I don’t know the day of my death,
the day I will draw my last failing breath.
I don’t know how it may come –
the end of my days under the sun.
But as I let go the moorings
and drift out into your sea,
I know you will be there sailing with me.
I might live to healthy old age,
in gladness and joy to the end of my days.
But then again, in the blink of an eye
the summons may come – the day I must die.
But as I cross the horizon
on a path my eyes cannot see,
I know you will be there walking with me.
Even now when the day’s work is done,
I lie down and sleep ’til the morning light comes.
And I know when I reach my last rest,
safe in your care I will wake up refreshed.
And on that bright morning
when the world is made new and free,
I know you will be there awakening me.
Copyright Tim Chesterton, May 2010
Demo recording to follow before too long, hopefully!
Thirty two years ago tonight, on May 5th 1978, I knelt before Bishop Mark Genge in St. James’ Cathedral, Toronto, and was commissioned as an evangelist in the Church Army. As I look back on that night I’m absolutely amazed that the Church Army would take a gamble on one as young and naive as I was (I was not yet twenty at the time). I made a lot of mistakes in those early years – something that has probably not changed much.
But there have been plenty of other changes. After twelve years as a lay evangelist I was ordained a deacon by Bishop Jack Sperry in the Arctic, in October 1990. Later, in May 1992, I was made a priest by Bishop John Clarke. I moved from rural Saskatchewan, to the Arctic, to northern Alberta and then to the city of Edmonton. Marriage and family life knocked away some of my rough edges. Writers like Philip Yancey, Eugene Peterson, Tom Wright and John Howard Yoder enlarged my understanding of the gospel. And the Church Army itself has changed; it became an interdenominational organisation, and this year it abandoned the para-military ethos and began a new phase of its life as Threshold Ministries.
Recently I’ve been getting a lot of nourishment from the writings of David Hansen, especially his two books ‘The Art of Pastoring’ and ‘Loving the Church you Lead‘. I think I could sum up David’s approach (in terms I hope he would recognise) by saying that, in his view, pastoral ministry is simple and difficult, but many people would prefer it to be complicated and easy.
When I say that it’s simple, I mean that it is about simple things like living a holy life and loving people. But these are not easy things. Holiness is hard, very hard. It involves walking the way of the cross, living in daily repentance from sin, and following the teaching and example of Jesus. And loving people is very demanding, too; much more so than sitting behind a desk and ‘running a church’.
I would often prefer pastoral ministry to be complicated and easy. If it’s complicated, it means I have to take a course and become an expert in some new approach to ministry, and this is very gratifying to my ego because people can then look up to me because of my expertise. It then becomes my professional know-how that makes the parish grow, not the power of the gospel and the work of the Holy Spirit.
No, pastoral ministry isn’t complicated, but it is very demanding. That’s why prayer is so important. Without prayer I can’t help people connect with the living God, because I can’t lead people deeper into the spiritual life than I’ve gone myself. So prayer, holiness, and love are essential to real pastoral and evangelistic ministry.
I’m thankful to David Hansen for reminding me of these things. I get so easily distracted by stuff that looks enticing but actually leads me away from the way of the cross. Thank God for sending us people who remind us of what ministry is really all about.
This blog will remain closed for the time being, mainly for the reasons previously alluded to (see David Keen’s blog post pre-Lent). I thoroughly enjoyed my blog-free Lent and am not yet ready to abandon the benefits I received from it.
Every year, during Lent, I give up blogging and reading blogs.
I was going to post my reasons for doing so, but David Keen has pretty well summed them all up for me here.
If you’re not giving up blogging for Lent, I recommend you keep your eye on Felix Hominum where Joe will be blogging through Dante’s Purgatorio.
Have a good Lent, everyone.
I’m off Monday on the annual clergy retreat at the Star of the North Retreat Centre in St. Albert. Talk to you all later in the week.
I have just finished my second reading of Dave Hansen’s very fine book ‘The Art of Pastoring: Ministry Without All the Answers’ (IVP, 1994). I think this is the very best book I have ever read on being a pastor.
We pastors nowadays are being inundated with books, workshops, courses, resources, and movements, all of them offering ‘the answer’ for making our ministries a success. Whether it’s purpose-driven ministry, or Natural Church Development, or the church growth movement, or mission action planning, or mission-shaped ministry, or – well, name your own popular trend here – our bookshelves are groaning under the weight of the books (or, more likely, DVDs and three-ring binders) that will finally solve The Problem for us. You know The Problem I mean – the fact that our churches aren’t experiencing numerical growth, or aren’t experiencing every member ministry, or aren’t meeting their budgets, or aren’t impacting the neighbourhood etc. etc.
