired of that. And Nicky had been around for three or four years, and volunteered for absolutely everything, and was a breath of fresh air from day one, so—she was asked to let her name stand, and she did, and she was elected.”

    “Bruce must have found that difficult.”

    “You think?” he replied with a twinkle in his eye.

    “I think.”

    “You’d be right. He’s had a bit of time to get used to the idea now, but I think it still hurts. Nicky’s smart and wise, but sometimes they try to marginalise her, as if Bruce is still the people’s warden.”

    “Why do we get so addicted to power, Luke?”

    He raised an eyebrow at me. “You’re the theologian, Father Johanna—you tell me!”

    I laughed softly. “I’m still searching for the answer to that one.”

    “Fair enough.”

     “Well,” I said, “this is helpful. Anything else you can tell me, to prepare me for tomorrow?”

    “Neither of Art and Carol’s kids are churchgoers. Rob has the automotive service shop at the north end of town—he owns the business and he’s their main mechanic. He married Ali Penner, she was a Mennonite girl, but not the practising kind—I don’t think those kids were ever in church. Rob and Ali have Evan—he’d be about twenty, I think—and Sophie, who’s in my social studies class, Grade eleven this coming year. But Art and Carol’s older son is in the military. I can’t remember his name—Jack, maybe? He’s a squadron commander in the air force, a pilot himself—flies a Hercules, I think, and he has a son who’s in the infantry.”

    “Wow.”

    “Yeah—stressful, with all that’s going on in the world.” He was quiet for a moment, and then gave me a thoughtful frown. “What about you?”

    “Me?”

    “You haven’t told me anything about your family.”

    I shrugged. “They live in Ontario; we don’t see each other very much.”

    “You’re not close? Feel free to tell me to mind my own business, if you like—no offence taken.”

    I took a deep breath, let it out slowly, and said, “Luke, do you mind if we don’t go there? I will tell you about them one day, but not today. All I’ll say is, it’s complicated, and I don’t really know how to deal with it.”

    “Understood.” He raised his glass to me. “I will sip my beer and change the subject.”

    “Thank you,” I replied softly.

    ***

    The next day was Friday, and about eleven o’clock I was working at my desk finalising Sunday’s bulletins when my phone began to buzz—my personal cell phone, not the office land line. I glanced at the screen and saw the name: ‘Jonny.’

    Here we go.

    I picked up the phone and accepted the call. “Jonny?”

    I could hear the background noise immediately—the music, the people talking in loud voices all around him. He’s in a bar.

    “Jo? Is that you?”

    “I’m here, Jonny. Where are you calling from?”

    His voice went up a notch against the background chatter. “Do you remember that pub we were at in Soho, last time we were in England together?” He giggled, and I immediately knew he was drunk. “That waitress, the one with the purple hair? She was funny, Jo! And the amazing music.”

    “Is that where you’re calling me from—London?”

    “Yeah—I just decided to fly over and see if the pub was still here. And it is, Jo! And get this—I’m sitting on the exact same bar stool I was on last time we were here—when was that—ten years ago?”

    “I don’t remember—I think we were barely legal, though. I remember you leading me on a long pub crawl all across London, and in the end I had to pour you into a taxi to get you back to the hotel.”

    “Jo, Jo—you gotta let yourself live a bit, little sister! You worry too much!”

    “Who’s with you, Jonny?”

    “There’s this lovely British girl—what’s your name again? Carla? Carole?”

    I heard a woman’s voice responding. “Karen.”

    “Karen—that’s it!” He was talking to her right now, with me listening in to their conversation. “This is my sister on the line; she lives in Weston or Westgate or Westbury or some tiny little place in the middle of the wilds of Saskatchewan, and—get this, you won’t believe it—she’s a fucking priest!”

    “A priest? A woman priest? Awesome! Fuck the patriarchy!”

    “Jonny,” I said, asserting myself back into the conversation, “please don’t go on a bender. You’ve got no one there who can pick you up off the floor.”

    “Oh, don’t worry about me! I talked to the old man an hour ago—wanted to hear his tone of voice when he realised where I was—it was fucking awesome, Jo—I thought he was going to explode on the phone! But anyway, he’s sending the cavalry over to bring me home.”

    “The cavalry?”

    “You know—Amanda, the family attack dog. Don’t worry, Jo—she’ll yell at me and pour me into a plane seat and get me back home, but I’m going to have a good time before she gets here! Gotta go—love you!”

    “Jonny—wait…”

    The line went dead, and on the screen I saw the words, ‘Call Ended.’ I put the phone down on my desk and looked down at my hands; they were shaking. Jonny, Jonny—please be safe!

    After a moment I got up from my desk, went out into the foyer and then slipped into the empty church. I already loved the simplicity of it: the altar with its plain green hangings, the bare cross on the wall above. I sat down in the second pew, feeling the tension in my shoulders, and after a moment I closed my eyes and began to intentionally slow my breathing. In, out. In, out. In: Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God. Out: have mercy on me, a sinner. In: Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God. Out: have mercy on me, a sinner.

    I sat there for half an hour, reaching into the silence for the only one I knew who could really help my fucked-up family right now.

    ***

    Art and Carol’s house on the acreage had obviously been built in the past twenty years; it was on the big side, with a triple garage and a spacious lawn with plenty of trees for shelter and shade, but somehow it still managed to seem comfortable rather than pretentious. I was already disposed to like it, and to like Art, despite what I’d heard about his views. He was a dog lover, and that was a big plus in my book.

    Carol met me at the door with a smile; she was a little taller than her husband, with short white hair. “Reverend Jo—come in! So nice to see you! And this is Finn—Art tells me he’s a rescue dog, so we’ll just give him time to find his safe space, shall we?”

    I took her outstretched hand. “Thanks; he’s a little nervous, but it doesn’t usually take him long to get over it.”

    “Our two Irish setters are running out back; do you want to let him out there and see how he does with them?”

    “I think that might be a good idea; he makes friends with other dogs much faster than with people. He might be a little growly for a minute, but he’ll soon get over it.”

    ***

    In the living room I was greeted by Art, his son Rob, and Rob’s wife Ali. She was in her forties, a little plump and very pretty, with long blond hair and a comfortable look about her. Rob was taller than her, with a short grey goatee, dressed in shorts and tee shirt and a plain blue ball cap.

    Ali grinned when we shook hands. “Look at you,” she said; “You look just like an ordinary person!”

    I laughed out loud. “That’s because I am an ordinary person!”

    “Yeah, I know—you know what I mean. I wasn’t sure if you’d be wearing a collar or a uniform of some kind, but…”

    I shook my head slowly and put my other hand on hers. “I’ll tell you a secret,” I said in a stage whisper—although I was well aware that the others could hear it. “I hate clerical collars.”

    Rob snorted. “The last priest loved them. I think when he retires, they’ll need to get his collar surgically removed!”

    Art gave a little frown. He didn’t like Thomas, I thought, but he’s not comfortable with a non-churchgoer making fun of him. That’s a second thing I like about him. “I knew Thomas a little,” I said. “He had his own style, that’s for sure.”

    I saw the surprise on Art’s face. “I don’t know why I didn’t think of you knowing him. You’d have met him at clergy meetings and stuff, I guess.”

    “Yeah, and retreats. We didn’t talk much, but he wasn’t a stranger.”

    “Come and sit down,” said Carol. “Dinner will be a few minutes, but we can have a drink first. Would you like wine, Jo, or something softer, or I could make coffee if you’d prefer it?”

    “A glass of wine would be lovely, thank you.”

    ***

    “Yeah, my brother Jack’s been in the air force for a long time,” said Rob as we ate our roast beef. I was eating slowly, knowing I would never make it through the enormous helping on my plate.

    “Twenty years,” Art added.

    “Has he always been a pilot?” I asked.

    “Right from the get go,” Rob replied. “That’s what he wanted. And not fighters, either—he wanted to fly those big suckers, the Hercules. Those things go a long way. He’s been all over the world with them, doing troop transportation and all that. And now his squadron flies even bigger planes—the Globemaster.”

    “Was he in Afghanistan?” I asked.

    “Yeah, and I think they’ve been flying stuff into the middle east again, recently, with all that shit ISIS is getting up to—pardon my language!”

    I shook my head. “Trust me—you won’t teach me any words I haven’t already heard!”

    He laughed. “I guess not! You must talk to some pretty messed-up people.”

    “I could tell you, but then I’d have to kill you.”

    They all laughed at that one; I could tell I’d scored a hit, and put Rob at his ease as well. “What about you guys?” I asked him. “You run a service station, I hear? And you’re a florist, Ali? And you have—two kids, is it?”

    Ali jumped in. “Evan and Sophie,” she replied. “Evan’s working in the city for the summer; he’s just finished his second year of a business degree at the U of S. He’s doing really well.”

    “Doesn’t come home very much,” Art interjected. “I wouldn’t mind seeing a bit more of him.”

    “He’s pretty busy,” said Ali. “And he wants to contribute to his own expenses, too, so he needs to work hard through the summer.”

    “Sophie’s in school still,” Rob said. “Going into Grade Eleven this year. Also helping her mom out at the shop a lot. I have a hunch she might end up in that line of work too.”

    “Getting back to Jack and his kids,” said Art, “his oldest son Sheldon has just joined up, too.”

    “In the Air Force?” I asked.

    “No—the army.”

    “I can’t help worrying, of course,” said Carol. “It seems like the soldiers are being called on more and more, with all this terrorism and wars all over the middle east. I don’t know why those people seem to like killing each other so much.”

    “Muslims have always been like that, Mom,” said Rob. “Right back from the beginning of their history, they started out from Arabia and basically invaded the whole middle east. That’s how they spread their religion.”

    “I had a friend in university from a Palestinian family,” I said. “Christian, but very familiar with the Muslim Palestinians, too. She actually helped me get involved as a volunteer at a homeless shelter.” I laughed softly. “Now she’s a Ph.D. teaching in Vancouver; when I knew her she was just ‘Grace’, trying to help street people find a place to sleep.”

    “Where was that?” asked Ali.

    “Toronto. That’s where I’m from originally, but after I finished university I moved out to Saskatoon and ended up working for the Salvation Army for three years.”

    “That was before you were a priest, then?”

    “Yeah—that came later.”

    ***

    It was a warm evening, and we sat out on the back deck with our coffee, watching the dogs run around and growl affectionately at each other. Art was reminiscing about the old days at St. Andrew’s.

    “When Malcolm Sinclair was our rector back in the seventies, it was a going place, that’s for sure. He’d been to one of those renewal conferences and came back all fired up.”

    “The Holy Spirit was sure at work in his life,” Carol added.

    “Big time!” Art agreed. “And right away he started telling people about it, and the fire spread, if you know what I mean?”

    “That was an exciting time for you,” I said.

    “It really was,” Art replied. “People were coming to know the Lord, and being filled with the Holy Spirit, and we had prayer groups, and people being healed, and messed up people being put back together.”

    “You must have been pretty young in those days.” I said.

    Carol laughed. “Younger than you are now, even!” she said. “When it got going, we were in our late twenties, and Rob and Jack were still little.”

    “How long did the renewal last?” I asked.

    “Until the middle of the nineteen-nineties,” Art replied. “After Malcolm left, Murray Thompson was our priest—no relation to the Westbury Thompsons—and he was a charismatic too. But he left us in ninety-two, and then Anne Harrison became our rector. She was a lot more liberal than Malcolm or Murray, and she wasn’t really into the Holy Spirit like they were. And after a while, people just started to melt away.”

    “How do you mean?” I asked.

    “Some went to the Pentecostal church; some started driving down to Saskatoon, even. And some just quit. There aren’t many people left at St. Andrew’s who were part of that movement.”

    “It sounds like it was really formative for you,” I said.

    “Yeah,” he replied, nodding slowly, “that’s a good word for it. Kinda like you’re set up for life in a good direction.”

    “It’s harder these days, though,” said Carol.

    “How so?” I asked.

    “Well, so many controversies nowadays…”

    “All this political correctness stuff,” Art added. “Even the Anglican Church doesn’t always go by the Bible anymore. And now all this arguing about homosexuality—people seem to have lost their nerve. They want to be acceptable in the eyes of the world, I guess, so they water stuff down.”

    “That doesn’t jive with the way you were formed,” I said.

    “No.”

    We were quiet for a moment; I had a hunch that Rob and Ali weren’t comfortable with the direction the conversation had taken. Is it because they aren’t churchgoers, I thought, or do they disagree with some of Art’s conservative views?

    “What about your family?” Ali asked me. “Are they all in Ontario?”

    “Yeah, they are. I don’t see them very often.”

    “Do you have brothers, sisters…?”

    “Two brothers; I’m the baby sister.”

    “Your parents would be in their sixties, maybe?”

    “In their mid-sixties. Dad had a cancer scare a few years ago, but he’s fine now. He’s a businessman; he’s done okay for himself.” I turned to Carol. “What about you? I seem to remember someone saying you’re originally from Saskatoon?”

    “Yeah—Art and I met when he was living in the city, when he first got started as a realtor. But I always knew he would come back to Westbury sooner or later. So we moved here a year after we got married.”