Dave Hansen’s book is a refreshing contrast to all of these. He doesn’t offer us a program, a movement, or a fad. He starts by offering us an image: the pastor is a parable of Jesus Christ. A parable moves from the known to the unknown; the known casts fresh light on the unknown. He says: ‘The thesis of this book is that people meet Jesus in our lives because when we follow Jesus, we are parables of Jesus Christ to the people we meet’. In other words, our role is a simple one: we live our lives in such a way as to remind people of Jesus Christ and to cast fresh light on him. And this requires us to walk the Way of the Cross, as Jesus did.
Did I give the impression that this is an easy book? Sorry about that – it’s not. And yet, in one sense it is easy: it’s not hard to read or understand. Hansen is a great storyteller and offers us many of his own experiences as resources to help us grasp the simple concepts he teaches. But it’s not an easy book, because it challenges us to live holy, Christlike lives and to love people. It’s a lot easier to follow the latest church growth program: that doesn’t require me to repent of my sins and take up my cross and follow Jesus.
I’ve spent my ministry as a small-church pastor; so has Hansen. He wrote this book in the mid-1990s just after finishing his first (nine-year) pastorate in a two-point rural parish in Montana, working in congregations of the Presbyterian and American Baptist traditions. As a child he was an Episcopalian but his parents later became mainline Baptists, and that is the denomination of his ordination. But he has never pastored a megachurch. He knows where I live.
It’s tempting to fill yards of column space with quotes from this book. Here are a few of my favourites:
‘Task-driven ministry always gives way to a time-management ministry as opposed to a Spirit-led ministry. The pastor’s day is divided into hours and tasks rather than opportunities to do God’s will. The problem is that when I fine-tune my week, tweaking it like a piano-tuner to a perfect A440, I am out of harmony with the kingdom of God. I experience fewer of those serendipitous, perfect opportunities to talk to people about Christ. You know what I mean: the evangelism you never plan, which works better than the evangelism you do plan’.‘The Holy Spirit functions in the pastor’s life as in Jesus’ life. Because we are followers of Jesus Christ, the love of the Father is poured into our hearts. This love is the active, building power of the Holy Spirit. When we live our lives directed and empowered by the Holy Spirit, as Jesus did, we are like Jesus. Even though our ability to follow the Spirit’s leading cannot come close to Jesus’ ability, we are parables of Jesus Christ’.‘I’ve never heard a pastor tell me that he or she was too busy praying to do other things. I’ve only heard pastors say they were too busy doing things like counselling, organizing worship extravaganzas and managing church affairs to spend much time in prayer. Need we enquire further why the devil wants us busy, pandering to our people’s desire for shortcuts?’‘I suppose the existence of God is the only real issue of the pastoral ministry. Not whether God exists, but where God is and what God is. Both questions are answered in the friendship of God experienced in prayer. The pastor’s life of prayer answers the questions of the existence of God on the deepest experiential level. These questions are answered in the pastor’s personal life of prayer, and the pastor answers the questions for others through prayer for them’.‘Pastoral calling whose motivation is church growth – visiting to ‘sell’ the church – isn’t friendship. It’s peddling… Instead of working, I get paid to go fishing. Most men in our church love to fish. It’s tough floating down a crystalline river past deer, mink and herons, casting to three-pound wild trout. But as an evangelist I get more mileage sitting in a river boat talking to a man about Christ than I do by sitting in his front room with his wife hanging over us hoping I can make her husband come to church. I don’t consider that to be an evangelistic atmosphere’.‘Can pastors call friendship “work?” I doubt that we can. I tell people that I read the Bible, pray, and visit with friends. That’s all I do. It’s not work. It’s tiring at times. But we shouldn’t expect people to cal what we do “work”‘.
There are many more fine passages in this book. But if you’d like to get a flavour of the sort of pastoral ministry Dave Hansen is describing, you can find a very good interview with him online here. If you are a pastor, I’d encourage you to read this interview, and then to go out and buy this book. For myself, I can only say that at the moment this is the book the Lord is using to save the soul of my ministry. I cannot recommend it highly enough.