    “You still have family in Saskatoon?”

    “I do.”

    “Tell me about them, if you like.”

    ***

    I got home about nine o’clock; Finn and I went up the stairs to the kitchen, and I put some fresh water out for him. “We’ll go for a walk in a minute, boy,” I said softly, taking out my phone. I glanced briefly at the screen: no messages, no notifications.

    Jonny, you idiot, I hope you’re alright.

  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter Three.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    Chapter 3

    LUKE (AUGUST 10, 2014)

    I’m not sure why I invited Jo out for that evening walk with the dogs. Don’t get me wrong—I already knew I liked her, or at least, I found her intriguing, which is always a magnet for me. When I sense that people have an interesting back story, I can immediately feel my curiosity levels going up.

    But I’m not impatient about it; I’m content to wait, and let people open up in their own time. I think maybe I picked that up from James Sutherland’s kokum, Caroline Sanderson. She was good at a lot of things, but waiting was near the top of her skill list. When I was a boy she saw I was getting interested in birds, but she also noticed that I wasn’t very patient with them. “You gotta learn to wait, Luke,” she would say to me. “And you gotta learn to be still. Ask yourself, ‘How badly do I want to see that bird?’ If it’s really important to you, you’ll be able to look inside and find the patience you need.”

    So yeah—I was curious about Jo. But I’m not as good at taking the initiative as she is; I tend to wait for life to happen, and then respond to it. That’s why I was a little surprised when I heard myself inviting her out for that evening walk. Sometimes you don’t know yourself as well as you think you do, I guess.

    ***

    My sister Jess and her husband Aaron had to drive home to Regina, but they ended up staying for an early supper, so Cooper and I were at the farm longer than I’d expected. I got back to my place in town around 8.15, let Cooper out in the back yard, and went into the house to make myself a cup of tea. When it was ready, I went out on the deck and dropped into my usual yard seat. Cooper wandered over, stepped up onto the deck, sat down in front of me and looked up expectantly.

    “Yeah, I know,” I said. “I’ll send her a text.”

    He tilted his head a bit and gave a little whine, and I laughed at him. “Patience, young Jedi!” I said, taking out my phone. With my dog watching me intently, I tapped out a text to Jo.

    ‘I’m home, and Cooper’s ready to stretch his legs. Let me know when you’re ready and I can pick you up.’

    I pressed ‘send’, then put my phone away, looked down at my dog, and said, “Right—now we wait.”

    He looked at me again, then gave a little sigh, flopped down on his belly, and laid his head on his front legs. The message was clear: it’s a dog’s life.

    ***

    She called me at about 8.40. “Sorry—I just got home. A couple of people wanted to chat after the service. Can you give me five minutes?”

    “Sure—I’ll pick you up. Finn won’t mind riding in the truck bed with Cooper, right?”

    “I’m not sure; he’s never done that before.”

    “Well, if he gets nervous he can ride in the cab with us. By the way, I’ve got an idea for an alternative to the regional park.”

    “What’s that?”

    “Back along the road you were on tonight, just before you get to the bridge, there’s an old road that leads north along the top end of the bluffs above the river. About a mile up that road, there’s a trail that leads down through the coulees to the river. It’s a great place to walk.”

    “You know this area well, don’t you?”

    “Mom and Dad’s farm is just a little bit north-west of there. That’s where I grew up.”

    “Right. Okay, I need to get out of my uniform. Five minutes?”

    “Yeah. Dress for the mosquitos.”

    She laughed. “Right—a long sleeved shirt and muskol! See you in five.”

    ***

    The sun was just starting to set behind the rectory as I pulled the truck into the driveway behind Jo’s Subaru. I stepped out of the truck, glancing at Cooper in the box. I fixed him with my eye. “Stay!” I said.

    A moment later I saw Jo coming round the corner of the house from the back entrance, with Finn at her heels. There’s the woman I met at the park, I said to myself; she was back in hiking pants, with a long-sleeved denim shirt over her white tee. Under her ball cap, she still had the braid she’d put in first thing that morning. I remembered the wording on her cake: ‘Welcome, Rev. Johanna.’ But she likes ‘Jo’, I thought. She’s a natural at being a priest, but she’s uncomfortable with the stereotype. I need to remember that.

    “Hey, Jo,” I said.

    She gave me a grin, and I wondered how she found the energy for that after the long day she’d just been through, and in a prairie heat wave to boot.

    “Are you full of home-cooked goodness?” she asked.

    “I’m not in imminent danger of starvation, that’s for sure.”

    The dogs decided the seating arrangements before we could. As soon as I opened the door, Finn took one look at Cooper’s shaggy, exuberant face in the truck bed and opted for the passenger side floorboards. Cooper let out a disappointed huff: he had thought they were friends already, but I could see Finn still wasn’t taking any chances with the big guy.

    Jo and I got in, and she tucked her feet around her dog. “Sorry about that,” she said; “I guess he’s still a city boy.”

    “Don’t worry about it,” I replied, starting the engine and shifting into reverse. “Cooper’s used to having the penthouse to himself.” I nodded toward the western sky. “That’s a beautiful sunset.”

    “Yeah. Too bad I couldn’t make it a little earlier.”

    “Late evening walks in the river valley are fine. If we’re good, we might see an owl—or a coyote.”

    We pulled away from the curb, turned a few corners and then crossed the main highway, passing the Dairy Queen and the Tim Horton’s, and on the eastern side a pizza place. Then we were on the same narrow hard top Jo had taken earlier in the evening, heading straight east toward the bridge over the South Saskatchewan River, the fields stretching out on either side, their colours catching the last light of the sun as it touched the western horizon behind us.

    Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Jo lean her head back against the seat, and I heard her let out a long sigh.

    “You okay?” I asked.

    “Just—finally exhaling.” She looked out of the window at the passing fields. “Don’t get me wrong, I had a great day—it seemed like everything went right. But three services, with all the hype of my first Sunday in the parish…”

    “I get it.”

    “I’m afraid my brain feels like it’s turning to mush.”

    “You did well today—at least the part of ‘today’ that I got to see.”

    “Thanks.”

    “No, really. I was watching the St. Andrew’s folks—I know them pretty well. They weren’t just listening—they were leaning in. Including my old friend Marcus. I mean, I know he’s a lay reader and all that, but sometimes when he’s got his wife at the keyboard and his daughter running around at the front of the church, he’s easily distracted.”

    “He had your help today.”

    “He and I go back a long way. We might even have caused some trouble together, sometime in the last century.”

    She laughed. “He’s a gem, and so is Nicky. I met so many great people today, at all three churches. But part of me’s still waiting for the other shoe to drop—you know— ‘who does this young woman think she is, pretending to be a priest?’—the parking lot conversation.”

    “Did you see a parking lot today?”

    She laughed out loud. “You’re quick, for a guy who’s full of his mom’s cooking.”

    “I do my best. Seriously, though, Jo, that whole woman pastor argument isn’t really a thing in Westbury, at least not with the Anglicans and General Conference Mennonites. We’ve had women pastors before. Maybe some of the evangelicals in town still get bent out of shape about it, I don’t know—I don’t hang around their churches very much. And I don’t know about Howden, either, though I do have my finger on the pulse at Rochdale, it being close to my childhood home.”

    “So you don’t think there’s any problem, then?”

    I shrugged. “There are differing levels of comfort, and sometimes guys like Art Holloway or Jack Pickersgill are going to come out with something totally inappropriate, because they forget they’re living in twenty-fourteen—they’ve accidentally relocated to nineteen sixty-four!” I hesitated, then continued. “There will be talk, of course, but it’ll take a while. You’re new and shiny right now, and you have a huge advantage.”

    “What’s that?”

    “You’re not Thomas Guthrie.”

    “Right.”

    “Not that he was a disaster; I don’t subscribe to that viewpoint. But he had his challenges, and he was struggling, although he’d never admit to it.”

    “That’s—a very gracious way of looking at it.”

    I shrugged. “It’s how I see it. But speaking of grace—you’ve got a grace period yourself, haven’t you? All new pastors get a free ride for the first few months; I’m sure you know that.” I gave her a sideways glance and a grin. “And besides, you told them what your name means. Hard to stay mad at someone called ‘God is gracious.’”

    “You remembered that,” she said quietly.

    “I liked the ‘God to the rescue’ part. Of course, that fit in well with what you had to say to the adults, about Jesus hauling Peter up out of the lake when he started to sink. Most people in this town have had that sinking feeling, one way or another.”

    “I think most people do.”

    “Yeah, and not to get all theological or anything, but most people also need to be reminded about grace. Sometimes we forget that God’s love for us comes before our love for God—or our neighbour.”

    “We have a hard time living into our own theology, don’t we? An old friend of mine used to say, ‘Sometimes it’s a long way from your head to your heart.’”

    “Isn’t that the truth?”

    Eight miles east of Westbury, the setting sun was flaming red and gold behind us. “So the Rochdale service went well tonight?” I asked.

    “It was lovely, Luke. I love the way the church sits off by itself, right beside the trees, with the land sloping off to the river valley beside it. I’m pretty sure I saw a coyote under those trees as we were coming out from the service. Twelve people, all of them over sixty-five. It was a very sensory experience. The quiet of the church; the smell of the wood. The taste of the bread and wine. Tonight was less about words—although people did seem to like my sermon. But there was a mystery there; no point in trying to explain it.”

    “You Anglicans do mystery and silence better than us Mennonites. We like to sing enthusiastically in four part harmony, and then roll up our sleeves and get stuff done.”

    “Nothing wrong with that.”

    “No—I kind of like it, but I’ve got a lot of time for the mystery part, too. I have an adopted Cree grandma, Caroline Sanderson; she says I’m half Mennonite and half Cree.”

    “Tell me about that.”

    The road had begun to bend around a little to the right as we descended slowly into the river valley. Ahead, the old truss bridge came into view, and then as we began our final dip toward the river, the gravel road appeared on our left. I hesitated as I slowed the truck toward the turnoff. “I will talk about that,” I said, “but not ‘til we’re under the trees. Somehow it seems more appropriate down there.”

    Out of the corner of my eye I could see the surprise on her face, and then the slow smile. “Luke Hiebert, you are a poet,” she said softly.

    “Surely not!”

    ***

    I turned the truck north onto the old gravel road, the tires crunching over the ruts. But I could feel a softness, too, and I remembered the recent rain. Might be a little muddy down by the river, I thought. We were moving more slowly now, descending toward the bottom of the valley, the poplars gliding past on either side. Jo rolled down her window a little, and I saw Finn’s nose coming up, taking in the rich scents.

    After about a mile, the road came to an abrupt end; straight ahead, the walking trail led off into the bush. I pulled up under the poplars and killed the engine. Through Jo’s partly opened window, we could hear the soft breath of the wind lifting the leaves in the tops of the trees, and far off, the hoot of an owl. I was quiet for a moment, my hands still on the wheel. Jo seemed to be holding her breath, as if she didn’t want to break the spell of the place.

    “Ready?” I asked softly.

    She nodded wordlessly, and we stepped out of the cab. Cooper gave a sharp bark from the truck bed, and I went around and lowered the tailgate. He jumped down, and immediately he and Finn were off, plunging into the tall grass under the trees like a pair of ghosts in the shadows, their tails held up like flags, signalling their movements. The air down there was rich and cool, and I could smell the sharp, medicinal tang of sage.

    “There’s a flashlight in the glove box,” I said, “but I know this trail pretty well, if you’re willing to trust me. Once your eyes adjust, you’ll see a lot more without the artificial light.”

    “That’s fine by me.”

    We started down the trail, and immediately the woods seemed to envelop us in a warm embrace. I didn’t lead the way; Jo and I walked side by side. I didn’t want to talk yet; I was hoping that in the silence, she would sense what I felt every time I came back to the valley—the sense that the world is a whole lot bigger and older than whatever problem you might have spent your day trying to solve. In the shadows up ahead, I could still see the two dogs’ tails darting back and forth through the bush.

    Suddenly, out of the darkness, came a thin, insect-like buzz: Tika-zzzzzz-tik.

    Jo stopped abruptly, tilting her head, her breath catching slightly. “What is it?” she whispered.

    “LeConte’s Sparrow, I think.”

    “Are you a bird watcher?”

    “I play at it.”

    “That’s pretty good playing, to be able to identify that sound.”

    “This is my valley.”

    “Right.”

    We started moving again, and we walked for nearly ten minutes without saying a single word. In town, people often feel that silence is a gap to be filled, but in the river valley at night, it feels more like a spiritual presence. The wind had died down; the only sounds were the rustle of the dogs moving through the thickets, the buzz of the mosquitos, and the rhythmic sound of my jeans and her hiking pants rubbing together.

    And then gradually, as we continued on the trail, we began to notice another sound: the gentle whisper of the water. We went around a bend in the trail, and there we were: the South Saskatchewan River, a wide, dark stream, moving steadily and inexorably toward the forks. Off to our right we could see the skeletal structure of the bridge cutting across the silver sheen of the water.

    Jo stood beside me, taking off her ball cap, and I saw her close her eyes and breathe in the late evening air. The scent of wild sage was heavy here, kicked up by the dogs’ paws, mixing with the cool, damp draft rising from the river below.

    “It’s bigger than I remember,” she said. “Or maybe it’s because I’m usually driving over it, not walking beside it.”

    “My dad always says the prairie doesn’t really care whether you’re there or not. It’s not being mean, it’s just busy being the prairie. A good place to remember you’re not the centre of the universe.”

    She turned toward me, the ghost of a smile playing around her lips. “A useful lesson for a new rector, I guess.”

    “I’m sure you often heard stuff like that from Caleb and Sarah Young.”

    In the semi-darkness, I saw the surprise on her face. “Do you know Caleb and Sarah?”

    “I taught in Montreal Lake for four years; they’re legendary up there.”

    She nodded slowly. “I guess they would be.”

    “Sarah has relatives around here, too. She’s connected to the Sandersons on her mom’s side. Caroline Sanderson is my old friend James Sutherland’s grandma—I should say, his kokum.”

    I heard her soft laugh. “Words like that give me a warm feeling all over.”

    “James tells me you’re pretty tight with Caleb and Sarah.”

    “James is Cree, is he?”

    “Yeah; he grew up at Pine Lake. Like I told you, our family farm’s just a couple of miles from here. When I was a kid, if my dad needed some extra workers, he used to hire people from the rez. He knew some families there, was good friends with them. The Sandersons and the Sutherlands were two of those families. That’s how James and I met. We were together a lot, so I was on the rez a lot, and I met his grandma. She kind of adopted me, in a relaxed sort of way. Took me out in the bush, taught me about plants and herbs and all that sort of thing. Gave me another avenue into the spiritual world to lay alongside our Mennonite way.”

    “Is she still alive?”

    “Yeah, although I have no idea how old she is. Maybe she doesn’t even know herself. She must be seventy-five at least, I think.”

    “You and James are still friends?”

    “Very close friends. We both went to the University of Saskatchewan and we both became social studies teachers, and eventually we both came back home. I teach at the school I went to—not the same building, but the same school—and he teaches at the school he went to.”

    She was quiet for a moment, and then she said, “You have a very stable life, Luke.”

    “I guess so. I feel like I’m rooted in this land and with these people. Lots of people seem to live everywhere. I don’t know how to do that. I live in this place.”

    “So that’s what Caroline meant about you being half Mennonite and half Cree?”

    “Part of it—although in the past, Mennonites have been close to the land, too. Nowadays we’re more of a suburban people, but that’s new. A couple of generations ago, we were mainly rural and agricultural.” I grinned at her. “So I go to church on Sundays and pray with the Mennonites, and even the Anglicans sometimes, and I also get smudged and do traditional ceremonies with James and his family. Some people think it’s a little weird, but it works for me.”

    She spoke softly. “It’s a gift, isn’t it?”

    “Yeah, that’s exactly right—it is a gift.”

    “I’ve had something similar with Caleb and Sarah.”

    “Of course.”

    I saw her looking around suddenly. “I’ve lost sight of my dog,” she said.

    I put two fingers in my mouth and gave a sharp whistle, and after a moment, off in the bush, I heard the answering bark. “Cooper!” I called. “Come on, boy.”

    We listened, and a moment later we heard them moving through the bush, breathing heavily as they came. I caught sight of them first, and then I could smell them. “Uh-oh,” I said.

    “What is it?”

    “Wet dog!”

    She laughed. “They’ve been skinny dipping!”

    “Skinny dipping! I didn’t know good Anglican priests knew words like that!”

    “Well, Mr. Hiebert, I wasn’t always a good Anglican priest, you know!”

    “I’ll try to keep that in mind!”

  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter Two.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    Chapter 2

    JO (AUGUST 10, 2014)

    On Sunday August 10 I got up as usual just after six o’clock. My border collie, Finn, would want to go out, and the first order of the day was always to give him exactly what he wanted, so that he in his turn would then give me exactly what I wanted—a quiet space before the busyness of the day.

    In my bedroom in the rectory I pulled on jeans and a tee shirt, and then, remembering the mosquitos, a long sleeved shirt to cover my arms. Through the open window I could smell the damp air; it had rained overnight, and I knew the bugs would be happy this morning. With Finn at my feet looking up eagerly into my face, I pulled on my socks. “Come on then, boy,” I said, leading him through to the kitchen and the stairs down to the back porch.

    There was a bottle of muskol on my kitchen table; I poured a little into the palm of my hand and rubbed it on my face, neck and hands, and on the socks covering my ankles. Then I pulled on hiking shoes and a ball cap from the back closet. “Let’s go, boy,” I said, and he followed me eagerly down the stairs and out into the damp summer morning.

    Between roads and walking trails, I already knew Westbury was going to be a good place for Finn and me; we had been there six days and had already charted a few paths for our morning walks. The community was located on the west side of Highway 11, which led north from Saskatoon to Prince Albert; south of town the road ran almost straight northward, but it curved to the right to go around the eastern side of the community, then bent back again, passing just west of the regional park where we had met Luke and Cooper on Wednesday evening.

    The Anglican church was in the southern quarter of the town, surrounded by houses with well-treed lots and wide front lawns bright with colourful flower beds. The original church had been built in 1903, but it had burned in a fire in 1962, along with the rectory and another private house beside it. With insurance money and help from the diocese a new church had been built in 1964; unlike the old building, it had a basement with a church hall, kitchen, and bathroom space, and an office upstairs for the rector to work in. The new rectory was less impressive, and it was obvious to me right from the start that the money had run out sooner than expected. The house was a modest three bedroomed bungalow with a half-finished basement; for years, rectors and their families had received promises about the completion of that basement, but nothing had ever come of it. Oddly, on my first day in the house I had discovered what appeared to be a bullet hole in the kitchen wall, just above the stove; it had been plugged with insulation and sealed on the outside, but on the inside the hole was still there. No one had said anything about it, and I kept forgetting to ask.

    Very few people were out and about this early on a Sunday morning, so I let Finn run free. He went ahead, his nose down for interesting scents; we headed south for a couple of blocks, then turned west, and within a few minutes we were out in the open country, with gravel under our feet and a wilderness area with a couple of sloughs off to our left. The sky was still cloudy from the night’s rain, but it was clearing, and I thought it might be a fine day.

    Still, I thought, I’m glad for that cooling rain; Saturday had been stiflingly hot, and I knew for a fact that none of my three churches had air conditioning. St. Andrew’s, Westbury at least had a basement and a couple of substantial ceiling fans, but the churches in Rochdale and Howden had both been built in the 1920s; they had since been connected to electricity and fitted with furnaces, but I knew that they would be heat traps in the summer. Back at St. Thomas’ in the city, where I had worshipped and volunteered before going to seminary, our rector Caleb had had an agreement with the people that he never wore clergy robes during July and August. I smiled at the memory, and thanked God once again that Caleb was now my bishop. Maybe I will raise the summer robing issue with the church leaders, I thought, but not yet. First things first. Today’s the day to meet the congregations and lay to rest any worries they might have about me. I was reasonably confident I could do that, but even so, I felt a twinge of anxiety in the pit of my stomach, and I found myself whispering that most eloquent and evocative of all prayers: Help!

    ***

    Back at the rectory I got the coffee going, fed and watered my dog, and then took a quick shower to wash off the sweat and the scent of muskol. I took a dryer to my hair, then dressed quickly in a pair of lightweight summer pants and a black clerical shirt, which for now I left open at the neck. The clerical collar could come later. I hate those things, Caleb, I had said, and he had grinned at me. So do I, he had replied, but they can be useful at times. I know you’ve got the maverick temperament, Jo, but sometimes for a young woman like you, a clergy collar can be good backup. At least wear it on Sunday; people will expect that. During the week, you can give your neck a rest!

    I padded barefoot through to the living room, where Finn was stretched out to catch a power nap. He lifted his head to give me a sleepy look, his tail thumping twice on the carpet. He knew the routine: walk, shower, coffee, Morning Prayer. You can smile at Jo, but do not disturb her until she closes her prayer book. He settled down again, and I took a deep breath, exhaled, lit my candle and began to pray.

    We call it the daily office, from the Latin officium, which means duty. In my early days as a Christian, when I was studying psychology at the University of Toronto and volunteering at the shelter with my new friends Hannah MacNeill, Mark Thorne, and Grace Haddad, I would have been full of scorn at the idea of reading prayers from a book as part of my daily devotions. Prayers should be spontaneous, full of emotion, bubbling up from deep in the heart. Why would I use someone else’s words when I could just pour out my heart to God? Surely only formal, lukewarm churchgoers would resort to such a thing!

    But gradually, over the years, I’d begun to realise that the people in the past had known a thing or two, especially the old monks who had loved and lived by the psalms, those three-thousand year old prayers that are recorded, all one hundred and fifty of them, in the centre of the Bible, prayers of desperation and anger, doubt and faith, depression and joy. The psalms are not the prayers of nice people, Caleb would say, which is lucky for me, because often I’m not a nice person, and the psalms help me be honest about that.

    The psalms, the set readings from the Old and New Testaments, prayers of need and thanksgiving, the Lord’s Prayer—morning and evening, Anglican clergy are expected to practice this discipline. At first I had found it difficult, but gradually I had learned to relax into it, to take it slowly with lots of space for silence and listening, to be thankful for the framework that meant I didn’t have to manufacture an emotion twice a day for my prayers to be valid. Just show up in your place of prayer, Caleb would say. Light a candle, burn some sage or incense if that’s your thing, and then say the Office. God will look after the rest. And as time went by and the months turned to years, I discovered that God did indeed look after the rest. Many mornings I woke up feeling oddly reluctant to pray. The Office helped me get over that bump in the road, and when I was done, I always felt better. It never failed.

    ***

    Nicky Fox and I had talked about my first Sunday in this three point parish. “Three services on your first Sunday,” she had said to me over the phone in her gentle Scottish accent. “Art and I have been talking, and we’re wondering if it might no’ be better to ease yourself into it. We could just have one parish service in Westbury, since we’ve got the biggest church. It can be a celebration of your new ministry with us. Then the next week, we can start working the regular schedule.”

    “And have you guys decided what that schedule’s going to be?” I asked.

    “Well, for the past few years it’s been pretty steady: Drive out to Howden for an early service at nine, then back to Westbury for the eleven o’clock service. Take a break in the afternoon, and then go out to Rochdale after supper for a seven o’clock service. They move that service to four in the afternoon in the winter.”

    And each point is different, I thought to myself. Westbury, the regional centre, with some young families and a diverse population. Howden, twelve miles west, out on the bald prairie with farms all around. Rochdale, on the other side of the river, about twelve miles east of Westbury and south of Pine Lake Cree Nation. It would be a huge mistake to start my ministry by trying to force those three disparate worshipping communities into one space.

    “You know what?” I said to her. “I’d rather start as I plan to go on. I’ll do three services on my first Sunday; that way I get to experience each congregation in their own spiritual home.”

    She was quiet for a moment on the other end of the line, and then she said, “Are you sure?”

    “Yes.”

    “We dinna want to burn you out, Jo. This parish is hard work; I know, because my husband has been taking some of the services, not just in Westbury but in the other two points as well.”

    “That’s right—he’s a lay-reader, isn’t he?”

    “Yeah.”

    “It’ll be fine, Nicky. The driving distances aren’t all that great. Let’s do it.”

    “Okay—if that’s what you really want.”

    “It is.”

    ***

    By 8.15 the morning air was already beginning to lose its damp sweetness, replaced by the rising heat of the prairie sun. I ate a quick breakfast: a warmed-up muffin and a sip from a second cup of coffee, the remainder of which I poured into my travel mug. My hair was already twisted back into a tight braid, and my Bible, my copy of the green ‘Book of Alternative Services’, and my sermon notes and folded bulletins were in my backpack; I slung it over my shoulder with my small purse, threw my vinyl robe bag over my other arm, and grabbed my car keys. Finn, sensing the shift in my energy, followed me to the back door, but stopped at the threshold. He knew the Sunday rules.

    “Stay home, buddy,” I said. “I’ll be home for lunch.”

    My Subaru sat in the short driveway, a 2004 Outback in a faded forest green that had been with me since my last year in Ontario. I opened the back door, threw in my backpack and hooked the robe bag over the grab handle, unzipping it just an inch to let the fabric breathe. Inside, the off-white flax alb and green stole—the colour for ‘Ordinary Time’ in the church’s year—waited like a second skin.

    I hopped into the driver’s seat, the fabric upholstery still cool from the night, tossing my purse onto the passenger seat and slipping my travel mug into the holder at my elbow. I fired up the engine and then fastened the top button of my clerical shirt; reaching into my pocket, I took out the white plastic tab collar and inserted it into its place, white against black. I backed the Subaru out of the driveway, the gravel crunching under the tires, and turned south, then west. Within two minutes, I was out of town. Ahead of me, the horizon was a straight line of gold and blue. Westbury was waking up, but out in Howden, the farmers had been awake for hours. It was time for me to go to work too.

    Ten miles west, then two miles north, the narrow-paved roads shot straight as an arrow across the rich prairie farmland, the fields a patchwork quilt of green, gold, and purple. I passed a couple of trucks heading in the opposite direction, toward Westbury; the first driver raised his hand in the old prairie ritual, greeting friend or stranger on the road. The second, a younger man, sped past with no acknowledgement. Changing times, I thought.

    The tiny community of Howden was laid out in a square, the access road angling in from the south-east corner, crossing a small creek before turning west, houses on both sides. I passed a small general store, and on the right the little K-6 school. Up ahead was St. Jude’s church, built in 1923, white clapperboard, with a small steeple pointing toward the heavens. For the first half of its life it had been heated by an oil space heater and lit by hurricane lamps, but now, thankfully, it had electricity, and a furnace for the long prairie winter. Out front, two trucks were already parked by the roadside: an F-150 and a Dodge Ram, one green, the other blue.

    In front of the church, a couple of men were standing by the steps with their hands in their pockets: I took in at a glance the short-sleeved plaid shirts and caps (one John Deere, one Cargill). They had been talking quietly, but when I got out of my car with my backpack and robe bag they stopped and looked at me. The younger one, who I thought might be in his fifties, grinned at me in a lopsided sort of way as I approached. “Mornin’!” he said. “I’d offer to shake your hand, but your hands look kind of busy!”

    “That’s for sure!” I replied. “I’m Jo.”

    He nodded. “Figured by the collar. I’m Scott Oakley, George Price’s brother-in-law. He married my older sister Sybil. He was on the search committee that interviewed you, I believe.

    “Right—yes, of course, I remember George.”

    He nodded at the older man. “This here’s Harry Fulcher.”

    “Related to Gwen?” I asked.

    “My wife,” the older man replied. “You’ll remember her, too.”

    “Of course.”

    Scott stepped back a little. “We’d better not block your way. Welcome to Howden.”

    “Thanks!”

    I went lightly up the steps and through the open door. Inside, I took in the bright sunlight shining through the clear pointed windows, setting off the dark wood panelling on the walls and the deep brown stain of the pews. At the front, the altar was set for Holy Communion, the chalice and paten under their coloured hangings, the bread and wine set up on the credence table off to the side. I recognised Gwen Fulcher, the Rector’s Warden, from my interview; she was standing at the front of the church, talking with a younger woman in her fifties with greying dark hair who I guessed would be Scott Oakley’s wife. Gwen was short and solid, dressed sensibly for the warm day ahead. She looked up when I came in, and her face creased into a smile. “You found your way, then!” she said.

    “I did. Good to see you again, Gwen.”

    “There’s a tiny little sacristy off to the side here; you can hang up your robes in there and free up your hands a bit. This is Karen Oakley; you probably met her husband out front. Karen, this is Reverend Jo.”

    The sacristy was tiny, as Gwen had said—maybe eight feet square, just to the left of the altar area. I hung up my robe bag, dropped my backpack on the floor, and turned to face the two women. “This is lovely,” I said.

    “A little different from your last post, maybe?” Gwen replied with a smile.

    “For sure.”

    “Where were you before?” asked Karen.

    “St. Paul’s in Saskatoon. The bishop put me there after I finished seminary; kind of a two-year training post.”

    “Right.”

    “Have you settled in all right at the rectory?” asked Gwen.

    “It’s going pretty well so far, thanks.”

    As we were talking I noticed a couple more people coming in at the back; they glanced shyly in my direction, taking in my black shirt and tab collar. I was feeling the shyness too, but I ignored it, turned to them and held out my hand. “I’m Jo,” I said.

    ***

    I started the service right at 9.00; Karen Oakley played the old electric organ, and Gwen Fulcher volunteered to do the scripture readings. “And I can help you with communion, too, if you want,” she said.

    “That would be great—thank you. I was wondering about that.”

    She gave me an apologetic grin. “We tend to be allergic to duty rosters around here; we just give out the jobs when we see who’s here.”

    “Works for me!” I replied, although secretly I found myself wondering, What do you do if one Sunday all your regular volunteers don’t show up? And immediately my inner voice replied, Well, that’s obvious, isn’t it? The priest does everything!

    I knew from church records that attendance at St. Jude’s had averaged about fifteen in the last full year of Thomas Guthrie’s ministry—thirty percent lower that it had been before he arrived. So I was gratified to see about twenty-five people in church that morning; almost all of them seniors, though I noticed one other couple besides the Oakleys who looked a little younger. During the first hymn the singing was hesitant, and I recognised immediately that I would need to give a strong lead; if I dropped the tune even for a moment, it would fall flat on the floor. Fortunately I had a strong singing voice, and when I dialed it up a little, it seemed to encourage a few others in the congregation to do the same.

    I had been standing behind the altar, facing the people, but at the end of the hymn I moved around to the front. “Before we start the liturgy,” I said, “I just want to say that my name’s Jo—short for Johanna—and that’s what I like to be called. If you’re not comfortable with that—if you prefer to use a title like ‘reverend’, for instance—I’m quite okay with that, but given that I seem to be the youngest person present, I’d prefer it if you didn’t use a title like ‘mother’—or ‘father’, for that matter!”

    I had expected some laughter at that point, and I got it, but it was less widespread and more subdued than I had thought it might be. Someone’s taught them it’s irreverent to laugh in church, I thought. They’re going to need some encouragement with that.

    And so we began the service, moving steadily through the opening prayers, the scripture readings and the psalm. We stood for the reading of the gospel, as was our Anglican custom, and since there was no PA system, and therefore no microphone to worry about, I decided on the spur of the moment not to preach from the pulpit, which was elevated a couple of feet above the floor level of the sanctuary. Instead, I moved around the altar again, stood in the centre, prayed the prayer of invocation and then invited the people to be seated.

    “Before I trained for ordination,” I said, “I spent three years working at the Salvation Army in Saskatoon. I don’t know how many of you have been there; probably, not many. I started out doing ordinary grunt work—washing floors after people had thrown up, preparing food and serving it, sorting clothing—that kind of thing.

    “But then after a few months they found out I had a psychology degree, and someone had the bright idea of inviting me to apply for a position as an intake worker.”

    I gave them a self-deprecating grin. “I don’t know if you know what intake workers do. Basically we did triage when clients came to the hostel; we had to figure out what they needed, and what was the best way to deliver appropriate help for them. This didn’t always mean giving them what they wanted; in fact, quite often, we didn’t give them what they wanted, because we knew it wouldn’t be in their best interests.

    “Now, some of our clients were pretty volatile people, and when we had to say ‘no’ to their requests, they didn’t deal with it well. Sometimes people would get agitated, and some of those people were quite intimidating.”

    I spread out my hands in a gesture of helplessness. “I mean, look at me—I’m never going to win a body-building contest, am I?”

    This time I did get a laugh, and I nodded. “So when it was first suggested that I apply for an intake position, I thought, ‘Are you out of your mind?’ I was terrified. I was just young—twenty-two years old—in a strange city far away from home. And I was a relatively new Christian; I’d been raised in a non-practising Anglican home, and didn’t really start following Jesus until the end of my first year in university.”

    I paused, and then continued. “But after I freaked out, a little voice in my head said, ‘But what if this is what God wants you to do?’ I wasn’t sure I liked that idea, but I knew that as a follower of Jesus, someone who was committed to taking the words of Jesus in the gospels seriously—I knew I had to consider it.

    “So I prayed a prayer that’s become one of my favourites. I’m sure you all know it. It’s the simplest prayer in the world, consisting of only one word. Well, more of a cry than a word, really: Help!”

    This time I got more laughter, and a few nods of assent. “We all have countless opportunities to pray that prayer, don’t we? When the stress levels are mounting, and life throws us a curveball—when we get a bill we weren’t expecting—or a medical diagnosis that came out of the blue—or our family flies apart, or our work is getting more and more demanding. And we feel like Jesus’ disciples did in our gospel story today, when they were out in a boat on the lake on a stormy night: battered by the waves, far from the land, with the wind against them. Some of these guys were seasoned fishermen, but even they were afraid. I’m sure they were praying that prayer, either quietly or out loud: Help, Lord!

    “And Jesus answered that prayer, but not in the way they were expecting. Their scriptures told stories of God parting the waves and making a path through for God’s people when the Egyptian army was at their backs. I don’t know if they were expecting a miracle like that, but I’m pretty sure that some of them at least were saying, ‘God, couldn’t you make the wind go down a little? That would be good!’

    “But God didn’t do that. Instead, he did two totally unexpected things.

    “First, Jesus came to them, walking on the water! What? What the heck was this? How could a human be walking on the water? Had Jesus died, and was this his ghost? That was all they could think. They had asked for help, and God had sent them help, but the help didn’t look like what they were expecting. And isn’t that often the way? Just like a good Sally Ann intake worker, God doesn’t always rescue us the way we think he should. He’s got better ideas. And we don’t always enjoy that, do we? Maybe we even find ourselves crying out, ‘Really? Are you serious, God?’”

    And at that point, suddenly, I knew they were with me. I could see it on their faces, I could feel it in the atmosphere in the room, and I felt the thrill of it. This is why I love preaching! Thank you, God!

    “But then something even more amazing happens. Jesus tells them not to be afraid, because it’s him, their friend. And maybe Peter’s joking, I don’t know; maybe he thinks this has got to be some kind of trick, because he calls out to that ghostly figure on the water. ‘If it’s really you, command me to come to you on the water.’ And Jesus does just that. I’ve always imagined him holding out an inviting hand in Peter’s direction, with the wind and waves whipping around him. And he says that one word: ‘Come.’

    They were quiet, waiting for what came next, even though they’d known the story their whole lives.

    “That’s how I felt when I was invited to apply for an intake worker job. I felt like Jesus was standing in front of me at the shelter, with all the pain and suffering around me—all the broken and fragile and hurting people. And he was holding out his hand to me and saying, ‘Jo—come.’

    “Well, you know what I did. Even though I was terrified, I did what I thought I was being asked—not told: asked—to do. I applied for the job, and I was accepted, and yes, there were some terrifying moments, but there were some wonderful moments to, and if I say so myself, I got quite good at it. And if we had time, I could tell you how working at the Sally Ann led to my meeting Caleb Young, who is now our bishop, and how through Caleb I heard that invitation again, only this time it was an invitation to train to become a priest. One day I’ll tell you that story, but not today.

    “Today, I want to ask you, what’s the storm that’s blowing in your life right now? What’s making you afraid? What sort of help are you imagining you need from God? And how is Jesus actually showing up in the middle of your storm? One thing I’m sure of—his help probably doesn’t look the way you thought it would.

    “Let’s think about this for a few more minutes as we focus on the totally shocking and amazing thing Jesus says to them when he and Peter finally make it back to the boat, something that’s always seemed outrageous to me, because the answer to Jesus’ question is so obvious, isn’t it?

    “He says to them, ‘You of little faith—why did you doubt?’”

    ***

    After the service was over, I greeted the people one by one at the door on their way out, asked them their names, and tried my best to remember what they told me. “Don’t be surprised if I have to ask you four or five times!” I had told them during the announcements at the end of the service, and this time I had been rewarded with more laughter than ever.

    “So you worked at the Sally Ann?” said Harold Bailey, who I later discovered was Gwen Fulcher’s brother. “I bet you could tell some stories.”

    “Oh yeah,” I replied with a grin, “but the problem is, in that kind of a job, all the best stories are covered by confidentiality!”

    He snorted with laughter. “I guess they would be!” he said.

    I noticed people hanging around outside afterwards, standing in groups of three or four, talking quietly in the warm sunlight. Karen Oakley nodded when I commented on this. “Yeah, it’s a kind of coffee hour without coffee. We don’t really have a church hall, although sometimes some of us go to the café for coffee. But in the summer we just tend to stay here for a while. Are you in a rush? People would love it if you could just chat for a few minutes. I know you’ve got another service to go to in Westbury, but…”

    I glanced at my watch. “I’ve probably got about fifteen minutes,” I said. “You know what I’d really like to do—set up some visits with people. Like you and Scott, for instance. Is your farm close to here?”

    “About four miles north of town, although I’m in Westbury every day; I work at the town office. If you want to have lunch some time, I can do that. Although we’d love to have you come to our place, too.”

    “We can definitely set that up,” I replied.

    ***

    It was about ten-forty when I pulled my car into the rectory driveway in Westbury. I had been running the air conditioning on the way home, and when I got out of the car, the heat immediately enveloped me in its sticky embrace. In that moment I made a decision: Just a stole today, Jo. No alb. These folks deal with reality; they’ll be fine with it.

    The cars were already parked on both sides of the street in front of the church, and I could see people going up the steps, or stopping by the roadside to chat with their friends before the service started. I slipped into the rectory, let Finn out into the backyard for a pee break, and stopped by the bathroom myself, taking a moment to examine myself in the mirror. Yep—the braid is still holding. Right—here we go.

    When I entered the church with my robe bag and backpack slung over my shoulders, Nicky Fox was waiting for me in the vestibule. I have red hair, but Nicky’s was flame red, and she had the pale skin-tone that often goes with it. “How did it go in Howden?” she asked as she followed me into my little office.

    “It was fun.”

    “A good-sized congregation?”

    “About twenty-five, I think.”

    Her face broke into a grin. “Wow—that’s better than it’s been for a while.”

    “People are curious, I guess”.

    Thomas Guthrie had positioned his desk in the centre of the office, like a barrier, so that people who came to see him had to face him across it in the classic power position. That was the first thing I had changed that week; I had pushed the desk against the wall, so that I could sit with people with nothing coming between us. My books easily filled the two bookshelves on the inside wall (I had a substantial overflow library at the rectory too), and there was also a filing cabinet, and a small printer table. The office window looked across to the rectory, where I hoped my rescue dog was not going crazy about all the strange cars pulling up outside ‘his’ house.

    I hung up my robe bag on the hook behind the door and took out my stole. “I hope people won’t mind,” I said, “but I’m not going to wear an alb this morning. It’s just too hot.”

    “That’ll no’ be a problem,” Nicky replied. “I’m told that Jim Robertson used to do that every summer. He was the priest before Thomas Guthrie.”

    “Right.”

    “Father Thomas was a wee bit obsessive about stuff like that.”

    I laughed softly. “So I’ve heard.”

    “Oh, I should warn you—Marcus invited Luke Hiebert to join us for church today, and he accepted.”

    I was surprised. “I assumed he’d be going to the Mennonite Church.”

    “Aye—he usually does, but he’s Daisy’s godfather, so every now and again he drops by here to make sure we’re bringing her up right. At least, that’s what he says!”

    “He and Marcus are good friends, I hear.”

    “Aye, they are. They used to play hockey together in their younger days.”

    ***

    St. Andrew’s had a capacity of between a hundred and a hundred and twenty, depending on how friendly people wanted to be in the pews. Nicky had told me that some families were away on their summer holidays, but the church was still about half full when I started the service, and later on Art Holloway told me he had counted sixty-five people, including children. “That’s a lot better than we got when Guthrie was here,” he commented.

    “People are curious,” I replied. “Next week will be a better indicator,”

    Nicky was playing the electronic keyboard, but I had told Marcus to take a day off from his lay reader duties; he’d done that enough over the past few months, and I knew he’d enjoy sitting in the pew with his wife and daughter. As it happened, they sat at the front, with Nicky on the piano bench and Daisy on Luke Hiebert’s lap. Luke was a little taller than me, with thick brown hair and a neatly trimmed beard, dressed casually in shorts and a light summer shirt; he gave me a smile as I took my place at the front of the church, and I smiled and nodded in return.

    Switching on the lapel microphone that was clipped to my stole, I said, “Hello, everyone. I’m Jo, which is short for Johanna, and that’s what I prefer to be called, although if you’re attached to giving clergy titles, like ‘reverend’, I’m fine with that too. If you don’t mind, though, given the fact that some of you are twice my age, I’d prefer it if you didn’t call me ‘mother’—or even ‘father’, for that matter.”

    I noticed immediately that there was no shyness about laughter at St. Andrew’s; I waited a moment for it to subside, and then I continued, “I hope you don’t mind, but given how hot it is today, I’ve left my alb in the office and I’m just going to wear a stole for this service. We’ve got the ceiling fans going and we’ll do our best to make this as comfortable as we can. So, let’s stand for our first hymn.”

    St. Andrew’s people weren’t shy about singing; both Nicky and Marcus had strong voices, but they were far from being the only ones, and I noticed in a couple of the hymns that Luke knew how to sing tenor. That would be his Mennonite heritage coming out, I thought. Nicky had chosen the hymns, and a couple of them were from the more contemporary end of the hymn book, which I enjoyed.

    The first part of the service proceeded through its various stages: the opening prayers, the psalm, and the scripture readings (which were read by two different people). There were six children between the ages of two and ten in the congregation that day, so I decided to do the children’s talk I had prepared in case I needed it. Moving around to the front of the altar, I sat down on the chancel steps and said, “Would the kids like to come to the front? There’s something I want to talk to you about, and I think it’s going to be fun.”

    For about ten seconds no one moved, and then little two-year-old Daisy slipped off Luke’s lap and came and sat down beside me on the step. Almost immediately, the other kids made their way to the front to join us, and when they were all seated around me I said, “So—what’s my name?”

    A little blond-haired girl of about five immediately said, “Jo!”

    “Right—and it’s short for something. Can anyone remember what my name is short for? It’s not Joseph!”

    They looked at me blankly, and after a moment I said, “You did really well to remember ‘Jo.’ My actual name is unusual; it’s ‘Johanna.’ Can you say that?”

    They all said, “Johanna,” and I smiled and nodded. “Now, did you know that a lot of names have meanings? Like, for instance, Daisy’s mom’s name is ‘Nicky’, which I think is short for ‘Nicola’—is that right, Nicky? Please say yes!”

    Everyone laughed, and Nicky grinned and nodded. “Aye—that’s my name!”

    “So, the girl’s name ‘Nicola’ and the boy’s name ‘Nicholas’ both mean the same thing. They’re made up of two words from a foreign language, and when you put those words together, it means ‘Victory of the People’. In other words, Nicky’s name means ‘the people are going to win!’

    I heard Marcus speaking in a loud stage-whisper, “You mean I married a Marxist?”

    There was more laughter in the pews, and I waited for it to die down before I said, “Well, my name ‘Johanna’ also has a meaning. In the Hebrew language, it means ‘God is gracious.’ ‘Gracious’ is a good word in the Bible; it means that God will always love us and will never stop loving us; even if we forget to love God, God will never forget to love us. So, I think ‘Johanna’ is a pretty good name; what do you think?”

    The kids nodded, and a boy of about ten spoke up. “Do you know what every name means?”

    I shook my head. “Not every name, but I know a few. I can’t promise I’ll know yours, but I might. What’s your name?”

    “Charlie.”

    “Ah—that one I do know. Charlie, is your name short for Charles?”

    “Yeah.”

    “Right, well, I have a brother called Charles, so I know what the name means; it means ‘free man’. So congratulations, Charlie—you’re a free man.”

    I looked around at the kids. “We don’t have a lot of time right now, but if the rest of you guys want to talk to me after the service, maybe when we go down to the basement for our coffee time, I could see if I know the meaning of all your names. Would that be okay?”

    They nodded, and then I said, “There’s one more name I want to tell you about, and that’s ‘Jesus’. Does anyone know what ‘Jesus’ means?”

    They were quiet, looking at me expectantly, and I laughed and explained, ‘Jesus’ is a version of the Hebrew name ‘Joshua’, and it means ‘God saves’. So the name of Jesus reminds us that if we get into trouble, we can call on God to help us. Another way of explaining Jesus’ name would be that it means ‘God to the rescue!’ So my name ‘Johanna’ reminds us that God will never stop loving us, even if we forget to love God, and the name of our Lord Jesus means ‘God to the rescue.’ Do you think you can remember those things?”

    They nodded at me, and I smiled and said, “Right—let’s go back to our places, shall we? I’ve got some things I want to say to the adults now, but you can listen in if you want.”

    ***

    By the time the people came up and knelt at the altar rail to receive communion, it was seriously hot in the church. I was distributing the bread, and a dark-haired woman in her mid-forties who had been introduced to me as Lisa Douglas was following me with the chalice of wine; I could feel the sweat on my forehead as I bent to place the bread in the people’s hands. Afterwards, when Lisa and I were doing the ablutions—the ritual cleansing of the communion vessels before the end of the service—I whispered, “Are you doing okay? It’s hot in here.”

    “I’m fine,” she replied quietly. “Well done with the kids, by the way.”

    “Thanks.”

    “I’m the principal at the local school, so I know all of them.”

    “Ah—you’re Luke and Nicky’s boss.”

    “Yeah.”

    ***

    Downstairs in the basement after the service, the volume level was high. Almost everyone seemed to have come down, and I quicky discovered why; there was a potluck lunch, with a cake in my honour, with the words ‘Welcome Rev. Johanna’ in yellow icing on the top. The food was plentiful—everything from sandwiches and fruit to hot dogs and burgers—along with several kinds of juice or punch, and of course coffee and tea. When the cake was served, someone brought out an ice cream pail, and I think it’s fair to say that the ice cream was the most popular part of the potluck.

    Luke sidled over and stood beside me as I was helping myself to a cup of coffee. “Good afternoon, Father Johanna,” he said with a mischievous grin.

    I made a face at him. “Now you’re being intentionally annoying!”

    “Naturally. Mennonites are annoying; we’ve always been told that. Our refusal to hurt anyone makes us so hard to get along with.”

    “How did you find the service today?”

    “Good. I come here occasionally, just to make sure Nicky and Marcus are doing it right.”

    “How’s Cooper?”

    “Probably slumming in the basement, waiting patiently for me to go home to him. Finn?”

    “Also in the basement.”

    “You have another service tonight, right?”

    “At Rochdale, yeah, at seven.”

    “So you’d be back by about nine?”

    “Yeah, or a little earlier.”

    “If you’re not all peopled out by then and you’d like a quiet walk together with the dogs, give me a shout.”

    “Were you thinking of going to the regional park?”

    “Maybe, if it’s not too late.” He took out his wallet, found a blank piece of paper, wrote a phone number on it, and handed it to me. “That’s my cell,” he said.

    “Thanks.” I took out a printed card and gave it to him. “Mine’s on the card.”

    “Very proper.”

    “I’ll call or text, or you could do the same, whatever you like. I’m definitely interested, though.”

    “Yeah?”

    “Yeah. A dog-walking companion is a good thing.”

    “Yes it is. And I’ll give you one other piece of information that you might find useful, if you don’t already have it.”

    “What’s that?”

    “Our town has an outdoor swimming pool, and it’s open on Sunday afternoons.”

    “Ooh—I did not know that! Where is it hiding?”

    “Just north of the ball diamond. Do you like swimming?”

    “I do, although I have to be careful on hot afternoons. I’ve got the redhead’s natural tendency to burn, you know.”

    “Of course. Well, if you’re feeling brave enough to risk a little sunlight—after the traditional pastor’s Sunday afternoon nap, that is—you might check out the swimming pool.”

    “Are you going there?”

    “No, my sister and her new husband are up for the weekend from Regina, so there’s some serious eating and drinking going on at the Hiebert farm right now.”

    “What’s your sister’s name?”

    “Jessica. Are you going to tell me what it means?”

    I laughed. “Come back next week and I’ll fill you in!”

    “Not a chance; I’m leading the service next week.”

     “Is your pastor away?”

    “No, but in Mennonite churches it’s not usually the pastor who leads the service. We’re different from Anglicans that way; there are a few of us from the congregation who take turns to be the service leader. Although it is usually our pastor who preaches. Not always, but usually.”

    “Interesting. I didn’t know about the service leaders. We have lay readers, of course—like Marcus—but they tend to be used mainly when the priest is away.”

    “Whereas for us, it’s almost every Sunday.”

    “I like that.”

    “Well, I’d better not monopolise your time, not being one of your real parishioners and all that. See you a little later, then?”

    “For sure.”

  • Some of my friends will be aware that over the past few months I’ve been working on a new novel: one that, for the first time, is entirely unconnected with the story line that gave birth to ‘The Road to Meadowvale’ and the three books that followed it.

    It’s going to be a while before this book is finished, but I thought I’d give you folks a taste of the first few chapters. This is Chapter One.

    Oh, and by the way, I should make the usual disclaimer, which is that the people in this story are fictitious and none of them are meant to represent any person in the real world, alive or dead. That’s not to say that some of them don’t have similarities to people I’ve known. Authors are lazy that way; making up people from scratch is too much like hard work. But for the most part, these people are still fictitious. Especially the clergy. It’s important that you know that. For instance, the Anglican diocese of Saskatoon has had an indigenous bishop, but my Bishop Caleb isn’t meant to be him. Most of the churches mentioned in this story are also totally fictitious.

    One more thing. This story alternates between two narrators, Luke and Jo. Usually you’ll find out who is speaking by looking for their name in the chapter heading. Very occasionally, there’s a switch mid-chapter.

    LUKE: AUGUST 4-5, 2014

    It was early evening on August 4, and I had decided to take my dog for a walk at our local regional park. The air had cooled somewhat after a scorcher of a day. Through the trees in the campground I could see a few tents and RVs, and here in the parking lot maybe twenty-five cars and trucks, about half of which I recognised.

    Westbury, Saskatchewan is a small town—population about 1800—and I’ve lived here most of my life. The road is the main highway from Saskatoon to Prince Albert, so we get a lot of out of town folks in our regional park, but it’s rare for me to go there and not run into a few familiar faces. The park has a shallow lake, well-treed campsites, a very popular eighteen-hole golf course, and miles and miles of good walking trails through the bush. There are signs about keeping your dog on a leash, but most of us quietly ignore them. Dogs want to run; that’s what they do, and as long as they’re not dangerous, no one minds. At least, that’s the story we tell ourselves. Just as long as we keep them away from the golf balls.

    My dog, Cooper, was a golden retriever who had been keeping cool in the basement of my house all afternoon. When I let him out of my truck he was itching for a run, but I put him on the leash for a couple of minutes while we made our way across the parking lot to the place where a walking trail led off through the trees and down to the lake. There were already a couple of other people on the trail, strangers to me; I waited for a minute to let them get a good start on us, and then I looked down at my dog and raised an eyebrow at him. He returned my look, his tail pumping enthusiastically.

    “Behave yourself!” I admonished him as I bent and unclipped the leash.

    We set off down the main trail under the dappled shade of the aspen trees. Cooper trotted ahead, his nose to the ground as he mapped out the evening scents. He veered off into the bush for a moment, but I wasn’t worried; he knew the trail as well as I did.

    As we approached the junction where the north parking lot path merged with the main trail, a flash of movement caught my eye. A woman was on the other trail, just off to our left, walking quickly toward the junction. She was dressed for the heat in hiking pants and a plain white tee, her long red hair tied back in a braid. Beside her, a young border collie paused when he caught sight of Cooper and me. He didn’t run toward us; instead, he froze, his body tensing as he looked back at Cooper, and let out a couple of nervous barks.

    “Cooper, easy,” I said softly.

    My dog slowed, his tail beginning a low, rhythmic wag of greeting. The woman gave me a small, apologetic smile.

    “Sorry,” she called out. “Finn’s a little nervous around strangers.”

    “No need to apologize,” I replied, keeping my distance to give the dog room. I signaled Cooper to sit, which he did with a huff of mild disappointment. “Cooper’s an optimist; he assumes everyone is a long-lost friend, but we’re happy to let you take the lead.”

    She slowed her pace, watching her dog with a keen, protective eye as he began to move forward again, though he kept a wide, cautious berth between himself and the bush where Cooper sat.

    “Take your time, buddy,” I said quietly to the dog as they joined our path. “There’s nothing to be scared of.”

     “He’s a rescue dog,” the woman explained as we began walking in the same direction, a respectful few yards between us. “He’s still convinced the world is full of sharp corners.”

    “He’s lucky he found someone who knows how to navigate them,” I said. “How long have you had him?”

    “About a year. He was part of a litter abandoned by the road. He’s come a long way, but new faces—and new dogs—are still a big hurdle.”

    “Right.”

    She slowed a little to allow me to catch up with her, meeting my gaze tentatively. “Are you from around here?” she asked.

    “Yeah, but I don’t think you are.”

    She laughed. “What gave me away?”

    I shrugged my shoulders. “I was born here, so I know everyone.” I held out my hand. “Luke Hiebert,” I said.

    She took my hand, and I noted the firmness of her grip. “Johanna Warren,” she replied. “Most people call me Jo. I moved here two days ago.”

    “Right. Are you a nurse, or has Lisa hired a new teacher at the school without telling me?”

    “Neither of the above; I’m an Anglican priest.”

    “Ah—I’ve heard about you. Welcome to Westbury.”

    “Thanks.”

    I glanced down the trail. “You guys heading for the lake?”

    “We’re exploring. Would you recommend it?”

    “For sure. Would you like company? ‘No’ is a perfectly acceptable answer, by the way.”

    “Company would be great. Finn might even decide to make friends with Cooper.”

    “That would be good.”

    We resumed our walk toward the lake; Finn slowly got his courage up, and after a moment the dogs ran on ahead, sniffing through the undergrowth on either side of the trail. Off in the bush I could hear the tap-tap of a woodpecker’s beak, and closer at hand the cry of a raven.

    She gave me a sideways glance. “So what do you do in Westbury, if you don’t mind me asking?”

    “I teach high school social studies.”

    “You came back to your hometown to teach?”

    “I did four years up in Montreal Lake first. I liked it, but I wanted to move home. I’ve got roots here.”

    “Of course.”

    “You came up from Saskatoon, I hear.”

    She smiled again. “You seem to know a few things about me already.”

    “I’m sure you remember Nicky Fox from your interview committee?”

    “Of course.”

    “Her husband Marcus is an old friend of mine. And I’m Daisy’s godfather, despite the fact that I’m not a card-carrying Anglican.”

    “Is Daisy their daughter?”

    “Yeah—she just turned two.”

    “Hiebert. That’s a…”

    “Mennonite name, yeah. I go to the Mennonite church in town. One of them, anyway.”

    “There’s more than one?”

    “Our church is with Mennonite Church Canada—what they used to call General Conference. The other one is Mennonite Brethren.”

    “Right.”

     “Nicky was impressed with you—so Marcus tells me.”

    “Yeah, I liked her, too.” She laughed suddenly. “She was definitely the youngest person on the search committee.”

    “There are quite a few others her age at St. Andrew’s. But Rochdale and Howden —not so much. Pretty common story in small country churches, I guess.”

    “Yeah.” She was quiet for a moment, watching our dogs as they scouted ahead. I could see they were opening the distance between us, and I gave a shrill whistle. “Cooper: wait!” I called, and I saw my dog look up and then stop abruptly, while the border collie circled him a couple of times, tail wagging hopefully.

    “You’ve got him well trained,” said Jo.

    “It doesn’t always work, especially if there’s another dog involved, but I’m a little concerned about cyclists on this trail. Mountain bikers like it.”

    “Right—that’s useful information.”

    We caught up to the dogs, and I raised an eyebrow at Cooper. “Stay close, buddy,” I said.

    A few minutes later the trail opened up onto a wide vista: a classic shallow prairie lake, fringed with reeds and marsh grasses and circled by trees, a slight breeze rippling the surface of the water, carrying the damp smell of the bullrushes. I could hear the distinctive conk-la-ree calls of the redwing blackbirds; to me, that’s the characteristic sound of a Saskatchewan summer evening. Off to the right we could see the clubhouse, with the fairways immediately behind, stretching off to the next line of trees. Ahead of us was an artificial beach with imported sand, and I could see children playing by the water’s edge, their parents watching from camping chairs or beach towels.

    Jo called her dog, and when he came, she clipped the leash to his collar. “Good boy,” she said.

    “The trail leads off to the left,” I said. “It goes about halfway around the lake. You good for a mile or two?”

    “Sure. The far shore is private property, is it?”

    “Yeah. There’s farmland stretching for a few miles, and then it starts to slope down to the river.”

    “The South Saskatchewan.”

    “Yeah, and on the other side, you’re on First Nations land.”

    “Pine Lake Cree Nation?”

    I nodded. “You’ve done your homework.”

    “I spent a lot of time yesterday just driving around.”

    “Saw the great metropolises of Rochdale and Howden?”

    “I did.”

    “Have you been up this way before?”

    “Not to stop and look. I’ve driven to P.A. a few times over the years, and gone camping at Waskesiu, but I have to confess I’ve gone speeding past Westbury.”

    “You like camping?”

    “I do, actually. I wasn’t raised as a camper, but it’s grown on me as an adult.”

    “Are you from Saskatoon originally?”

    “Toronto. But I’ve been in the west for about eight years. Is that long enough to officially qualify as a westerner?”

    “Depends on who you talk to. You met Art Holloway, right?”

    “Yeah—he chaired my interview with the search committee.”

    “He’s fourth generation Westbury stock, so that’s his benchmark.”

    She laughed softly. “So you’re telling me there’s absolutely no hope for me?”

    “There’s hope if you claim it. Nicky moved from Scotland five years ago, but she won’t let anyone tell her she’s not a proper Westburian!”

    “She’s something of a force of nature, isn’t she?”

    “She sure is. First time I met her, I knew Marcus was on to something.”

    “Does she teach at your school?”

    “She does now. Until a couple of years ago we had two schools, one primary and one junior and senior high. But two years ago they built us a brand-new combined school, and now we’re all under one roof.”

    “Is that a good thing?”

    I shrugged. “I like it just fine, but not everyone agrees with me. Of course, I miss the creaky floors I used to walk over when I was a kid, but I don’t miss the heating system that sometimes worked and sometimes didn’t.”

    “Old buildings have charm value, but new buildings can be more practical. It’s a classic dilemma.”

    “That’s for sure.”

    ***

    Later, as Cooper and I were driving home, I found myself pondering Jo’s question about how long you had to stay before you qualified as a westerner. Being born and raised here, it wasn’t something I’d thought about too much.

    Our town of Westbury, Saskatchewan dates back to about 1890, it became a village in 1899, and was incorporated as a town in 1905, the year the province of Saskatchewan was created. As prairie towns go, we like to think we’ve got a lot to offer: an outdoor swimming pool, two ball diamonds, two indoor hockey rinks, a curling rink, a bowling alley, and a sizeable public library. There’s an old barn that was brought into town a few years ago and converted into a community arts facility; it’s got two galleries (one for paintings and one for photography), a stage for plays and small concerts, a really good licensed restaurant where the discerning drinker can actually sip on a half-decent craft beer, and a small café. There’s a hospital, an excellent care facility for seniors, and lots of restaurants and cafés, bars and shops of various kinds. Those shops don’t serve just our town; there are smaller communities around us, and across the river, as I had mentioned to Jo, there’s the Pine Lake Cree Nation. There are about 850 people living on Pine Lake, so they certainly contribute to the economy of Westbury, although the way some of our townspeople grumble about them, you’d never know it.

    Indigenous people are only one part of the ethnic mix in our town, of course; we’ve got folks who trace their ancestry back to the British Isles, France, Germany, various eastern European countries (including Ukraine), the Philippines, southeast Asia, a couple of folks from Lebanon, and a sizeable contingent of Russian Mennonites who, confusingly, are actually ethnic Germans, although they came to Canada from Russia.

    Our indigenous folks are mostly Cree, although we do have some Metis families too. Our churches include Anglican, Catholic, United, Baptist, Alliance, Pentecostal, a couple of different flavours of Orthodox, and two different brands of Mennonite. Some of them are doing okay, and some are struggling.

    When I was a kid in the eighties and early nineties we had four old-fashioned wooden grain elevators standing beside the railway line. We still have one working elevator and another one that’s been preserved as a museum piece, but these days most of the grain goes to the two huge concrete grain terminals located a couple of miles north of town. We’re part of the breadbasket of Canada, although the small family farms that used to be the backbone of our community are having a harder time making ends meet these days. Farms tend to be bigger now, and some of them are actually owned by investors who live thousands of miles away.

    My family’s farm is a few miles east of town, just across the river from the Pine Lake Cree Nation. As I hinted before, relations between the town and what a lot of people still call ‘the reserve’ (or just ‘the Rez’) aren’t always warm and friendly—there’s a steady, low-grade rumble in the coffee shops of Westbury about hunting rights and taxes and free education and the general free ride that the ‘Indians’ get.

    Tensions are higher in the little village of Rochdale, located on the east side of the river, a couple of miles south of Pine Lake. Things frequently go missing from farms in that neck of the woods, and whether or not they’re actually responsible for the thefts, the kids from Pine Lake tend to get blamed for them. The Mounties come in for some criticism, too. “What’s the point in reporting stuff?” people ask. “The cops never do anything about it—they just let them get away with it.” The Westbury detachment has a member from Pine Lake now—Tanya Stonechild, who I’ve known since we were both about five—and there are people in town who roll their eyes about her, too.

    My mom and dad, however, always got on well with the Pine Lake folks and found them to be good neighbours. If dad needed a few extra bodies around the place to get some seasonal jobs done, he knew who to call on the Rez side of the river, and when the job was done, there’d always be a big spread with borscht and farmer sausage and moose meat and bannock and lots of strong tea. There are a few families of Sutherlands over there, and when I was a kid I made friends with one of them, James, who was about my age. He and I eventually went off to university together to get our teaching degrees, and like me, he’d ended up back home, teaching at Pine Lake. His grandma Caroline Sanderson—his kokum, I should say—was like a third grandma to me. She was a woman of few words, but when she said something, it was worth hearing.

    In recent years Pine Lake had made a bit of money, mainly from some very lucrative businesses it ran in Saskatoon, and there was talk of building a fancy conference centre in the old pine forest not far from the river. There was a general store there, with a gas bar and a little coffee shop, and recently a couple of local guys had started up a mechanic shop. There was a K-12 school with almost four hundred students; that was where James taught (like me, he was a social studies teacher), and his cousin Janine was the principal. James was married with a couple of little kids of his own, and of course my buddy Marcus was married to Nicky Fox, and they had my little goddaughter Daisy. I was the odd one out of the three friends; I was still single, and keeping house with Cooper.

    ***

    The morning after I met Jo Warren, I got together for a coffee with Marcus; he was the town administrator in Westbury, and in the summer months I liked to show up at the town office from time to time. If I just wanted to shoot the breeze with him for a few minutes I would drop by unannounced and take my chances, but if I was looking for a coffee I’d call ahead of time, which is what I did that morning, not long after he started work. I’d been up at the crack of dawn to walk Cooper before it got too hot, and now I was sitting under the umbrella on my back deck, sipping a cup of tea.

    He picked up the phone after the first ring. “Sprawled out on the deck, are you?” he said.

    “Good morning to you, too; how are you planning to spend my tax dollars this morning?”

    “It’s a pretty quiet day at the Westbury Town Offices; I might have to do some community relations work.”

    “Arts Barn at ten-thirty?”

    “Sounds good.”

    ***

    As I mentioned earlier, the Arts Barn was a converted barn that had been moved into town and renovated a few years ago. On the outside, it still looked like a classic red barn, except that it had a few more windows. At the back a low extension had been built to house the restaurant and, attached to it on one side, a little café—the destination of choice in town if you wanted Fair Trade coffee and fresh bakery goods. Thirty people would fill the place up, but there was also an outdoor deck with a few more tables and chairs, and if the mosquitos weren’t too enthusiastic, it could be a pleasant place to sip your coffee. That’s where Marcus and I sat that morning, enjoying the colours and scents of the flower garden that grew between us and the back alley.

    Like me, Marcus had been raised Mennonite, but his family weren’t churchgoers—or at least, his dad wasn’t; his mom (who had been born into a French Catholic family) showed up from time to time, although Robert Janzen hadn’t given her any encouragement over the years. He had a drinking problem, and eventually it landed him in jail, and then rehab, a cycle he repeated several times. He died in his mid-fifties, his body caving in under the pressure of the abuse he’d put it through.

    By then, Marcus had decided Al-Anon would be a good fit for him, and eventually his search for a Higher Power had led him to church. Not the Mennonite Church, though; his new bride Nicky was a devout Scottish Episcopalian, and when she arrived in Westbury from Fife, she immediately started attending St. Andrew’s Anglican Church. Her arrival coincided with the beginning of the ministry of Father Thomas Guthrie, who was, shall we say, a little awkward around people—a rather strange character trait for a priest. He meant well, but in the two and a half years that he was rector, church attendance had halved and income had cratered.

    Nicky, however, was stubborn about going to church, and she knew enough to remember that in small churches, faithful lay people usually stay longer than their clergy. Of course, being Nicky, she wanted to do her bit; she was a decent pianist and organist and a willing Sunday School teacher, and a couple of years ago she’d been elected as what the Anglicans call the ‘People’s Warden’, or as I put it, one of the two head honchos of the place (the other being Art Holloway, the ‘Rector’s Warden’).

    Marcus had short brown hair and a neatly trimmed beard, and he wore slightly rounded glasses that gave him a gentle, bookish look (you would never have guessed to look at him that he was a volunteer firefighter and a wicked hockey player). He was dressed casually that morning in a short-sleeved summer shirt and khakis. As was our custom, we raised our coffee cups to each other, clinked them together, and said, “Cheers.”

    “So,” I said after I took my first sip, “I met your new priest yesterday.”

    “Oh yeah? How did that happen?”

    “Cooper made friends with her dog at the park Her dog’s a little skittish, but Cooper was patient, and we ended up walking a couple of miles together.”

    “What did you think?”

    “I liked her. A little different from Thomas Guthrie.”

    “That’s for sure.”

    “Really down to earth, no pretension, no putting on the priest act. We had a nice walk and a nice conversation. Will this weekend be her first service?”

    “Yeah, but she won’t be officially installed—I think Nicky calls it her ‘induction’—for a month or so. The bishop’s coming up the week after Labour Day to do that. It’ll be a midweek service, so some of her clergy colleagues can attend.”

    “Right. So she’s here but she’s not here?”

    He shrugged. “I think it’s just a matter of Bishop Caleb’s schedule. By the way, it turns out they’re old friends.”

    “Jo and the bishop?”

    “Yeah; before he was elected he was a parish priest at St. Thomas’—that church in the less ritzy part of the city. She volunteered there, and he ended up pointing her in the direction of ordination. I guess he’s kind of a mentor for her.”

    “He’s a good guy. He and his wife were legends up in Montreal Lake when I taught there; they’re from there originally, and they still go back regularly to visit. Sarah has relatives at Pine Lake, too.”

    “Okay—I didn’t know that. But yeah, people in this diocese like him a lot. I was surprised when he was elected as bishop, actually. Of course, not everyone’s jumping for joy at the idea of having an indigenous guy as their bishop. Me, I just see him as a down-to-earth Christian who tries to love people.”

    “Nothing wrong with that.”

    “For sure.” He took another sip of his coffee and then gave me a conspiratorial look. “You want some insider information?”

    “Gossip, you mean?”

    “I guess.”

    “Sure. Does this fall under the category of ‘things you know because your wife’s a head honcho’?”

    “Probably. Think about it for a minute. Johanna’s a woman, she’s young, and her mentor was Caleb Young, an indigenous guy. The search committee was Art and Nicky from here, Mary Linney and Roy Clennett from Rochdale, and Gwen Fulcher and George Price from Howden. Of those six, who would you say would be least likely to vote in favour of asking the bishop to appoint someone like Johanna?”

    “Art, no question.”

    “He started out skeptical, but she won him over, and when it came time to vote, he was the first to speak in her favour.”

    I stared at him. “No way!”

    “That’s what Nicky said.”

    “How did that happen?”

    “Well, did you know that before she went to seminary she used to work at the Sally Ann in Saskatoon?”

    I shook my head. “I did not know that.”

    “It was on her resumé. She worked there for three years after she moved west from Toronto. When she started out she was doing basic grunt work as a volunteer—working in the kitchen, washing floors after people threw up, that sort of thing. Eventually she got hired, and then they found out she had a psychology degree, and they watched the way she handled people. Turned out she’d volunteered in that kind of setting in Toronto too, so this wasn’t her first time around the block. So they asked her to apply for a job as an intake worker, and I guess she did well. Nicky says the Sally Ann gave her a glowing reference about it.”

    “And Art was impressed by that?”

    “He was. I’m guessing part of that was the contrast with Father Thomas, who, as you know, didn’t have a lot of people skills.”

    I gave a low chuckle. “That’s for sure.”

    “Nicky said Jo never got flustered through the whole interview; Art pushed her a little at the beginning, but she kept her cool and never got defensive or hostile, even though he threw a dozen questions at her—everything from budgeting to aging buildings, to attracting young people, to whether or not she’d want us to call her ‘mother’.  And at the end, after she’d gone, he was the first to say they should give her a chance.”

    “He’s okay with the whole woman priest thing?”

    Marcus shrugged. “She’s not the first at St. Andrew’s, and Art’s got on with them before. I don’t think he’s crazy about it, and she’s young and not bad looking either, which is going to make a guy like him nervous. But yeah—in the end, the vote was unanimous.” He grinned at me. “But you didn’t hear it from me!”

    “Hear it? Hear what?”

    He laughed and took another sip of his coffee. “You know what—you should strike a blow for inter-church relations and come on Sunday, just to see how she does.”

    I grinned at him. “Will they let me in again? What if I stand up when everyone else is sitting, or turn to the wrong page in the green book?”

    “You’ve studied the history of the Reformation, but you still can’t figure out when to stand or sit in an Anglican service?”

    “That’s about the size of it.”

    “Sit with us; Daisy will help you.”

    I laughed out loud. “Daisy knows a lot more about Anglican services than I do!”

    “Seriously—come. I know Pastor Dan’s tied up with preaching at your church, but I’m sure he’d like it if someone from your congregation showed up to support the new Anglican priest. And you’d be a familiar face for Jo.”

    “Me and Cooper.”

    He grinned. “Daisy would like it if Cooper came, but a few other people might not.”

    I nodded slowly. “You know what, I might just take you up on that. I have to admit, I’m curious.”

    “Of course you are. There’s a potluck after; bring us some zwieback or a pot of borscht or something.”

    “I might just have to do that.”

    “Good—that’s settled, then.”

  • I’m a big fan of a podcast called ‘Zealots at the Gate‘, co-hosted by two friends: Matthew Kaemingk, an evangelical theologian, and Shadi Hamid, a Muslim political scientist . I’ve listened to every episode (as of the time of writing there have been 41), and have been especially grateful to learn a lot about Islam from an articulate practitioner of that faith. Matthew’s take on Christianity is a little different from mine, as he’s definitely in the ‘Reformed’ camp and tends to be conservative, while I’m a strange blend of Anglican and Anabaptist. However, the two of them are so learned (I’ve read some of Shadi’s political science books and found them very informative and challenging), and their conversations are so enjoyable, that I don’t find it difficult to look past the obvious differences between us and see them as beloved companions on the way (or ‘the Way’).

    Given my respect for these two guys, I was especially excited to discover that the subject of their latest episode was going to be C.S. Lewis’ classic book Mere Christianity, first written as a series of radio broadcasts during World War Two, and a bestseller almost from the moment it was published. Mere Christianity was a very important book for me when I was a relatively young Christian, and I’ve gone back to it gratefully many times since then.

    It turns out that Shadi Hamid has recently read the book and had some observations and questions to share about it. I appreciate the points he makes, and of course I realize that not everyone finds Lewis’ apologetic for Christianity convincing. The conversation on the book between Matthew and Shadi is quite enjoyable, and the fact that their friendship has always been based on honesty about the differences between them means that they are well-practiced in acknowledging those differences and exploring them together. To put it another way, they are not proponents of what is sometimes called the ‘Kumbaya’ view of interfaith dialogue: the belief that, at the heart, we all believe the same things. To make that claim (in Matthew and Shadi’s view) is to fail to really listen to each other, and to not take each other’s faith seriously. I absolutely applaud this approach.

    However, to be honest, I found some aspects of Matthew’s treatment of C.S. Lewis rather unsatisfying. In a nutshell, my problem is that Matthew is an evangelical and he seems to interpret Lewis as if he, also, was an evangelical. Which is a problem, because although Lewis believed firmly in the supernatural worldview that evangelicalism shares with other historical versions of Christianity, he was definitely not an evangelical himself.

    In the introduction to Mere Christianity, Lewis states that he is not particularly high church or low church, but is a very ordinary member of the Church of England. Lewis was in fact a medievalist who owed a lot to writers like Dante, Augustine, Hooker, and G.K. Chesterton. Furthermore, he says many times that his greatest theological influence was the nineteenth century Scottish writer George MacDonald, whose romantic theology was clearly formulated as a rebellion against the strict Calvinist evangelicalism of his youth.

    I should point out that there are a number of errors in Matt’s comments about Lewis (most of them minor). First, he states that Lewis was brought up in England. He wasn’t; he was brought up in Northern Ireland, and only moved to England to attend boarding school as a teenager. From there he went to live with a private tutor in Surrey, served in the army in World War One, and then went to Oxford, where he spent most of the rest of his life (his final years were spent in Cambridge). So yes—he lived the majority of his life in England, but he was not brought up there.

    Second, Matt doesn’t take seriously Lewis’ own account of his religious history. He says that Lewis ‘grew up in the early 20th century in England, and he was a brilliant young man, a young scholar of medieval literature, and was really sharp and could not quite bring himself to the Christian faith, was quite critical of it.’ This gives the impression that Lewis was raised as an unbeliever and only became a Christian later in life. But in his own autobiography ‘Surprised by Joy’, Lewis claims to have been brought up as a practising Christian in a churchgoing house in Ireland, and to have lost his faith when he was at boarding school. He then spent about twenty years as an atheist before coming back to a more intelligent adult faith in his early thirties.

    Third, Matt seems to claim that it is evangelicals who really appreciate Lewis. He says, ‘And it was a very influential book, not only in England, but here in the United States, for evangelicals‘, and he goes on to say, ‘So it’s an important book for generations of evangelicals as they think about Christianity (emphasis mine).

    Now I would not deny for a moment that a lot of evangelicals seem really enthusiastic about Lewis (this is actually a little weird, given that he definitely didn’t go along with some of their most cherished beliefs—biblical inerrancy, for instance, or justification by faith alone, or the penal substitutionary atonement model of the cross—and he was also famous for his love of tobacco and beer). But to give the impression that it was only evangelicals who appreciated Mere Christianity is very misleading. I suspect that Matt did not do this intentionally.

    As I said, Mere Christianity originated as a series of radio broadcasts given on the BBC during World War Two. There were four of these broadcast series, and they are reproduced as the four sections of the book.

    The first section is called ‘Right and Wrong as a Clue to the Meaning of the Universe’. In it, Lewis makes two arguments: first, that there is a moral law built into our human nature, and second, that we have not lived up to it. The fact that the law is universal leads him to posit the existence of an eternal Lawgiver – i.e., God. The fact that we all have, not only a conscience, but a guilty conscience, leads him to believe that we are in serious need of help—of a saviour, in fact.

    The second section is called ‘What Christians Believe.’ In it, Lewis argues for the Christian belief in the divinity of Jesus and his role as the saviour we need. He argues that it is absurd to believe that Jesus is only a great moral or religious teacher, when in fact Jesus makes some outrageous statements about himself which would completely invalidate such a claim. No, he says: Jesus was either a liar, a lunatic, or Lord and God.

    Interestingly, when Lewis explores how the death of Jesus on the Cross ‘saves us’ from our sins, he does not steer in the direction of the beloved evangelical ‘penal substitutionary atonement (PSA)’ theory (the idea that God could not forgive our sins unless someone was punished first, and that ‘someone’ was Jesus). Instead, he argues that Jesus is the ‘perfect penitent’ who consistently dies to his own will and lives for the will of God, which is what we all need to do if we are to be saved. He then argues that as we put our faith in Christ, Christ lives in us and gives us the strength to die to sin and live for God. This is interesting, but it is definitely not an evangelical view of the Cross.

    The Third Section is called ‘Christian Behaviour’ and is a clear presentation of what I would describe as small ‘c’ catholic moral theology. Lewis talks about the three parts of morality, and then covers the cardinal virtues, sexual morality and marriage, forgiveness, pride, charity, faith, and hope.

    The final section is called ‘Beyond Personality: First Steps in the Doctrine of the Trinity’. In it, Lewis explores the Trinity (which, he says, is an example of how theology is a sort of road map, giving the experiences of many previous generations of believers to guide those who live in the present). But the most famous statement in the book comes towards the end of this section:

    The principle runs through all life from top to bottom. Give up yourself, and you will find your real self. Lose your life and you will save it. Submit to death, death of your ambitions and favourite wishes every day and death of your whole body in the end: submit with every fibre of your being, and you will find eternal life. Keep back nothing. Nothing that you have not given away will be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in.

    This, let me state again, is exactly how Lewis thinks we experience salvation, and in this, he is very true to his theological mentor George MacDonald. We are not ‘saved’ by putting our faith in an innocent Someone who took the blame for our sins so that we could be set free from the duty to obey. On the contrary—to obey is to embrace the goodness of God’s will for us, but we can’t do it by ourselves. However, Christ has become a human being, has experienced this human struggle to subordinate ones own will to the will of God, and has done it successfully. As we are joined to him—to use Lewis’ memorable illustration, as we catch the ‘good infection’ from him—we are given strength to do the will of God and thus are saved from our sinfulness, in the sense that we can walk away from it into a new life of joyful obedience. Again, this is not evangelicalism; it is a more catholic vision of Christianity, which sees the Incarnation as the primary Christian doctrine, not the Atonement.

    And this is why I find some aspects of Matthew and Shadi’s discussion of Mere Christianity so unsatisfying. They discuss Lewis’ view that Christianity isn’t something we would have thought up for ourselves, because aspects of it seem so unlikely. All well and good, but then as an illustration of that, they go immediately to a place Lewis didn’t go to: Christianity, says Matt, ‘has this concept of grace, and even more than that, atonement, that your debts can be paid by someone else, and the Biblical story of how atonement works is a complicated one.’ In response, Shadi accepts Matt’s premise that this is an integral part of mere Christianity, and asks whether it is fair that our debts can be paid by someone else. Shadi doesn’t seem to realize that in engaging with this idea, he’s engaging with Matt, not with Lewis.

    I very much hope that everyone will read Mere Christianity and wrestle with the ideas C.S. Lewis presents in it. Some of Lewis’ ideas (male headship in marriage, for instance, or his rather strange arguments against Christian pacifism) have not worn well over the years, and will be a real stumbling block for modern readers approaching the book. For me, this is simply a reminder that all of us are children of our own times and we all have blind spots that will be obvious to people in the years to come, even though they are not obvious to us.

    But to me, the heart of the book is Lewis’ teaching about the Incarnation (God becoming human being), and the way it introduces the ‘good infection’ of divine life into our humanity, giving us the supernatural help we need to die to self and live toward God. Every time I read the book it inspires me to continue to live into that vision of Christianity. I hope it will do that for others, too.

  • For many years, John Sherrill was the editor of Guideposts magazine, as well as being co-author of many books. In one of those books he tells a story of something that happened to him when he was in hospital recovering from cancer surgery. He was lying awake at night, in some pain; there was also a boy on the other bed in the room, tossing and turning and sleeping fitfully. And suddenly, in the night, there was a light in the room; it seemed to be centred on the far ceiling. John watched it for a few minutes, curious, and then he said one word: ‘Christ?’ The light didn’t move, he said, but it was as if it enveloped him, and the pain from his wound eased.

    John’s roommate turned on his bed, moaning a bit with pain. John said, ‘Christ, could you help that boy?’ And it was as if the light enveloped the boy too, and immediately he slipped into a peaceful sleep. And then the light was gone.

    This encounter with the risen Christ was so powerful that it changed the rest of John Sherrill’s life; he says in his book that for months afterwards, when he tried to tell people about it, he choked up with tears. And I don’t know about you, but when I hear a story like that, I sometimes find myself a little envious. “Why can’t I have an experience like that? If Jesus is alive, why doesn’t he show himself to me, in a way that’s clear and unambiguous, like he did in the Bible after his resurrection?”

    But in the gospels, the resurrection appearances of Jesus weren’t always clear and unambiguous. As I said on Easter Sunday, one detail we sometimes forget is that when Jesus appeared to his disciples after the resurrection, they didn’t always recognize him right away. For instance, when Mary Magdalene met the risen Jesus beside the empty tomb, she ‘saw Jesus standing there, but she did not know that it was Jesus’ (John 20:14); she didn’t recognize him until he spoke her name, “Mary.”

    We get the same thing in our gospel reading for today. On Easter Sunday afternoon, two disciples of Jesus are walking the seven-mile journey from Jerusalem to the village of Emmaus. We’re told that one of them is called Cleopas. Elsewhere in the gospels there’s mention of a woman called ‘Mary the wife of Clopas’; if Clopas is the same person as Cleopas, then these two disciples in today’s story might well be a married couple. If they are, then the rest of the story makes more sense. The reason the two of them appear to have a home together in Emmaus is that they’re husband and wife, and in the culture of the day it would have been natural for them to offer the stranger hospitality for the night.

    But I’m getting ahead of myself. I imagine Cleopas and Mary walking slowly, sadly, talking about the awful things that had happened to Jesus in Jerusalem that weekend. Their eyes are down; their faces are sad. But then along comes Jesus, but somehow their eyes are kept from recognizing him. He asks them, “What were you talking about?” And then out comes the sad story about Jesus of Nazareth. Cleopas says,

    “He was a man of God, a prophet, dynamic in work and word, blessed by both God and all the people. Then our high priests and leaders betrayed him, got him sentenced to death, and crucified him. And we had our hopes up that he was the One, the One about to deliver Israel.” (vv.19b-21a, The Message)

    In other words, “We thought he was the Messiah, but he obviously can’t have been, because if he was, God wouldn’t have abandoned him like that. But he was such a good guy; we really loved him and believed in him.” But then Cleopas goes on:

    “And it is now the third day since it happened. But now some of our women have completely confused us. Early this morning they were at the tomb and couldn’t find his body. They came back with the story that they had seen a vision of angels who said he was alive. Some of our friends went off to the tomb to check and found it empty just as the women said, but they didn’t see Jesus.” (vv.21b-24, The Message)

    And then Jesus responds. I love the way the New English Bible translates his first words to them: “How dull you are!” (v.25). The Message says,

    Then he said to them, “So thick-headed! So slow-hearted! Why can’t you simply believe all that the prophets said? Don’t you see that these things had to happen, that the Messiah had to suffer and only then enter into his glory?” Then he started at the beginning, with the Books of Moses, and went on through all the Prophets, pointing out everything in the Scriptures that referred to him. (vv.25-27)

    Eventually they get to Emmaus. The stranger looks as if he’s going on, but Cleopas and Mary invite him in. “Stay with us, because it is almost evening, and the day is now nearly over” (v.29). So he accepts their invitation. While they’re eating together, he takes the bread, blesses it, breaks it, and gives it to them. And at that moment, it’s as if the scales fall from their eyes; they recognize that Jesus has been with them all the time. Immediately he’s gone, but they have no doubt he’s still with them, even though they can’t see him. Travel at night is dangerous, but they’re not afraid anymore. I can hear the laughter in their voices: “Were not our hearts burning within us while he was talking to us on the road, while he was opening the scriptures to us?” (v.32). And so they didn’t waste a minute; I’m sure the return journey to Jerusalem was a lot faster than the outward journey. They’d met the risen Lord; they just had to pass on the word to the others!

    Luke is the only gospel writer to include this story in full. Why does he tell it?

    I don’t think he’s just telling us about something that happened long ago. I think he’s also instructing us about how we can meet Jesus today. The appearance won’t be unambiguous; we’ll need the Holy Spirit to ‘open our eyes’ so we can recognize his presence in the scriptures and the breaking of bread. Luke knows what he’s doing: he’s writing for a generation of Christians who haven’t seen the Risen Jesus. He wants them to know that this doesn’t mean they can’t experience Jesus’ presence with them. And that includes us; our eyes can be opened too, so we can see him in places where at first we didn’t recognize him. And two of the most common places are the Scriptures and the breaking of bread, or Holy Communion.

    At the beginning of the story, Cleopas and Mary are despondent. “We thought he was the Messiah, but he obviously can’t have been, because if he was, God wouldn’t have abandoned him like that.” I hear their disappointment, their anger, their confusion. I hear a desire to believe in the resurrection, but also a fear of false hopes, and almost a sense of “It’s too good to be true!”

    Sometimes when we gather for worship each week, we come like these two disciples. We’re confused, disappointed, wanting to believe but finding it harder than we thought it would be, hurt by the wounds the world has given us. Maybe we remember a time when faith was easy, and we wonder why it’s so difficult now. Maybe we wonder why bad things happen to good people. Maybe we wonder why we seem to find it so hard to have any real sense of connection with God. Maybe we even ask those threatening questions: “Does God really care? Is God silent? Is God even there at all?”

    You see, this isn’t only a story of two disciples who met Jesus on a road long ago: it’s a story about us, too. Perhaps Jesus is coming to us, too, but we’re full of grief and sorrow, and our eyes are kept from recognizing him. Luke is encouraging us to ask God to open our eyes, so we can recognize the risen Jesus. And especially, so we can recognize him in the two main parts of our service this morning: the word, and the sacrament.

    First, the Word. After the risen Jesus had been revealed to the two disciples, they said to each other, “Were not our hearts burning within us while he was talking to us on the road, while he was opening the scriptures to us?” While it was happening, they hadn’t realized it, but afterwards, after their eyes were opened, they remembered how vivid the experience was as he went through scripture after scripture and pointed out the connection with his life and death and resurrection. It was like a walking Bible study, all from memory, and the more Jesus talked, the more their hearts responded.

    I love this saying of the sixteenth century reformer Martin Luther: ‘the Bible is the cradle where we find the infant Christ.’ The Bible doesn’t point to itself; it points us to Jesus. That’s why we value it so highly.

    Every week in our Anglican services we read big chunks of the Bible: Old Testament, Psalm, New Testament, Gospel. Some people think this is just the appetizer, with Communion as the main course, but that’s really not the case. We don’t just see Jesus in the bread and wine; we see him in the scriptures too.

    I think this became very real to me during Covid, when we couldn’t meet together and take communion. But we could still listen to the Bible in our online services and Bible studies, and many of us sensed something special happening there. And still today, Jesus is present in the reading of scripture, meeting us, teaching us, opening our eyes to his truth. Maybe, like these two on the road to Emmaus, we don’t realize it ‘til afterwards; we look back on our time of Bible reading and Bible study and we say, “Weren’t our hearts burning within us while he was opening the scriptures to us?”

    First, the Word, and second, the Sacrament. ‘When he was at the table with them, he took bread, blessed, and broke it, and gave it to them. Then their eyes were opened, and they recognized him; and he vanished from their sight. (vv.30-31)’

    It’s worth remembering that when Luke wrote this gospel, most Christians were still experiencing Holy Communion as part of an evening meal. Our earliest account of it is in Paul’s first letter to the Corinthians, and it seems to have been a sort of potluck supper. The believers would eat together and have fellowship, and at some point, there would be a time of scripture reading and teaching. And then someone would take the bread and wine, give thanks for them as Jesus had done, and share them around the table. In fact, this story from Luke might well have been read for the first time in the context of a meal exactly like that. And you can imagine that the listeners would have made the connection right away.

    How is Jesus present in the Eucharist? Is it a local presence in the bread and wine, which become his body and blood? Is he present in the actions we do—taking, giving thanks, breaking, sharing—just like in this Emmaus story? Is it a presence growing in our hearts by faith, as our mouths eat the bread and sip the wine?

    Those questions are fascinating but ultimately insignificant. Theologians have debated them for centuries, and meanwhile, ordinary Christians like you and me continue to come forward, share communion together, and leave church with a sense that somehow we’re stronger and calmer and more joyful and more connected to God than we were when we arrived. Or at least, our stress levels have gone down a bit! We can’t explain it, but we can experience it. That’s one of the reasons why we keep coming.

    Well, there are many more things we could say about this wonderful reading, but I need to stop now. So let’s just go round this one last time.

    We come here each Sunday, longing to meet the risen Jesus. Maybe our week has been tough, like these two disciples on the road; maybe we’re hurt, or confused, or angry, or doubting. So Jesus comes to us here and meets us. As the scriptures are read and preached, he opens our hearts and minds to understand what’s written there. But it’s not just an intellectual thing; it’s relational as well. Our hearts burn within us as he opens up the word to us.

    And then comes the sacrament: his body is broken, his blood poured out, and in the bread and wine those gifts are given to us. So we come in faith, holding out our hands, trusting that he will keep his word. And he does: whether we feel anything or not, he has said it, so we can rely on it.

    Let’s pray that this will be real in our experience—so real that we won’t be able to keep it to ourselves. We’ll be like those two at Emmaus, who ran all the way back to Jerusalem to tell their friends what had happened on the road, and how Jesus had been made known to them in the scriptures and in the breaking of the bread. In the name of God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Amen.

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